"It hurts so much" She whined

She'd just finish getting her tattoo, which took a really long time cause I kept telling Pa to stop and to let her breathe. She kept screaming and I didn't like seeing her in that much pain.

"I'm sorry but I can't help you with that" I said, we were holding hands and walking to my spot. I had to take her there, had to let her in on everything she has a right to know now.

"How much farther?" She asked

"Almost there," I said we turned and walked up the hill, her on my back. I didn't want her getting hurt she was wearing heels and she was a little bit intoxicated.

We finally made it up the hill and I gently helped her down and the view was gorgeous, as usual but tonight it looked even prettier, maybe cause I was with her, she makes everything look good. "Wow" she whispered in amazement

The stars looked as if they were just an arms length away and the moon was gigantic above us. Beyond us down below we're just a bunch of trees, the head top of trees except for one spot. It looked as if a forest fire happened and the area was destroyed.

"It's beautiful isn't it?" I asked hugging her from behind, "I come here at least once a day if possible, to think, reflect, to pray, to try and find my peace" I said

I unwrapped myself from behind her and took her hand pulling her closer and the area that looked destroyed was drawn out further and now you could see the whole area was just sitting there barren, "see that over there?" I pointed to the area that was burnt away She nodded

"That used to be my home, a long time ago" I said, "it was the Dark moon pack house and territory,"

"Dark Moon pack? But you're in Moon River pack... you guys changed names and location?" She asked looking up at me her eyes curious and I really couldn't ignore the innocence that lied beneath it

I let out a humorless chuckle, "sit" I said sitting on the hill and she followed "I remember playing with Ricky, Raven, Alexis, and my 2 brothers Warren and Phillip they were older than me I was only 8 at the time. We'd play together everyday, we were all best friends. My parents," I said taking a pause she took my hand in hers

"my mother was helping the other women with lunch and my father watched as we played. It honestly didn't feel any different from any other day, I didn't hear anything any different, I didn't see it coming I couldn't even smell them. It wasn't until Alexis, my youngest sister fell to the ground. I thought she tripped, she was a clumsy girl being only 6, I went to help her but as I got closer I could see she didn't fall from clumsiness. Her rosy cheeks.. they were pale her eyes turned dark and it was then I saw she was shot by an arrow"

She gasped in shock. The look on her face, pity? She caressed over my knuckles in reassurance making it a little easier to continue, I held onto her hand tighter and continued, "then before I could even get a single word out to my father the other people who were outside started dropping like flies, my father told us to go in, he yelled out war. I wanted to move, I wanted to run away but my body was frozen staring at my baby sister dead in front of me. If only I wasn't so stupid and I went inside..." I paused again

"You don't have to continue Mas," she said

"No, I'm fine." I replied "my brother Warren came to save me from an incoming arrow—

Story time flashback

"Mason No!" Warren yelled jumping in front of an incoming arrow

It was a silver arrow, just like the one that struck Alexis. Warren fell to the floor and whispered his last breath

"Run Mason, please" he said a tear coming out his eye after that he fell lifeless

Quickly Ricky, Phillip and Raven came by side Phillip and Ricky shielding raven and I. We ran to the entrance of the house the boys were shouting and raven was crying. I didn't know what to do but just keep moving, I was in utter shock.

We got inside and as soon as the doors closed and locked Ricky and Phillip had tears and their faces pale. It wasn't till my mother came with a few of the other women that I realized they were struck by not 1 but 3 arrows in the back. Raven started crying and trembling and as the weak boy I was I froze tears coming out my eyes.

Before I knew it the attackers were inside killing people left and right but my mother took both Raven and my hand and ran with us. Things were flying throughy the windows people were choking on and bleeding out the mouth. It was horrific.

