Falling apart on the inside

Intact on the outside,

Hoping you don't notice

How badly I need you.

when I see your face,

I smile on the outside

Even though there's a tsunami of emotion on the inside

ready to flow out of my eyes.

When I see your face, all I can see are memories

ones I wish would last forever

and if you had asked me then

I would've told you that they would.

Now I refrain myself from telling you

I'm still reminiscent about our past.

and they say that love is blind,

But i think I'm the one who truly was;

i wanted to believe this would last

And now I want to know why the best days of my life hurt to think about.

or why I had to find out, that the days I had with you, the ones I've always dreamed of, were only just dreams.

Maybe it's because I was falling fast down the rabbit hole called love

for you since day one,

but on day two hundred fifteenth,

you fell out of it just as fast.

i don't blame you for it either,

if our flame didn't die

we'd be burning alive

in our own fire.

The same one I would've walked through

To make your smile whole again.