I was walking threw the forest when i saw something that made me want to die. Standing in the middle of some glowing butterflies was Octavia and Atom? I stopped all movement and stood frozen in shock. My heart felt like it had been pulled out of my chest thrown to the ground, stepped on, and then dropped into a fire. I dont know why i feel this way, but i dont want to. Not being able to handle it anymore i ran. I ran as fast as my feet would carry all the way back to my tent.

I laid and cried for i don't know how long. Fuck there is still a pain in my chest, but its slowly turning to anger. I get to my feet and compose myself before walking out of my tent. I look around spotting Atom and Octavia being all cuddly by a fire. I was about to march over and beat the shit out of him when a boy called "THEY'RE BACK" i jog over as fast as i can seeing Jaspers my eyes widen in shock and worry. "is he--" Monty starts

"he's alive i need boiled water and strips of cloths for bandages" she informs him going into the dropship, carrying Jasper the boys are hot on her tail. Monty rushes off to go get bandages and i see my brother and Bellamy enter luging something. Walking over they set it down Bellamy moves the covering to reveal a black puma.

"WHOS HUNGRY" he shouts

"YEAH" we all cheered throwing are fist up. "Bellamy! Whoo" someone shouts as Clarke walks out staring at Bellamy with a look i know all to well, disappointment. She shook her head and walked back inside.

Kids lined up to get food waiting for the men to take off their bands so they can procced. Finn walks up grabbing some food and Murphy stops him "hey whoa whoa wait wait. what you think you play by different rule?" he ask. "i thought there were no rules" and with that Finn walked back to Clarke. A kid walked up trying to do the same earning him a punch to the face by Bellamy. He walked away going who knows were, so i turned to Murphy "John would you do the honors" i say holding out my wrist "my pleasure sister" he replies prying it off. I grab some food.

Me, Bellamy, and Murphy watched Atom hang from a rope tied to his wrist. "hey guys you aren't just gonna leave me here" he looks at Bellamy.

"No Atom i wont be disobeyed" Bellamy says turning walking away me and John following behind i laughed a little that's what he gets.

"GUYS" he shouts but we ignore him and keep walking. "GUYS BELLAMY GUYS"

I walked up to the little girl she was shaking and murmuring things in her sleep. I touched her arm and she shot up.

"its ok its ok it was just a dream. your charlotte right" I ask and she nods "I'm Je-" she cut me off "Jess I know who you are everyone talks about you" she lets out a shaky breath. "wanna talk about it" I ask leaning my back against the tree. "its...my parents..they were floated and they I see it in my dreams and I just" a tear rolls down her cheek "i understand" i tell her "My dad was floated too" Clarke says joining the little comfort talk. I look at her "you got this Ocean eyes" I ask her, she nods and I get up while she sits.

"so how'd you end up here" I hear her ask as I walk away.

It was now morning and I was with Bellamy and Murphy doing some target practice. Murphy throws his knife right when Jasper lets out a loud moan in agony. The knife falls "that damn kid messing with my head" he says looking up at the dropship,

"he's not gonna last much longer" Bellamy says "better think of a new excuse" he throws his axe at the tree the point sticking into it. "that's how its done" he says as Atom approaches i throw my knife and it goes right by his head and into the tree.

"we searched half-mile in every direction" he says to Bellamy "no sign of Trina or Pascal" he walked closer now.

"visit your special tree when you were out there" Murphy teases walking closer to him. I chuckle "Atom took his punishment let it go" Bellamy says.

"Nah i agree with Murphy" i say as Murphy walks back from retrieving his knife. "Could be grounders" Atom throw out glaring at me.

"yeah or they could be in pound town" Murphy say "ya know the place you and Octavia go" I add earning a glare from both him and Bellamy. "piss off guard dog you know its true"

"yeah a lot of that going around recently" Murphy looks at Atom and Bellamy walked past them. Jasper grounded again. Atom looked over at Octavia who was throwing water "look Bellamy people are scared and that dying kid he's not helping morale around here" Atom states.

"Atom watch your tongue or it will end up in somewhere other than Octavia's mouth" I snap at him pointing with my other knife he looked like he shit himself

"Morale will go up when I find them more food" Bellamy say like he is some sort of hero.

"and what do we do when they ask about Trina and Pascal" the boy beside Atom speaks up.

I beat Bellamy to say "now nothing. it's possible they're just lost"

"we'll keep an eye out for them when we go hunting later" Bellamy explains.

"lets go kill something" Murphy say referring to Jasper. "Your not going i need you to stay here grounders are circling we cant leave this place unprotected" he says to Murphy.

"fine put somebody better tell goggle boy to keep it shut" He said Bellamy walked off and he turned around. My fist met his eye and his head swung back a little.

"what the hell Jess" he grabs his eye. "Jasper is my friend you may be my brother but you can be such a dumbass sometimes did you know that, his life matters" I say in a stern yet aggravated voice. He looks dumbfounded I just walk off.

I again found myself with Murphy and Bellamy. They were talking while I was studying the black eye I gave Murphy. "....with weapons" Bellamy continued when Octavia burst in.

"what did you do to Atom" she asked Bellamy anger covering her face. Bellamy looked at Murphy and i and nodded his head as a signal for us to leave. Murphy did as told I on the other hand stayed in place. Bellamy sighed knowing I'm not leaving.

He cleared his throat "Atoms fine" he shrugged.

"Then why did he blow me off" she shifted on her feet.

"maybe he's just not interested" he stated plainly.

"you cant keep everyone away from me" she said now clearly annoyed with her brother.

"Atom had to learn disobey me pay the price" he said "he paid the price now were good" he finished.

"now im paying the price" she retorted "so next time you decide to go on a power trip leave me out of it" she said just as Jasper screamed "AHHHH" in pain.

Me and Octavia both shot out of the tent rushing to Jasper. "stop it your killing him" she said trying to move more forward to stop Clarke but I restrained her.

"she's trying to save his life" Finn looked up for a moment then back at Clarke.

"she can't" Bellamy said getting off the latter.

"back off" Wells stated calmly. "we didn't drag him through miles of woods just to let him die" Clarke threw at him.

"Kids a goner if you cant see that your deluded. he's making people crazy" he looked down at Jasper. My blood boiling i stood "sorry if Jaspers an inconvenience to you but this isn't the Ark down here every life matters" I spat with anger.

He looked taken back but non the less responded with "take a look at him he's a lost cause"

Clarke looked over at Octavia "Octavia I've spent my whole life watching my mother heal people if I say there's hope there's hope" she nods.

"this isn't about hope it's about guts..you don't have the guts to make the hard choices i do" he confidently says. "he's been like this three days, if he's not better by tomorrow i'll kill him myself" i glare at him.

"Octavia lets go" he calls "im staying here" she says and i fell a small smile tug at my lips. With a pissed expression Bellamy climbs down the latter.