After Rong Hua came with the news Ling Li was slightly cheered up, but there was still a gloomy depression between his eyebrows. When he was a little free, he would sit still in a daze, it was unknown what he was thinking.

Su Jingyang slept with Ling Li every night, but he would still return to his room in the five-day period. Even though he knew that the system wouldn't let Ling Li discover that he suddenly disappeared into the night, it still made him feel very awkward to come back and continue lying next to Ling Li after the matter was over.

During this period, the system no. 1 finally appeared for a short time, answering some of the doubts Su Jingyang had accumulated.

Su Jingyang's first problem was that the guy in the dream was self-conscious from time to time, otherwise, why would he get angry or awkward. Also, the first few times he always tried to trace and remember his facial features with his hands, although he was prevented in the end.

System no. 1 told him that this was absolutely impossible.

"He doesn't have any sense of autonomy, he's still under complete control and doing things only according to instructions, but his willpower's very strong, so he'll have some instinctive personality reactions and actions. But you can rest assured that even if he does perceive your outline at the time, he wouldn't be able to remember it once he wakes up."

Su Jingyang was very depressed, "That is to say... even if he realizes that this five-day dream is wrong and wants to refuse, he'll only be forced to obey the system's instructions, right?"

Su Jingyang's eyes were stagnant and his chest was tight. "I've been resisting him so far but maybe he's the one sickened of me after waking up. After all, he would've never been involved if it wasn't for me."

System no. 1: "I'm sorry."

"Excuse me?" Su Jingyang flinched, "If you return me to my world before saying sorry, I can forgive you a thousand, no- a million times."

System no. 1 was stupefied for a while and said anxiously:

"..." I'm going to fucking calm down!

System no. 1 smiled bitterly,

Su Jingyang gritted his teeth, the suffocation he felt in his heart and was about to explode.

Su Jingyang often gave little beggars unfinished meals from the restaurant and collected some energy every day. Most of the energy still came from Ling Li, especially during the period when the Lin Ji pavilion had just started, Ling Li's gratitude was almost like a constant stream and Su Jingyang almost thought that the progress bar could be half-filled, but the number displayed on the progress bar seemed to be laughing at him.

System no. 1 was silent for a moment and sighed heavily,

Su Jingyang listened to its struggling tone, his chest heaved up and down for a while without answering.

Before system no. 1 disappeared, it softly prompted him. It asked him to do good deeds, not to always stick to trivial things, but focus on a larger spiritual level, such as helping fulfil the biggest wish in one's life, such as helping create a beautiful marriage, or helping untie a knot in one's heart that had fermented for many years, or help reunite relatives who have been separated.

If he succeeds in this, it is often easier to get explosive and concentrated energy, which was many times more than the usual from helping an old man or giving alms to a beggar.

Su Jingyang was very depressed. He hadn't thought about this before, but he was finally guided in a new direction, the negative emotions in his heart gradually dissipated.

Regarding the biggest wish in one's life, Su Jingyang naturally asked Ling Li first.

Ling Li was cutting vegetables in the kitchen at home. Su Jingyang still hadn't finished his question when Ling Li accidentally cut his hand because of shock, the blood suddenly dyeing the space red.

Ling Li stared at the blood on his hand and stood there indifferently. Su Jingyang hurriedly pulled him to stand in front of the sink and wash his hands with water, he then pulled him into the room to bandage him.

Su Jingyang murmured, blaming himself: "I really shouldn't be disturbing you when you're cutting vegetables."

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In the dead of night, Su Jingyang and Ling Li sat at the table in the hall. The lights on the table were dimly lit and the outlines of the two were reflected very softly.

Su Jingyang had just tied gauze to Ling Li's hand when a wave of energy immediately melted into his body. Ling Li was like this, Su Jingyang could get a lot of colourful little lights from him even when just pouring him water.

Su Jingyang said: "You've hurt your hand, can you rest and not move around for today?"

Ling Li responded and Su Jingyang packed up their medicine box while saying: "You're too persevering, you've done so well since the beginning and the guests are all full of praise. And yet you're still so diligent."

