Ever since Su Jingyang was hijacked by the system and came to this world, he had suffered a series of unwarranted disasters, yet the thought of ​​going home had always been firm.

——It's less like a thought and more like a belief.

Even if there were Ah-Li and Ah-Xuan who are like relatives to him, Liang Lu and Rong Hua who were good to him, and Rong Ci who he had formed a family with... his belief to go home stood as stable as a mountain in his heart.

He wanted to go back, even if he'll be alone after going back, there was where he grew and rooted, and there will have no more coercion or entanglement from the system!

If he was told to stop collecting energy and give up to return to his original world, it meant that he'll be at the mercy of the system for a lifetime, it means to compromise with that dog system, to bow down to evil forces! ! !

Whenever Su Jingyang thought about it, he would feel suffocated in his heart, his every nerve clamoured in rejection! No one can make him pay such a high price!

But he didn't know when everything started. He started to change without noticing it. He started to become more and more accustomed to the company of Rong Ci, accustomed to feeling his body temperature and accustomed to the gentleness that he gave. Even though he was angry and hurt from being deceived, in the end he still worried about his hurt and injuries. Su Jingyang had to admit that Rong Ci's plan of softening him through marriage was somewhat achieved. He cared about him so much, even after he kept admonishing himself not to be trapped by him.

Just step in and it'll be over.

And now, there were two more children. Although they have only been together for just a month and he got chronic headaches and annoyances because of their crying, the thought of them growing out of his bone and blood was unstoppable and eroded his heart, making him feel flustered.

Sometimes he would quietly stare at the children sleeping, watching their cute faces. Su Jingyang's heart would be filled with a touch of melancholy and sorrow... he was very afraid that if this continues, he wouldn't be able to hold back from falling any longer.

That night, when the two children woke up for their night milk, the person who attended them was Rong Ci. Whenever the children woke up hungry and moved around, Su Jingyang would usually be the one to be awakened to quickly call in the wetnurse, but today he laid still, his eyes were closed, as if he didn't notice anything.

Rong Ci knew that he was awake, his dark pupils flickered slightly, staring at the figure with his back to him for a long minute.

Rong Ci thought that he was acting weird today, he also had an intuition that this wasn't simply because he blamed himself for the children's heat rash, it seemed like he had other things in his mind.

Rong Ci stretched out his arms and hugged him fully. It took a moment for Su Jingyang to move in his arms, he opened his eyes and looked back at him.

Their eyes met, Rong Ci stared at him quietly and was about to speak when Su Jingyang raised a hand to cover his mouth, he felt him frown under his palm as he prevented him from speaking. But he was afraid that this would just make him more upset.

Rong Ci's breath warmed him as he sighed lightly, his eyes were still fixed on his face. After a while, he took off his hand and held it, kissing it, his deep voice was very soft, "You should go to sleep, the child should stop being noisy after a while."

He didn't ask, so Su Jingyang just sighed and responded vaguely. But he still didn't sleep. He waited for the child to finish drinking milk, he got up and took both of them back to put them by his side for a while.

Fortunately, after playing for only a while, the two of them quickly fell asleep again.

When Su Dafan fell asleep, he was still holding Su Jingyang's finger tightly with his small hand, refusing to let go.

The tip of Su Jingyang's nose was filled with the child's milky scent, and he couldn't help but feel soft. He didn't take his hand out, but tucked in the quilt for Su Xiaofan, he laid down and closed his eyes in that position.

After realizing his sexual orientation, he didn't think much about children. He would go to bed every day after coming from off, sometimes he would play some games before going to bed. At this time, how could he expect his nightlife to be the same?

Su Jingyang slept relatively deep this time. When he abruptly woke up and opened his eyes, he found that the two children were already awake. Although they both had teary eyes, reddish noses, and pressed small mouths, they strangely didn't cry.

Su Jingyang was very stunned, he suddenly turned his head back, and found Rong Ci adorned in a snow-white single shirt sitting cross-legged beside him. He was holding him in his arms and staring coldly at the two children. The look in his eyes was intimidating, it felt like he would pounce and tear off a chunk of meat on the spot.

Su Jingyang was silent for a moment, "... What are you doing?"

Rong Ci looked at him and said, "I think they should be able to live without crying, they shouldn't be making you work so hard."

As a result, he had just finished speaking when the two children screamed and cried aggrievedly, their small mouths trembling as they wailed

Rong Ci: "..."

Su Jingyang closed his eyes, his chest heaved up and down twice, he gritted his teeth and cried out: "Rong Ci!!!"

Rong Ci furrowed his eyebrows as he shouted, he squeezed his lips shut without a word.

While holding the child in his arms, Su Jingyang scolded him with a dog blood sprinkler¹. Rong Ci blinked his eyes, becoming increasingly afraid to tell Su Jingyang that he used a little trick just now to prevent the two children from crying early in the morning and waking him up.

