desi ghar wali aurat(desi house women)

(Look I started again such a talkative person

Now silent for sure)

The figures around me was a little blur I can see people moving around here and there as if its some celebration going on, slowly slowly the front image got cleared and I got to see...ME??? Smiling and blushing I was sitting at the corner placing a red veil on my head, I was looking all like a smiling bride at that time in a white saaree when qazi sahab came holding some papers in his hand.

His gaze was all the time to the floor but when he cleared his throat I got to know he is here for me.

"Amyra D/o habib..."

He started saying my name with my father's name

"kiya apko ye nikah..."

(do you accept this wedding)

The moment he said that I'm now going to committed to someone I got excited to hear who is my soul mate now.

"Hussain S/o Asif se qabool hai"

(with hussain s/o asif)

He said making my heart beat faster but before I can say something the girl in front of me who looks like my Xerox speak up saying a Qabool (I do) making my chest heavy.

I tried to speak up but it feels like my voice was long gone, I was continuously breathing in making my chest heavy .I tried...tried a lot to speak but I couldn't but I didn't lose hope trying to breath out I spoke a word which I wanted to.

Exhaling a deep breath like I breath in I spoke a name in whispers which only I can hear as it was just a low voice and the name was none other than

VIHAAN......

With the name my eyes softly moved and I opened my eyes just to see a completely new environment.

I was in some hospital room that's what I can guess with my surroundings, wearing a blue gown all my fingers were attached some unknown Wires, at my left hand I got to see a canola having a drip which I think was glucose a cap filled with some little pumped wires was on my head few of the wires were attached on my chest showing some results on the black and green screen and at last I was wearing an oxygen mask.

"mai yahan kiya karahi hoon...?"

(What am I doing here?)

I asked myself unplugging the wires attaching on my hands and thinking when realization hit me about the last thing I remembered

"vihaa...vihaan he came where is he?"

I said while placing my exposed feet to the tiled floor when I feel something ...something in my head

Qabool hai (I do)...tum tum kon ho,(who are you?), hi me Amyra... oh wow nice to meet you...will meet you some other day...I love you...

Some of my own voices started playing in my head with a noisy dead sound making me to hold my ears tight because of the pain.

The voices soon ended making me to sit cross legged on the floor beside the door. Removing my hands from my ears I got to listen something which I think was related to me

"I think we should shift her in general ward now she is in coma"

Said someone which I think was a doctor from the formal talking

"ye kia keh rahy hai ap pagal to nahi hogaye"

(what are you saying are you insane)

Someone said and my heart skipped a beat at that moment listening to that broke voice, getting up on my knees I peeked through the glass window making a little side up of the permanent curtain.

"vihaan"

A drop of tear rolled down my cheeks seeing him there standing all broken and crying. His eyes were red like his nose he was like all broken and shattered.

The moment doctor said I'm in coma and there is no chance he broke down to his knees crying and saying the same thing

"ye sab meri wajah se hua hai"

(This all happened because eof me)

"Vihaan kia hogaya hai yaar sambhal apnay apko"

(vihan what bro control yourself)

Said the man holding Vihaan, stretching the curtain more I saw Hussain holding Vihaan assuring him that all will be ok and I cried remembering what I did to him. I just made his family apart from him and he is here still holding my...my...

My what Amyra? He is nothing you just use to love him

The moment I realize what I did I completely broke down me to my knees crying

"What have I done where was my senses gone at that time"

I scolded myself being there then a door started opening, gazing up I saw a lady dressed in a nurse suit

"aap...apko hosh agaya mai main... doctor"

(you...you woke up...I'll call... doctor)

she said and started running out of the room when I hold her

"main bilkul thek hun ap please bahar Hussain ko bula daingi"

(I am totally fine can you please send hussain in he is standing out)

I asked hoping for a yes

"but apko abhi hosh aya hai apka checkup bohot zaruri..."

(But you just woke up you need a checkup)

"mere checkup se ziada is waqt meri zindagi zaruri hai ap please Hussain ko bula dain bahar say"

(my life is more important right now then my checkup please call him now)

I said pleading her joining my palms together.

Making me sit on the bed again she made her way out and I heard the voice calling hussain's name.

Scared about his reaction I glued on my bed when the door started opening letting the light coming in with the man whom I asked for

After a time Hussain appeared from a distance smiling seeing towards me.

"ab kaise tabyat hai tumhari Amyra?"

(How are you feeling now Amyra?)

He asked coming closer but I didn't reply I didn't have courage to do so will be right to say.

Gazing the floor and managing up the bravery controlling my tears I speak up

"Hussain mujhay maaf kardo...."

(Hussain please forgive me)

"maaf kardo par kiyoun kia hua Amyra"

(forgive you why what happened Amyra)

He said acting as he don't know

"What I did with you and Amaya please Forgive me PLEASE"

I said and at last broke in tears. Joining my palms together I cried repeating the same word

"please Hussain please forgive me please"

I said when he came forward un joining my hands and making me to hush up.... few moments later I was feeling ok as I wasn't crying anymore but I have to say something.

"Hussain can you please do something for me? Just for the last time"

I asked and smiling he replied

"jaan bhi hazir hai"

(Anything for you)

"mujhay talaq daydo Hussain..."

(Please divorce me husain)

That's what I said and he smiled seeing my face

"please Hussain divorce me I...I don't love you"

I said again but he didn't replied in fact he chuckled a little

"Please Hussain I'm begging you"

I said again

"kis baat ki talaq mang rahi ho tum mujhsay us shadi ki jo kabhi hui he nahi?"

