I decide to go shopping today, I change into tights and a t-shirt, I put my red vans on and walk into Scarlett's room. I pick her up and into my arms and walk into the lounge room and put her in her pram. Zayn has gone out somewhere but I'm not sure where. I grab Zayn's car keys and walk out the door, I'm on my learners. So yeah, I can drive.

I walk to his black Bentley and open the back door, I put Scarlett in her seat and and I sit in the drivers seat. I turn the key and the car roars. I love his car, its very comfortable and ilI would love to have one of my own but I could never afford it. It is way out of my budget, I wonder how he was able to afford one himself.

I start driving onto the road and suddenly Scarlett starts crying, 'are you fucking serious?!' I complain.

I pull over and pull Scarlett out of the backseat, she doesn't stop crying. I start to get worried, I decide to call Zayn.

I call him countless times but it just goes straight to voicemail. What is he doing? I continue to call him but I soon give up. I rock Scarlett in my arms and soon enough she quiets down. I slowly put her back in her seat and drive to the Shopping Mall.

Once I get there I pull Scarlett's pram out of the boot and gently seat her in it. I walk through the big automatic opening doors to the shopping centre and walk straight to Meagan's Fashion Boutique ... my most favourite clothes shop. I walk inside and breathe in the familiar aroma that I haven't smelt in months. I walk around with Scarlett looking at different clothes. I end up getting 2 t-shirts, a pair of jeans, and a beautiful dress that I just couldn't say no to.

Next, I end up going to Toys' R Us for Scarlett because she doesn't have many toys to play with.

I feel my phone buzzing in my pocket, I reach to get it and it says Mel. I ignore it and take another shot. Today I decided to go out with the boys and a few other old friends. We are at a bar and drinking.

*Half and hour later*

I feel dizzy and I feel like I'm gonna faint. I decide to call Mel back to see what the hell she wanted.

After a couple of rings she finally picks up.

M: Hello?

Z: Hey Mel, Why ... were ... youuu ... calling ... meeee !

M: Zayn? are you drunk?

Z: Psshht, whaa? No! of course not babe

M: What, so you were drunk all this time?

She says and hangs up. Well that was harsh.

Babe? seriously when did this happen, he was so drunk. I was struggling with Scarlett and he perpously ignores my call because he is too busy drinking.

Maybe tonight he might bring a lady to my apartment that he stays in. I can easily kick him out and let him not see Scarlett anymore. All I know is that when he is drunk, nothing EVER turns out right, Its been happening a lot lately. Him and I fighting, I don't know whats happening but something went wrong. He has changed since the accident. A Lot.