However, too simple enchantments seemed to have little effect on those two little guys. What's more, the damn things became very gutsy once they found a backer. Now, he was actually the one being scolded...

After listening to Su Jingyang's cursing Rong Ci, the twins finally calmed down. He secretly exhaled, put on some clothes and shoes, and got out of bed. He then ordered some people to prepare hot water for the children to bathe in.

The heat rash on Dafan and Xiaofan's body was almost healed after three days of using the ointment. The stone in Su Jingyang's heart also fell to the ground, but after this, he became more and more careful. As Ling Li said, he should take his time to gather experience and not be too nervous.

Ah-Xuan had been with the Grand Wizard during this time, and Rong Hua hadn't returned yet. Ling Li was the only one who could accompany Su Jingyang every day. When the weather was good, Su Jingyang and Ling Li would take the children out and bask in the sun. When the weather was bad, they would simply stay in the main hall.

While taking care of the children, Su Jingyang chatted with Ling Li to relieve his fatigue. Once Rong Ci came back to accompany Su Jingyang after dealing with some matters, Ling Li would leave after sitting a little over long enough to brew a cup of tea.

Unknowingly, another twenty days passed, there was a little snow drifting outside on that day, so Su Jingyang didn't go out.

Not long after Rong Ci left, Ling Li came with Ah-Xuan, they sat down to chat together. Su Jingyang suddenly remembered something and asked Ling Li, "By the way, Ah-Li, is Rong Hua still not back?"

Ling Li teased the Su Xiaofan in his arms and laughed softly: "He's close to Xu Mei. Maybe he stayed there and played around for a few days."

Su Jingyang sighed, there was nothing wrong with staying for a few extra days. Su Jingyang was more worried about whether he would encounter something like the last time. However, Rong Hua was known for being ruthless and arrogant, he usually wouldn't let himself be bullied.

Su Jingyang hugged Su Xiaofan for a while before putting him back in the crib and letting him lie down. They could only deal with the two children like this, holding each one rotationally, otherwise, the other would feel that they were too partial. Fortunately, they were gradually crying less and less these days, which made Su Jingyang's arrangement much more effective.

Ah-Xuan looked at Su Jingyang with big bright eyes for a while, he suddenly asked, "Uncle, why are you unhappy?"

Su Jingyang was asked something like this unexpectedly, he opened his eyes wide in surprise to look at Ah-Xuan.

The Grand Wizard's treatment had been very effective. Every time Su Jingyang looked at Ah-Xuan's increasingly clearer and brighter eyes, he couldn't help but remember the scene when he saw the child for the first time.

The corners of Su Jingyang's mouth curled up, and he smiled at Ah-Xuan. "Uncle isn't unhappy, just a little tired."

Rong Ci knew that he was tired from taking care of the children all day and was in a constant bad mood. He didn't laugh as much in the past, basically clenching his teeth to pass through the day.

Ling Li's eyes locked at Su Jingyang for a long time, his lips moved, and he said in a low voice, "Jingyang, can I... do anything for you?"

He once said that he would repay this person as long as he was alive, but so far, he seemed to have done nothing.

Su Jingyang was stunned for a moment because of Ling Li's words, but he quickly concealed it with a smile, "It's fine, I'm used to it now, didn't you say that after passing three months, the child would become more obedient? I should be able to double my efficiency by then, but if you insist, we can go out to relax."

Two days later, Rong Hua finally returned. Different from the irritable and gloomy image from before, he was now completely quiet and depressed. After briefly seeing Su Dafan and Su Xiaofan, he returned to his house and didn't come out for a few days.

It was snowing outside, and inconvenient for Su Jingyang to bring the two children to see him. After Ling Li left, he returned worriedly and told Su Jingyang, "Rong Hua was not in a good mood. I asked him what was wrong, but he only said everything was annoying. That nothing was real."

What's wrong? Su Jingyang tilted his head, his expression was incomprehensible, "What happened, did he say anything?"

Ling Li shook his head and sighed: "I don't dare to ask more, he's making me very worried."

Su Jingyang waited for Rong Ci to come back and asked him if he knew what was going on. Rong Ci was a little unclear, but he still said, "Don't worry, I'll go and see him tomorrow."

In the end, Rong Hua was brought to the Grand Wizard by Rong Ci. After listening to Qingxinling for more than a month, he gradually improved slightly. Later, he would occasionally come to play with Ling Li to find the twins, but most of the time, he would feel the cold wind blowing from the rooftops in a daze.

Su Jingyang couldn't check on him for a while, it was because although almost three months have passed, the two children still didn't want to be taken care of by others. The only change was that they would succumb to Rong Ci's intimidation and let him hold them for a while. But for Su Jingyang, this didn't reduce the burden much.

His hopes fell in vain, and the surge of anxiety that had been suppressed in his heart could no longer be stopped. Does he really want to stay at home taking care of the children? Then when would he be able to go out and continue collecting energy? The longer it dragged on, the more he feared that it would be more difficult for him to get out.

