Ringing the bell I waited outside when Amaya open the door revealing Anaya running towards me happily. Showing my hands to her from far I made her to come forward and hug me tight.

"haann"

she said in a soft voice

"oye khoti mera naam leti hai, dad bolo dad"

(you little calling me by name, dad call me dad)

I said while placing a little slap over her head

"no Anaya don't say him dad"

said Amaya from behind

"agai ghamandi"

(comes back the rudey)

I said and walked in my room only to hug my pillow tight covering my face with that.

Memory starts flashing in my mind about Sam, I met her again only to see her happily spending her life with....with some other man, digging my face in my pillow I cried loud but the cotton didn't make it that loud. I cried remembering her memories with me.

She was not with me I was still ok spending my life thinking one day she will come to me but I think that was the complete waste as she left me like a kid left the toy after ruining it she did completely same with me.

My eyes become dry and say a full stop to the tears and I laid straight to my bed thinking about the meeting with my wife who want a divorce from me now. What did I do to get this? Am I that bad?

Why she want to leave me? Well she already did but I go to India to meet her once in month if she want divorce then it means I will have no right to see her to feel her to...to hug her.

Should I do tha.....

My thoughts were broke by a knock on my room's door, "kon hai?" (Whose there?) I asked laying down "Amaya" was the reply which I got, wiping my tears I mask up my face with the chuckling and bubbly Rehan like I am in front of the world, I got out of the room seeing Amaya standing at the corner

"kia hai kameeni"

(what is it Bitch)

I asked her

"Please Rehan cant you take my name?"

she asked blowing some air out from her mouth

"no kameeni and ghamandi sounds apna apna"

(No bitch and rudey sounds like family)

I said sticking my tongue out

"whatever....khana ready hai fresh hokar ajao sath khaengay sath khanay se barkat hoti hai"

(Whatever...food Is ready so freshen up and come fast let's eat together, it's good to eat together)

She mouthed and walked towards the kitchen.

Shutting my door again I walked in the bathroom to take deep relaxing bath for 10 minutes and got out wearing a trouser and banyan like I always wear around Anaya as she once pulled my chest hairs. So to exclude the additional pain I wear it and of course because of that ghamandi (Rudey)

"She is looking nice with him"

"Like a cute loved marriage couple..."

Sitting in the couch late night here I am thinking about... about Amyra and Hussain.

Don't know what got in me and I searched him on Google to make known his happy pictures with Amyra.

Well I was in pain would be an understatement I was crying inertly seeing the two together and thinking myself at the place where Amyra was standing will be the correct sentence.

Why not me? We spend 4 years together but why he was so change with me? I thought

To switch my mind from Hussain, back to my work I made a cup of tea for myself, pouring some in my mug I walked to the TV lounge where all the charts and other files are roaming around I settled myself on the tiled floor and began to work.

Working continuously from three hours in night I finally wrapped it up, sleep was nowhere to be found in my eyes so sticking myself to the window I focus on my breaths. Inhaling and exhaling the cold air which were continually coming from the window making my hairs to wave in the direction the air waves want

"well Amaya was the past and now I'm happily married with Amyra"

"no I don't know where she is and don't even want to know"

"Amyra is the great person to be with I'm enjoying the company of my sister in law"

The interview of hussain's family were roaming around my head and making me think that I was not the part of that family, they all are happy with her.

Being in my crying mode I was crying when I heard the door's creaking sound, wiping my face with the back of my hand I looked around to find Rehan there

"itni raat tak kia kar rahi ho jag kar?kal office nahi jana kia mere sath assistant sahiba?"

(What are you doing so late at night? Don't you wanna leave for office with me tomorrow miss assistant)

He asked making me smile

"youhe nend nahi arahi thye to socha thora akele pan ka lutf utha loon"

(Nothing much just could sleep so I thought to enjoy the loneliness)

Was my reply to his question

Smiling he walked towards me to reveal his red eyes

"tum ro rahy thay? tum ro rahy thye?"

(You were crying?)

We asked each other at the same time... taking a little breathes I said

"nahi to"

(no I wasn't)

And the same thing happened we both mouthed at the same time the same word.

Smiling to each other Rehan gazed me to sit on the sofa there with him and I did as he said

"so..." he said making me confuse

"so...?" I asked repeating the only word he said

"ro kiyoun rahi thye?"

(Why were you crying)

He asked making me to act

"mai roo...nahi to mai to nahi ro rahi thye"

(I crie... no I wasn't crying)

I said acting obvious

"wah kya acting ha shabash ab batao qou ro rahe thei. Nahi to raat k andhere main ankhain aisay he laal nahi ho jati"

(wow what an acting very good, now tell me why were you crying. No eyes can get red on its own in this darkness of night)

He said making me realize I was caught red handed

Sitting on the couch I was moving my hand in a round while thinking should I tell him or not when a hand came holding both of mines. Knowing who it would be as Rehan is the only person here I moved my gaze to him to see affliction in his eyes

"daikho amaya har insaan ki zindagi mai dard hotay hain,takleefain hoti hain jab tak dil main qaid rahengi tumhain takleef daingi hosakta hai zara kuch share karnay say kaam ban jaye"

(Look Amaya every human have problems in their life's, they have pain. These will hurt you till the time they are trapped in your heart maybe by sharing I you can decrease the pain)

He said with all the friendliness, well I haven't seen this face of him, this is new to me in this 4 months of friendship.

