What is going on with me lately?

I sit on the bench at the cemetery needing to get away. I just sit here and watch Larry fix things up.

"I-i don't think I was meant to come back" I gulp and stare at the ground "something wrong with me and I I just don't know what to do? I don't want to talk to anyone about it because they just won't understand"

"If you weren't meant to be here you wouldn't be here" Larry says

"Yeah I guess" I sigh

It's quiet again until I hear crunch of leaves, I look up and see Felix. "You stalking me?" I ask him not really wanting to see anyone but at the same time not wanting to be alone

He shrugs "your intersting"

"How?" I ask a little confused

"Well you do hang out at a cemetery" he gestures around us

"It's calming" I say not caring at the moment if he thinks I'm a freak

He sits next to me "as weird as that sounds, your right"

I smile happy that someone agrees with me.

"I notice you were up most of the night?" He says out of the blue

"Yeah couldn't sleep" I shrug "what your excuse?" I raise an eyebrow

He sighs "couldn't sleep" he repeats my excuse

I look at him and he looks just as worn out as me.

"Did you have a nightmare?" He asks me looking at me and waiting for my answer

"Yeah but it wasn't that bad " I say not wanting anyone to worry

"It must of been since you didn't sleep for the rest of the night" he says to me

I don't say anything because I don't know what to say. "I get it I mean I haven't been the same since my parents died and I don't think I'll ever be that person ever again" he says quietly

I look at him realize we are more alike than I thought "sometimes I wonder if I supposed to go when they did" I say and hoping he'll understand

He nods like he does "I know, but we're here and I guess we just have to do what everyone says and just move on" he says the last part bitterly

"I don't like talking to my aunt about this because I don't like to worry her, I see her watching me and I have to make sure she thinks I'm okay" I say like that we are talking like friends

"Everyone wants me to be the old Felix but I don't know him anymore and everyone needs to realize he's not coming back" he says like he's been holding all this in

"Well I didn't know him so" I shrug trying to make him feel better

He laughs and shakes his head "I'm glad otherwise you would be very disappointed with how I turned out"

I put my head on his shoulder, something I'm not sure he will like but I feel like he needs some kind of comfort and I need it too.