That morning, Su Jingyang fed Su Dafan with water. He choked because of being accidentally fed too much, it was terrible and he kept crying. Su Jingyang was worried about why he was suddenly uncomfortable and called Li Yan. After seeing him, Li Yin said that the child was in no serious condition, but he continued to cry and cry, making him feel like his heart was being pinched.

After crying for almost half an hour, his throat became hoarse. Su Jingyang was sweating all over, his body was stiff from the cold weather, but he still couldn't coax him.

Because he had been ignored for too long, Su Xiaofan wasn't happy and started to groan. Su Jingyang went from heartache to irritability to anger in the end.

Throwing Su Dafan on the bed, he roared with red eyes: "Cry, cry, cry! You only know how to cry every day!!! I don't care about you anymore!!!"

Although Su Jingyang was a bit irritable, it was exhausting to take care of both of them during this time. He had poured to them all of his thoughts and energy. The child was too young to speak, and the only way it could express his emotions was through crying! Su Jingyang also knew this and was trying his best to endure it, but he had built up too much emotional tension after all. He was already upset, the child's cry was undoubtedly adding fuel to the fire.

After the child was thrown on the bed, it looked like a poor little bug that had been abandoned, thumping his little hands and feet, crying more and more fiercely. After a long time, his voice gradually became quieter, and his face rose blood red, as if he was about to burst in the next moment.

The maids who were sent outside by Su Jingyang to wait heard the crying. They all hurried in to see what was going on, and saw Su Jingyang grabbing his messy hair hard, and squatting on the ground, they looked at each other and decided to approach when Su Jingyang suddenly got up and turned back to the bed. He picked up the child with red eyes, the anger coating his brows and eyes hadn't yet dissipated.

In the end, the two children were tired of crying and fell asleep in the rocker.

Su Jingyang only felt exhausted, he immediately sat down on the ground, muttering: "Damn, when is this going to end?"

The system appeared, and he hummed coldly:

Su Jingyang's heart suddenly trembled, his whole body was instantly soaked in a deep chill he couldn't fight off!

He tugged at the corners of his stiff mouth sadly. He didn't have the strength to fight with it. He slowly moved back and laid on the ground, his expression stupidly motionless.

Ling Li's face appeared in his field of vision after an unknown period of time, his expression was full of worry, "Don't sleep on the ground, it's cold on the ground."

Su Jingyang lais like this, staring at him blankly for a long while, he said in a dumb voice: "Ah-Li... I want to drink some wine."

Ling Li was worried about Su Jingyang's body. He didn't let him drink too much, but he didn't stop him. Su Jingyang got more and more drunk after each cup.

Su Jingyang's memory of what happened later was a bit vague. After that, he cried loudly while holding Ling Li to blow off steam, but Su Jingyang didn't remember what he said in his drunkenness.

The only thing he remembered was Ling Li gently patting his back and kept comforting him. Tears began falling on his neck, it was so hot that it made his body twitch involuntarily.

Rong Ci seemed to have come back, but he was kicked out and locked in the room behind him.

When Su Jingyang woke up with a splitting headache, it was already evening. He opened his eyes and looked at his side subconsciously. The children were all there. It might've been because he had a temper today, Su Dafan and Su Xiaofan were both lying down on the bed honestly without crying.

Su Jingyang couldn't think at all for a moment, he pressed hard on his aching brows, and when he sat up slowly, he felt a gentle force supporting him.

Su Jingyang's dull brain seemed to react. He looked at the person sitting by the bed, his face delicate and pale, and his pale eyes quietly looking at him, there was a kind of gentle and firm power in them.

It was Ling Li.

"Wake up."

Ling Li smiled slightly and said softly: "Sit down first, I'll bring you the sober soup." Su Jingyang's heart inexplicably started pounded, he hurriedly stopped Ling Li: "Ah-Li!!!"

Ling Li sat down again, "What's wrong? Is it something uncomfortable?"

Su Jingyang scratched the back of his head annoyedly, he then asked him with a hoarse voice: "It's not that... Ling Li, did I go crazy after getting drunk? What nonsense did I tell you?"

Ling Li raised the corner of his lips and smiled, his eyes were as calm as lake water, without the slightest ripple.

He held the back of Su Jingyang's hand tightly and whispered: "You didn't say anything, you just cried a lot."

Ling Li nodded seriously, "Really not?"

"Really not." Ling Li confirmed again. With a small smile on his face, he said in a relaxed tone: "Could it be that you know something you don't want me to hear?"

Su Jingyang only felt his ears burning panic, he raised his hand a little embarrassedly and wiped his face. He stopped talking, and let out a sigh of relief in his heart.

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Notes:

1- Dog blood is Chinese slang for drama/dramatic situations, it means that he obliterated Rong Ci's eardrums

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