(What do you want divorce for? For the wedding that never happened?)

He said making me to frown

"matlab"

(Means)

I asked not knowing what he is saying"

"matlab jab sab yaad agaya hai aur pata chal gaya hai k ye bemari tumhain kaisay hui to ye bhi yaad hoga k tumhara pehla nikkah kis say hua tha"

(I mean if you know everything now and remember how you had this dieses so you must have remember with who you married on the first place)

Making a sad face and knowing the name I mouthed

"Vihaan"

"to phir jao us say mango talaq agar tumhe chaheye to"

(Then go ask him to divorce you if you want)

He said and I shot my gaze up in seconds not believing what he was saying

"array pagli itna bhi nahi pata larki ka ek sohar rehtay dusra koi nikkah qabool nahi kiya jata?"

(you stupid don't you know you can't marrying another men if you are already married it's not acceptable)

He said and I was seriously I tears right now...tears of happiness...tears of joy...tears which brings my life back to me

sab meri galti hai...mujhay aise therapy karni he nahi chaheye thye Amyra par jo k still test horahi ho it's all my fault agar Amyra ko aaj kuch hua us ka zimidaar main honga. Me khud ko bhi saza dunga

(it's all my fault...I shouldn't have tried a therapy on amyra that still isn't approved its all my fault if anything happens to amyra today that would all be because of me. I'll be punishing myself.)

I was cursing myself continuously about what I did to Amyra when Hussain came out from inside. Standing up and fastly running to the place he was I bombarded all what was inside me

"kia hua yaar theek to haina wo"

(what happened dude is she okay)

I asked but he didn't reply he was only moving forward saying nothing

"Hussain kuch to bol bhai kia hua hai yaar please"

(Hussain say something bro please dude) ...

"jaa"

(Go)

he said just a little word

I frowned seeing him all sad and quiet and was about to cry once again when I saw his face changing and he happily smiling wide said

"jaa na bula rahe hai teri biwi tujhay... sab yaad agaya ussay"

(Go your wife is asking for you...she remember everything)

The moment he said this I hugged him tight and ran to the room where she was.

My heartbeats was quit fast and my movements were little slower. Opening the door I stepped inside to see her beautiful angelic eyes gazing me smiling and shining with love in them.

Stepping inside slowing I stand at the side quite nearer to her seeing her quietly.

Moving her hands forward she took a hold of mines and pull me towards her like she always do. At this scene we both chuckle a little but soon this chuckle faded away and tears took the place. We hugged each other all crying

"kahan chali gai thye tum Amyra..."

(where were you amyra)

I asked crying hugging her. Well my wife

"tumnay shadi k baad shopping nahi karnay di thye na so left you ta k tumhay sabaq sikha doon"

(you didn't allowed me to go shopping after our wedding so I left you to teach a lesson)

She said chuckling plus crying obviously trying to make fun. Taking a hold on her cheeks, I saw her face staring every inch of her beauty. The same person, the same old Amyra, my love. As memories started flashing in my mind happy memories I took my lips closer to her forehead and gave a tight peck on it. Just to feel her, just to prove myself that this, she is real

"jitni shoping karni hona karna main mana nahi karunga"

(Do as much shopping as you want I won't stop you)

I said smiling while the tears were present in my eyes. Pointing her fingers in front of me Amyra asked

"promise?"

I took a hold on her hand repeat the same word

"Promise"

She stared at me for couple of minutes and bring her thumb closer to my cheeks as my face automatically reacted towards her touch she wiped my tears away. Smiling I did the same.

Touching our head together we both smiled closing our eyes we mouthed the same thing together that is

I LOVE YOU

2 Weeks later

Moving here and there finding one important file which my maid just showed in store room I was going through each dusty racks there seeing the serial and names of the file when one folded paper fall down to the floor

holding that up I unfold it to see urdu writing there

urdu....who wrote this....Amaya... she loves to write things in urdu

Thinking this I started reading the thing written on the paper that reads...

Kabhi kabhi sochti hoon

k mainay tumsay pyar kiyoun kiya?

tere wastay duniya ko waar kiyoun diya?

Jab bhi bhulna chaha tujhay,

teri yaadain mujhko satati hain

Tab ja kay mehsus hua

Chahe tujhsay juda hojaoun

ye dhadkan tujhsay pyar karain

Chahe tujhsay khafa hojaou

ye dil tujhko he pyar karay

Meri dhadkan tere naam hai

uspe tera hee naam hai

Tu mera jahan hai

ab tuhe bus meri jaan hai

Love you Hussain....Hamesha...

(Sometimes I think

that why did I love you?

Why I left the world for you?

Whenever I tried to forget you

you memories haunted me.

Then I got to realize,

Even if I get apart from you,

these heart beats will love you

Even if I get upset

this heart will love you.

My heart beats for you

its written over it

You are my life

now you are my love

Love you hussain...Always)

Reading the last line I smiled and mouthed

love you too

pretending she is here.

Taking the paper with me I walked out from the storeroom and walked in mines placing that piece of art in my personal locker when Siddharth come shouting my name.

"kia hua...tu yahan kia kar raha hai aur istarah tu to film k shoot k liye gaya tha"

(what happened... why are you here like this you were gone for the film shoot right)

I asked all the questions in a go while he was holding his stomach trying to catch his breath.

"Amaya Paris... she is in Paris Hussain I saw her"

He said making me froze right at the moment I was...

To be continued...