"What if I don't want you to."

Hold yourself back Christopher Bang. Don't fuck it up.

"Felix you aren't being yourself."

"So beautiful."

Oh lord chan wanted to take the boy right then and there.

Chan carefully placed his hands on top of Felix's and removed them from his body leaving only the ghost of his touch, and held them in his own. "Felix you're tired, you just woke up. Go and take a shower and then come down for breakfast okay?" Chan spoke in the softest voice he could muster.

The boy was again staring intently at Chan's bare chest with curious eyes. After a minute of silence, Felix nodded and stuck out his bottom lip. So cute.

Chan reached down and pecked him on the forehead.

Felix let go of his hands and practically ran out of his room. Oh no, did he go too far? Damn it he fucked it up.

Felix ran to his room and slammed the door, leaning up against it. He placed his hand over his heart. Calm down heart!

What in the curly frying hecking ass craziness had gotten into him.

He really just embarrassed himself again huh. There was no way he could face Chan again. Nuh uh. Why did you do it feliiiixxx. You just couldn't resist touching him could you, even worse, you basically told him to- ughhhhhh!!!!

Felix sat down on his bed and contemplated jumping out the window and running away. No, it was too high up.

He even kissed him on the forehead. The warmth of Chan's lips on his skin remained as did the feeling of care that lingered in the sweet kiss. He lifted his fingers and brushed them over the still tingling spot.

After contemplating everything for a good ten minutes, Felix decided to freshen up as he didn't want Chan to be waiting too long for him to eat breakfast. Though he really wished he could skip it entirely.

As the cold water ran through his dark hair and slithered down the slope of his back, Felix became immersed in thought. What was that feeling he felt when he saw Chan shirtless - why was he so affected by it.

He felt hot inside, and he had a desire to just touch him. He wanted to know what it felt like, and surely, the blond boys skin was as fiery as his own.

Something very small inside of him was also very curious to know in which way he would react to the touch that was so unfamiliar.

Felix realised how long he was taking only when he felt the water, as cold as it was, burn against his skin from constantly beating the same area on his back.

Once clothed, he slowly walked down the stairs, regretting everything. He had finally made it to the dining table without beating himself up and smiled automatically when he saw blond boy seated in a chair, food placed both infront of him and on the table for the chair across from him.

He rested a hand on his cheek and gave back his soul crushing smile.

"Hey there b-" he cleared his throat upon seeing the maids walk through the kitchen door, "Felix."

Felix could not move.

Chan almost called him- in front of- who would've told-

Nonono he didn't even want to think about it.

He slowly walked over to the seat and pulled it out, embarrassment rushing through his body and running straight to his cheeks. He sat without a word. He refused to do so much as to look at Chan.

Felix picked up his knife and fork and began cutting the fried egg. The few maids standing by the entrance of the dining room with their eyes busy trying to look anywhere but them made things quite awkward.

Chan cleared his throat, "so this morning-"

Felix dropped the piece of egg about to go into his mouth, shot up and slapped a hand over the Chan's before he could continue his sentence.

Panic clearly evident in his eyes, Felix looked over to the maids, trying to hint to Chan to not mention anything around them.

Chan looked like he was about to burst into laughter. What was that about? Is this man really gonna joke about it now is he.

Felix was offended.

He felt something wet on his palm all of a sudden. Ewwwww. "You. did. not."

He quickly pulled his hand away and started desperately wiping it on a napkin previously provided. "Little pumpkin head. Thinks he can lick my hand! You'll see what you'll get. He'll see!"

"You know I can hear you right."

"Stupid Bald eagle thinks he's the shit now huh? I'll show him."

"Bald- bald eagle!? I'll bald eagle you in a second."

"Try. Me. Bitchass turtle neck."

They were now standing out of their seats, both hands on the table, staring daggers into each others eyes. All previous emotions from the morning vanished.

"Yeah well I will! I'll-"

"boys!!"

Felix froze. He knew this voice.

"My office, now!"

Both he and Felix were sat in two different chairs on the opposite side of his father. Felix had his head hung low, obviously embarrassed due to being caught in the middle of a verbal fight.

Chan felt guilty. It was his fault for licking the boys hand but honestly, he didn't expect it to go that far. Right now, he just wanted to cuddle the little boy and tell him everything was alright.

Chan snapped his vision off of Felix and onto his father when he had announced that the fight wasn't the reason he wanted to see them.

He listened with curious ears, his father never wanted to simply 'talk'. There had to be something else.

"Boys I haven't quite had the chance to talk to you both together in one room yet so I thought I would today since I have not much on my schedule." He took off his glasses and placed them on the desk infront of him.

"Felix, how has your stay been so far?"

he avoided eye contact with the man as he simply answered, "good."

"Don't be shy. Tell me, has chan been okay to you?" He met eyes with chan, "he's been through a lot, so I apologise if he's ever been rude. Or gives you a hard time. I believe he caused a lot of trouble in school." Chan could hear the guilt laced in the older mans voice, he felt somewhat like a disappointment.

The fact that his father had to inform Felix about himself made him feel like a failed child. A normal father should be able to be proud of his kid and show him off. Telling others he would do well in the future and that he wouldn't trade his kid for the world. Chan felt as though his couldn't do that. As he always had felt, but ignored it.

His head hung low as silence filled the room.

"Mr bang, I couldn't ask for a better person to be here with me. Your son has shown me kindness always and proved to be a pretty decent person. I don't know how he acts in his school, but I sure as hell know that he's one great kid."

Warm. Safe. Happy.

These were the exact words of how chan felt after hearing those words.

Hope.

He had hope for a better future. Truth was, chan shut everyone out in school. People were scared of him. But it was different with Felix, he didn't want felix to be scared of him.

Happiness.

He looked over to Felix and caught his eyes in a stare. The two exchanged light, warm smiles. Thank you, he wanted to say. The word held so much meaning in this moment. But it was cut short by his father interrupting.

"And Jinyoung. He couldn't be here because he was working on his project. How's he been to you felix."

"Oh yeah good good, he's been really nice and helpful."

Jinyoung? Who was jinyoung?

"Jinyoung..?"

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🤠 hello 🤠 uh 🤠 it's been a while 🤠 i would like to formally apologise i have no excuse, i fell out of writing for a bit and i don't know how often i'll be able to update but uh 🤠 please wait for me and again, i'm so sorry 🥺💖

Dis crispy ass don't know who his brother is???? Smh

Sorryyyyy if this chapter was a bit boring 🥺

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