-END FLASHBACK

"My father had a secret hide out in his study behind the book shelf and that where we were headed. " an image struck my mind causing me to stop talking just for a second

Too many dead body's and injured ones

"On the way I could remember turning to the corridor before nearing my fathers study was 3 fingers a pinkie, index and thumb. Still don't know if those belonged to one of our people or one of ... you" I couldn't help the sudden coldness in my tone

"Behind the book shelf isinde the wall was a small space enough to fit both raven and I. "

Speed this up mason.... wen whimpered,

I took a deep breath and ignored the saddening pitiful look in her eyes, "my mom shut us inside and gave us instructions not to talk, not to cry, and not to move. She made me promise to watch over raven and take care of her, it was clear we were on our own from then on" I finished as quick and as least nostalgic as possible

"I..." she started but I didn't even let her get there rest out I knew she was just gonna say I'm sorry

"Don't. Even though it happened all those years ago it still haunts me to this very day. It was a damn massacre and for what reason ?? We were the least problematic pack, my father always made sure to respect the laws and never do anything to purposely harm anyone human and non. It was purely out of spite and I know it. I lost everyone I loved because of hatred and that's the reason why I fucking detest humans ." I said feeling the anger and pain start to rise up I took in a deep breath and her scent calmed me down

"Yet the feelings I have for you keep building even though I try to ignore them. I want to be the best mate and I know I've fucked up a thousand times over but I just want to know if we can make this happen. I want us to work Autumn" I said sincerely, she stared at our hands then back up at me

"What about Raven?" She asked her voice small

"What about her?" I asked back,

"So she's staying...."

"For a while, yes" I replied back honestly

"Why? It doesn't make any sense. She should be dead." I clenched my jaw and tried to keep calm and collected.

"The only person I have left is that girl, she's the only thing I have left from my pack from my family. I promised to take care of her and to never leave her and I can't go back " I heard her sigh and slowly she took her hand out of mine

"That's the thing mason, I completely understand what you said and it pains me to know you went through that but do you understand what you're putting me through? Your mate and as of today Luna..." her hair blew in the wind making her look beautiful as ever

"You keep putting her before me, and I know that she means a lot to you but don't I mean anything to you at all? " wen whimpered at her words "this girl could've killed me but you continuously baby her and protect her. She doesn't need protection."

"I have her kept underground in a cell with bars made of steel. I have guards standing outside ready for anything if she ever found a way to escape. She's not going anywhere I don't get what you're so afraid of,"

She rolled her eyes at me and groaned "I'm not afraid of her mason, she may be a wolf but I think I'm more wolf than she is. I'm afraid that she's gonna take you from me,you guys have history and you guys were together. You love this girl and to think that MY man is in love with another woman is fucking upsetting! It pisses me off and I just-" she balled her fists tight, she was frustrated and I get it

"Hey, hey relax mama" I placed a hand over her fist caressing it "I'm not even gonna lie to you, I do love raven. I love her so much," she looked up at me with daggers in her eyes

"But just because I love her doesn't mean I'm in love with her. There's a difference. She's family. My only family left, I was with her before I met you and when I met you I was able to make the difference of loving someone and being in love with someone. I was just stupid and had way too much pride, but I wanna prove to you that your all I need"

She shrugged and looked away from me, not believing a word I was saying... can you blame her?

"I'll let Raven go. I wasn't gonna let her live here again, like you've said she is a threat and I know that. The pack comes first, but put into consideration that she's the only thing I have left. I will not throw her out like she's nothing, she's wounded so she's staying in the cell until her wounds have healed and then I'll have her sent to another pack house far from ours. It's the least I can do without feeling like I've failed my mom" I said, she looked back over at me staring

"I get to pick where she gets sent" she said causing me to smile slightly

"Deal," I said

She nodded and bit her lip trying to hide her smile. I pulled her close having her back on my chest and we just sat in silence, I couldn't help but stare at what used to be my home, today I realized how I truly have no family left the one person who I considered family has proven to be a monster and a menace... I really wish my parents were here today to see me crown my Luna...

I miss you guys..