Ling Li looked at his face and said softly: "But I want to do better, I don't want to disappoint you."

After hearing this, Su Jingyang shook his head and disagreed, he said seriously: "My original intention of opening Lin Ji pavilion was to ensure that you could have a worry-free life, not to put you under pressure. Don't go around practising at night, you're already tired enough."

Ling Li's eyes were as clear as water, he shook his head and said that he wasn't tired.

Ling Li's mouth moved and he said: "By the way, Jingyang, you asked me that..."

Su Jingyang had a smile on his lips, he said: "I just wanted to know Ali's wish. Say it, maybe I can help you complete it."

"You want to fulfil my wish?" Ling Li fixedly looked at Su Jingyang with a quiet and deep gaze for a moment. After a while, he asked softly, "Jingyang, why do you always treat me so well?"

"Why? Why do I need a reason to be good to you?" Su Jingyang replied without thinking.

Ling Li had a confused expression, he suddenly lowered his head, as if he didn't dare to look at his clear eyes, "Maybe... maybe I'm not worth it at all."

"I think you're worth it." Su Jingyang said: "You haven't told me yet, what's your biggest wish?"

Ling Li shook his head and stopped talking. Su Jingyang put his hands on his shoulders and leaned over to ask: "Ali, say it, say it."

Ling Li looked down at his own tangled fingers. Su Jingyang asked persistently, he pursed his lips and then said softly: "My biggest wish is... I never want to be separated from you for the rest of my life. "

Su Jingyang's heart trembled when he heard this, he was stunned.

He thought that Ling Li's wish would be to clear his reputation or to find the ashes of his adoptive father to bury, or maybe ensure Ah-Xuan's health. Su Jingyang didn't expect it to be related to him.

However, he couldn't fulfil it. He'll leave after all.

Ling Li didn't hear Su Jingyang's response and suddenly understood. He still had his head lowered, but his breath was clearly trembling, "Jingyang, you... you won't stay, right?"

Su Jingyang was caught off guard, he was anxious and panicked, his mouth opened and closed but he was a little afraid to answer this question.

He didn't expect he would be asked this when he asked Ling Li.

His silence made Ling Ling further lower his head, suddenly, teardrops began to drip down, hitting his newly bandaged hand.

Su Jingyang hurriedly said, "Ali, don't cry! Don't cry!"

Ling Li lifted his tear-stained face. He didn't cry too much, his expression was still calm but his appearance looked a little embarrassed. His cheeks were flushed and he clung to Su Jingyang's hand tightly, like a drowning man holding a piece of sole driftwood that could save himself. He tries his best to restrain his sobs and begged Su Jingyang: "Can you not leave? We'll take care of Ah-Xuan and live like this, we won't need other people, there'll be no one else. The three of us, we'll be content, Jingyang, I... me towards you... I can't bear to leave you, I'm afraid, I don't know how I'll live without you, I don't dare to think..."

Ling Li hadn't finished speaking when Su Jingyang suddenly reached out and hugged him into his arms. Su Jingyang caressed his back and Ling Li almost subconsciously embraced Su Jingyang back, his grip tightened and tightened and Su Jingyang felt a bit painful.

Su Jingyang felt the wetness on his shoulders and frowned, he didn't know what to do with a crying Ling Li, let alone a situation like this.

Su Jingyang's eyes were red and he hummed angrily: "I made Ali so sad, I wouldn't have asked if I knew it."

Ling Li shook his head in his arms, crying silently, and grasping his clothes tightly with one hand.

Su Jingyang couldn't guarantee to Ling Li that he wouldn't leave for the rest of his life, nor could he persuade him at this moment that "people have sorrows, joys, partings, and reunions; the moon can also be dim, bright, half, and full¹," Su Jingyang could only hug him and comfort him like this.

In fact, when the time comes to leave and go home, Su Jingyang would definitely be reluctant to leave Ling Li.

But... he still had to go home, he wasn't a person from this world. Facing Ling Li's tears, Su Jingyang suddenly felt that he was too ruthless.

