nnote to sself (wwritten in the darknesss with ffingers stumbling over the kkeyboard)

the fflashlight stammers and the wwolves hhowl in tthe distance your heart pounds hheavier and heavvier you can't bbreathe you've been shaking for hours now alone in the ddarkness their sscreamss sstill echoing in yyour head your online friends are all ssleeping in a ddifferent ttime zone you wwant to vomit yyou want to ssssscream but you ccant you ccant even type right nnow bbut you ccant stop wwriting nonsense with ttrembling ffingerss yyou hit send you delete you hit send you ddelete your chest hhurts your heart hurts in a pile at the ppit of yyour sstomach and yyou jjust wwant to vomit right now mmaybe vvomit your heart out your whole body hhurts you wwant to ssssscream but you cant aandyyou still can't stop sshaking

hhow weak you are, little girl. it's all in yyour head all inn yyour head all in your head all in your head all in your head all in your head all in your head all in your head all in yourr head all in yyour hhead all in your head all in youe head all in your head all in your head