I was sitting on the hard metal chair outside the operating room when a bunch of media came by my side asking me thousands of questions about Amaya

Sir how is your wife now?

apko kia chaheye larka ya larki?

(What you want boy or girl)

"Please you guys, I'll talk to you guys later"

I tried to handle the situation like I was trying to control my anger when one of the media man ask.

"sir according to our source Amaya ma'am apka velvet hotel mai wait kar rahi thye aur apko nashay ki halat mai wahan paya..kia in sab k zimidar aap hai? "

(Sir according to our sources amaya ma'am was waiting for you in the velvet hotel where she found you drunk so are you responsible for this?)

"shut up guys! wahan meri biwi operate horahi hai and you guys are asking me all this nonsense...please aplog bahar jaye'ye main baad mai apko apke sare sawalon k jawab dunga"

(Shut up guys! there my wife is being operated and you guys are asking me all this nonsense... please go away now I'll answer all your questions afterwards)

I yelled loud and then two watchmen came by my side handling all the media

Sitting again on the metal chair I recalled the memory

Amaya called me and i just simply said no to her date I lied to her then going in the hotel late night club, a waiter showered me with some vine accidently so I thought to go and clean it up when Amaya crashed into me before blacking out she only called...ME?

kia is ka matlab k usne mujhay daikh lea tha already?

(So this means that she already saw me)

Ahh who cares i can fool her like I'm doing from 2 years back.... I was all in my world when a doctor came outside the O.T. I hurriedly stand and came near him

"Doctor how is Amaya? I'm Hussain her husband"

I asked concerned

With a genuine smile he replied to me

"mubarak ko, pari aai hai ghar mai apke, beti hui hai "

(congratulations! It's an Angel, a baby girl)

Listening to this i don't know what i was doing i just jumped on the doctor thanking him for the news when a nurse came out with the baby wrapped in white towel and gesture me to hold her

Laying my left hand to her back-neck and right hand to her soft tiny back i hold her in my own hands, the same nurse clicked our daughter father moment in my phone and i just sit there with my angel in my hands

"to aa he gai tum han..."

(so you are finally here)

"kitna pareshan kara mama ko tumne pata hai.... "

(You know how much you troubled your mom)

"lekin itni jaldi thye mujhse milne ki hmm k ek mahena pehle he agai tum han baby, btao btao?"

(But why you were so curious to meet me that you come before a month? tell me tell me?)

I kept on talking with the newborn angel and she kept on smiling and moving left and right in my hands

"pata hain mai apka name kia rakhunga? Anaya...ap meri Anaya ok but mama ko abhi na batana its a secret between us two"

(You know what i will name you? Anaya... You will be my Anaya ok but don't tell your mom. It's a secret between us two)

I remembered once Amaya disused me about the names of baby and she loved the same name I wanted to give my baby... Anaya that's the name i didn't tell her but i know...she will chose the same name. Soon Amaya was shifted in general room so i go there alone

"kaise ho?"

(How are you?)

"theek hun...baby ?"

(fine... Baby?)

"Nurse k pas hai, atta hoga"

(With nurse. will come soon)

"apne daikha?"

(Did you see)

"nahi time he nahi mila ayega to daikh lunga mai bhi"

(nope i didn't got time when it will arrive ill see it)

Yes i lied to her because i want her to feel what i feel holding her very first.

Nurse came and handed the baby in Amaya's hands and she beautifully handle her as she is trained and started playing with her nose her hands. I kept on clicking pictures and making videos of both of them without letting Amaya know.

"Hussain naam kia rakhain iska?"

(Hussain what name should we give her?)

She asked grabbing my attention.

"kuch bhi rakhdo apni beti hai"

(Name her whatever you want. She is our daughter after all)

I said trying to hide my grin

"aise kaise kuch bhi rakhdain beti hai humari aur meri Anaya....amaya ki anaya"

(why we name her whatever she is our daughter and Anaya. Amaya's Anaya)

She finished and a smile kept on my lips knowing that

baby ka naam Anaya he hoga

(baby name will be anaya)

'tumhari nahi baby,humari Anaya'

(Not yours honey. Our's Anaya)

Sub pehle se pata tha mujhay...Ye Hussain k shoq,

Un ki adat ,wo mujhse pyar nahi karte ye bhi janti thye mai kiyoun k sub ne bataya tha mujhay par mai nahi mani. pagal hogai thye in k pyar mai I believed what he said because I love him

(I knew everything from start. Hussain's habits, he didn't loved me i knew everything because everyone told me. But I was mad in his love i believed what he said because i love him)

I know our marriage was arranged by our families but we can create this arrange thing to love....

socha tha...

(i thought)

socha tha baby k baad sub theek hojayega... ab to shak hai theek hoga bhi k nahi?

(I thought everything will be fine between us after the baby but now I'm doubting if it's going to happen or not)

I don't want to be with him any more now, but i will...just for my baby.... Anaya baby. because i can't give her the happiness and life style what Hussain can give her

Ab bus mu pe zip...jo karna hain ye karain, jaise rehna hai rahain kabhi kuch nahi kahungi mai inhain ab ussi hotel mai doston k sath enjoy karsakty hain mujhay jhut bol kar but he can't give me time?

(From now on i will be putting a zip on my mouth. Whatever he wants to do he can, however he wants to live he can i will say him nothing.

He can enjoy with friends in the same hotel but he can't give me time)