That night the two still slept together. A long time after the lights were extinguished, Su Jingyang, with his eyes wide open, knew that Ling Li still hadn't slept as well.

Su Jingyang thought for a long time and finally turned slightly in his direction. Ling Li felt his movements and moved slightly, facing him.

In the darkness, the two of them faced each other, Su Jingyang spoke softly: "Ali, I don't want to lie to you. To tell you the truth, I'm now trying to find a way home."

Ling Li's breath hitched slightly, his voice was hoarse, "...go home?"

Ling Li always thought that he had no home, this was the first time he heard him say the word home.

"Yes, my home is far, far away, so far away that you wouldn't be able to imagine... I have a way to leave, but ah, that way's too difficult to take. I'm afraid I'll have to wait many years before leaving, so don't be sad, I'll still here. I'll be uncomfortable knowing you're sad."

Ling Li grabbed Su Jingyang's sleeve and asked anxiously: "It's far? How far is it? Can I take Ah-Xuan and go back with you?!"

There was no need to ask the system, Su Jingyang knew that this world was just a novel, it was already difficult for him to go back by himself, let alone with two extra people.

Su Jingyang hesitated for a moment and chose to tell the truth: "My home is very special. Only I can go back, Ali, you..."

Ling Li seemed to have stopped breathing altogether, he didn't persist in asking Su Jingyang why he was the only one who could go back. Gradually, the hand that was grabbing him weakened and let go. After a long moment of silence, Su Jingyang thought he wouldn't speak anymore, but only then heard him repeat in an astringent tone: "Only... you can go back alone?"

Su Jingyang felt uncomfortable and hummed softly.

Ling Li asked again: "Jingyang, is this your biggest wish?"

Su Jingyang said nothing.

After a minute of silence, Ling Li suddenly turned over and turned his back to Su Jingyang.

"... Jingyang, do you know what I'm thinking now?"

Ling Li's low voice suddenly asked, before Su Jingyang could answer, Ling Li spoke to himself: "I'm thinking... how could I trick you into telling me the way to your so-called way to go home, and how I can destroy it to stop you from leaving. I'm thinking about how I could do my best to fulfil my wish."

"Ali??" Su Jingyang was so shocked that he sat up, his hands hesitated before touching Ling Li's shoulders, Su Jingyang could feel him trembling slightly.

"Are you scared?" Ling Li noticed his shocked tone, his breath trembled fiercely and he sounded like he wanted to cry but couldn't, there was strong self-loathing in his words, "You always say that I'm kind, but I'm really not, I'm not good at all. My heart is shameless and selfish. I said that I would spend my life repaying you, but I want to confine you to my happiness. You want to help me fulfil my wish, but I just want to destroy yours without you even knowing. I'm actually such a person. This is the truest me."

Su Jingyang's heart ached and he leaned forward to pull Ling Li's body back, he solemnly said to him: "Ali, don't say that about yourself, you are good."

Su Jingyang spent so many days and nights with Ling Li, he was very clear about his nature, Su Jingyang was indeed a little surprised just now, but he wouldn't change his view of him just because of those few words.

"You think so because you care about me too much, don't you?" Su Jingyang's hand rubbed his tear-stained cheeks, feeling his damp and hot turbulent breathing, he gently wiped the tears with his hands and tried his best to soften his tone: "Actually, everyone has such a side; this is normal. It's just that you are too kind, that's why you were scared by this version of yourself. Look at me, I have such a side myself. Sometimes I encounter a special kind of annoying person and torture them in my head thousands of times, and I still feel uncomfortable! But as long as you don't actually do anything to harm others, it doesn't matter."

Su Jingyang talked but found that Ling Li's tears flowed even more freely.

"No, no, I'm not kind." Ling Li grabbed Su Jingyang's hand and wiped his tears, he shook his head vigorously, and cried depressedly, "I've done something that hurt you, I'm sorry, sorry, sorry, Jingyang, I have no face to show myself to you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

He kept apologizing for his sins, Su Jingyang was anxious: "You raised me to be so fat and white, why are you sorry to me? Also, I really won't leave for now, Ali, Ali, be obedient, stop thinking about it and don't feel bad anymore, alright?"