"daikho amaya tum meri assistant kum dost ziada ho. hosakta hai apna dukh batnay say tumhara kuch dard halka hojaye, naam na batao us k baray mai kuch na batao bus apni pe biti batado shyeed woh he kaam ajaye"

(Look Amaya you are more like a friend than an assistant to me. Maybe by telling your sorrow you can deduct the pain, don't tell me the name, and don't tell me about that person. Just tell me how you felt maybe that will work)

He said making me think, taking my decision I walked to the corner toward the window and started what I went through...

"ghar waloon ki pasand se hamari shadi hui thye aur unhon nay is shadi ko kamyaab karnay k liye unho nay bohot mehnat ki..."

(Our marriage was arranged by our families, and he tried the best in order to make this marriage success)

I started from the beginning

"...pata hai ek baar unho nay mujhay propose bhi kia tha shadi k baad.ye bhi koi karta hai bhala bolo, aur phir who shadi se pehlay ka milna mera shadi k baad khayal rakhna bohot understanding thye humary bech"

(...you know he proposed me once after our marriage. Can anyone do this tell me, and then that meet ups before our marriage, and taking care of me after our marriage, we had so much understanding)

Smiling at the moments of happiness in my life was the best part I was smiling there

"sab kuch theek tha hum bohot achay say rehtay thay understanding to thye he thye but we both were like best friends, jab Anaya aai to ab bhi yaad hai mujhay unka wo mujhay utha kar upper le jana Anaya ko 24/7 time dena bohot khushi say aur itmenan se guzar rahi thye hamari life ek aisi life jis k baray main mainay kabhi socha bhi nahi tha, phir..."

(Everything was going fine we understood each other's thoughts, we were more like best friends then a couple even after Anaya's birth he use to carry me to our room, giving time to Anaya 24/7we were so happy and satisfied with our life, A life that I never even though of and then...)

My train of memories got stuck at the word phir at that time

"phir...?"

(Then...?)

Rehan asked repeating my word

"phir ussay pyar hogaya"

(Then he fell in love)

I said and a couple of tears rushed down to my cheeks

The moment from where the story came to its end made me cry hard, made me to re memorized the situations from which I went through. The flood of tears wasn't in a mood to stop so I continued my story like this

"phir us nay meri ankhoon k samnay us say shadi karli. zalim to who itna nikla k koi had nahi Rehan apni khusiyoon ki sari tayariyan mujhsay karwai us nay us ki shadi ka chote say chota aur baray se bara kaam manay kar k dia ussay"

(Then he got married in front of me. He was so dam cruel that he made me prepare for his happiness smallest till the largest every preparations I did that for him)

Tears was there keep falling but this time I got a hand on my shoulder making me to speak more to puke out all the pain inside me

"us say pyar karti thye main is baat main bhi khush thye k meri soat laraha hai mujhay nahi nikal raha ghar say par usany who bharosa bhi toor diya mujhay talaq de kar... tala...talaq de di us...us nay mujhay...talaq daide hussain nay mujhay"

(I loved him I was happy even thinking about him remarrying but not throwing me out from his house but he broke that hope as well by divorcing me...He divorced me... hussain divorced me)

The moment I said the last part my knees hit the floor and I cried hugging the floor

"amaya..amaya control yourself please for Anaya"

Rehan said making me realize that the story is still left

"Anaya..."

I thought and started again

"tumhain pata hai talaq k baad us nay sab say bara azab mujhpar kaisay nazil kiya? Usnay Anaya ki custody apnay naam kara li dhokay say aur mujhay ghar chornay ko kehdia to me yahan bhag aai apni bachi ko apnay sath le kay...mainay theek kea na Rehan"

(you know after our divorce what he did to even torture me? He took anaya's custody by trapping me in his game and told me to leave his home so I came here I ran away with my daughter...Rehan I did right didn't i?)

I asked him

"Yes Amaya you did the right thing"

he said making me stop crying while he was crying himself

"ab meri is zindagi mai us ki woh taman karwee batain or yaadain hain jo main kabhi bhula nahi sakti, ab maray sath us ki bewafai hai jo us may bakhoobi nibhai , Hussain say pyar kar k mainay bas gawaya hai kuch bhi nahi paya mainay.... KUCH BHI NAHI PAYA"

(Now I have his bitter words and memories only that I can't ever forget, now I remember his Unloyality what he full filled entirely, I only lost things loving hussain never gained anything... I GOT NOTHING)

I said and wiped my face with my palms

Listening to amaya's heart breaking story I couldn't stop myself from crying myself. I started crying seeing the broken girl in front of me,

kitna kuch sameet kar rakha hai is nay apnay andar,kitnay gham say guzar kar aai hain yahan ye phir bhi apnay ap ko sametay huay hai chal rahi hai bus...

(She have hidden a lot with in herself. She travelled from a lot of sorrows coming here but still she is moving handling herself)

"kitni ajeeb bat haina mard aurtoon ko bewafa mantay hain aur aurtain mardon ko magar koi ye nahi jaan pata k buray mard ya aurad ek zaat nahi buray hum insan hain"

(How weird is this men's blames women's and women's blames men for bad deeds yet nobody understands that humans are bad not the genders)

Seeing her shedding tears and broken unconditionally I started mine story. Story of my life who made me the two faced Rehan Hayat happy from outside but deep down broken and shedding tears

"main aur Sam ek dusre say bohot pyar kartay thay and I was well educated and established to shadi mai bhi koi problem nahi hui hamari par shadi k baad... shadi k baad we got to know that I couldn't be father as I cant produced the sperms.... I thought...I thought hamara pyar hamary liye kafi hoga par mai galat tha wo mujhay chor kar chali gayi akele yaha"

(me and sam use to love each other dearly and I was well educated and established so there wasn't any problems with our marriage but afterwards...after our marriage we found out that I couldn't be a father I can't produce sperms...I thought our love would be enough for us...but no he left me alone)

"main us say har month milnay jata hoon.zaleel hota hoon ruswa hota hoon par ye dil to bus ratt lagaye betha hota hai ussay daikhnay ki,is yaqeen say k who pyar ussay wapis le aye ga mere paas,...."

(I go to meet her every month just to be shamed, insulted but still this heart keep asking to see her, with the faith that my love will bring her back)

I was continuously saying holding amaya's hand in mine

"Mainay apnay is dukh par naqab dala hua hai derh (1.5) saal say. Bahir say main pagal sa kameena sa koi larka lagta hoon par andar say...andar say mai toot gaya hoon amaya. Agar upper wale nay mujhay aisa banaya hai to meri kia galti? Mera kia kasoor jo us nay mujhay chora.....?"

(I've been wearing a mask over this since1 and a half years. From outside I look like a crazy bastard boy... but inside I am broken Amaya. If god made me this way is it my mistake? What my fault that she left me...?)

"Shadi k baad wo sath guzaray huay 4 maheeno mai aisi aisi yaadain de gai hai who k kia bataoun main tumhain amaya, hum shadi k baad Paris he shift huay thay and I worked here as a CEO of my dad's hotel, jab derh saal baad yahan aya behtar hokar to wapis zinda hogai wo mujh main, wapas honay laga hain mujhay us say pyar"

(That 4 months after our marriage she gave me such kind of memories that I can't even describe we shifted to Paris after our marriage and I worked here as a CEO of my dad's hotel, when I came back here after 1.5 year she woke in me again, my love for her, it woke again)

"is maheenay bhi mai us say milnay gaya tha...us ko daikhnay gaya the par jo daikh kar aya hoon who bardash nahi horaha mujhsay, who khush hai kisi k sath mujhay bhula chuki hai who aurat ab mujhsay talaq mang rahi hai meri Sam mujhsay alag hona chahti hai"

(I went to meet her this month as well... I went to see her but what I saw I can't bare that, she is happy with someone else that women forgot me now and want me to divorce her my Sam want me to divorce her)

"Hayat...Hayat keh k bulati thye who mujhay...us ka Hayat to usi ka hai par ab who kisi or ki Sam ban gai hai...ab to roo roo k in ankhoon nay bhi jawab day dia hai to ab hansnay ki practice main hoon"

(Hayat...she us to call me Hayat... her Hayat is still her's but she is someone else's Sam now. Even my eyes have given up crying so I'm trying to practice laughing now)

I said all what was inside me in front of my assistant kum friend and she saw me with her wet eyes

But as I am the Rehan.... Rehan Hayat the bastard I know how to change this sad atmosphere

"jaan li ankhain laal honay ki waja mil gaya sukun tumhain kameeni"

(know the reason for the red eyes now are you in peace bitch)

I said sticking my tongue out to her

A smile came to her lips in a blink and she smiled warmly and seeing her smiling I smiled myself and thank god we didn't opened the chapter again.

To change the topic she showed me the work she has done in my absence. Doing a little work sleep caught me so I excused myself from her and was about to go in my room when I saw Amaya eating some pills with water

"ye kia kha rahi ho"

(What are you doing)

I asked

"sleeping pills nend he nahi aati to aj store say le kar aai"

(Sleeping pills I can't sleep so brought them from store today)

She replied making me think something but as it's not my concern I ignored the issue and got in to my bed to let the sleep hug me tightly........