Ling Li's throat seemed to be blocked by something, he sobbed and whisperingly repeated that he was sorry. Even if Su Jingyang couldn't see his face clearly, he could still perceive that his expression was full of endless sadness.

Su Jingyang felt helpless in his heart, he stroked his trembling back with his hand and didn't know how to persuade him.

He originally planned to go to Jincheng alone after a while, but now it seemed that he had to plan again.

The two of them stayed up almost all night, they lay quietly on the bed until daylight shone outside, Su Jingyang turned away from Ling Li and said in his usual tone, "Ali, let's eat breakfast, egg pancakes and sesame porridge, I'll go make them!"

Ling Li still didn't turn around, he called in a nearly mute voice when he was about to get out of bed.

"Jingyang."

Su Jingyang sat on the edge of the bed and immediately looked back at him.

"Actually..." Ling Li paused for a long time before speaking again, his voice was so soft it seemed as if he was about to disappear, "Actually, you have misunderstood the relationship between Ah-Yi and me."

Misunderstanding? ! Su Jingyang was stunned by these words, even his breath became cautious.

Su Jingyang really didn't know why Ling Li suddenly said this, he didn't know what the meaning of his words wanted to insinuate, he just felt that everything in his mind was now thrown into confusion. Su Jingyang didn't understand, it was so obvious before, how could it be a misunderstanding? What happened that he didn't know? !

Su Jingyang mind was a mess, he wanted to know what was going on, but Ling Li was obviously extremely fragile at the moment. Su Jingyang didn't want to provoke him into being even sadder, he eased his emotions and suppressed the desire/hope to continue questioning. He leaned forward to hold Ling Li and comforted him softly, "Then let's leave him alone, my Ali will definitely meet the person he'll deeply love in the future."

Su Jingyang stayed with him for a while before putting on his shoes and getting up, he went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.

Ling Li was stunned, listening to the movements of him leaving, his pale lips trembled and he raised a hand to cover his red and swollen eyes while his hair stuck to his face embarrassedly, as if he wanted to stop the tears running down his fingers. They slipped silently, soaking the pillow that hadn't had time to dry.

The one he loves will never be there again in this life, never again.

Su Jingyang was a little uneasy. He always felt that Ling Li's eyes always inadvertently revealed a dead silence after that day, it made him feel inexplicably sad whenever he saw it. Su Jingyang had always wondered whether it was what Ah-Yi had said before. Ling Li forced composure until he reached a critical point, because he said that he was leaving, Ling Li suddenly lost control under the emotional blows.

Ling Li seemed to know what he was thinking, with a clear and soft smile, he denied them all.

"It really has nothing to do with Ah-Yi, I just missed the child too much, and that day... I really missed Ah-Xuan, when I heard you say that you'll leave in the future, I was reluctant to face it, so I lost control of my emotions. It's not because of Ah-Yi. Between him and I, there was really nothing from beginning to end." Ling Li's last sentence was very serious.

Su Jingyang was sceptical, "But Ali, your state's not quite right."

Ling Li was stunned for a moment before subconsciously touching his face, he said: "Really? Obviously, how come, I..." He quickly curled up his mouth and smiled at Su Jingyang, "Maybe, I just didn't sleep well the last few days, I'll try my best to adjust, I'll definitely adjust..."

Su Jingyang couldn't help it, he thought that only when Ah- Xuan came back, with the company of the child, Ling Li should finally get better.

On the night Rong Ci returned with Ah-Xuan, Su Jingyang was picking up eggs next to the chicken coop. The scene was so similar, but when Su Jingyang turned around, what he saw was not the back of Ah-Yi entering the house indifferently, but deep black eyes that he had been looking forward to.

Ah-Xuan, who was almost asleep on Rong Ci's shoulder, saw Su Jingyang and immediately became energetic, he straightened up and happily stretched out his hand towards him, "Uncle, uncle!"

Ling Li heard the movement and ran out of the house in a hurry, he took the child over and kissed and his face with tears in his eyes, he then kept saying thank you to Rong Ci.