I'm so sorry for people who won't like this😖

"T-toru?" Taka stuttered to Toru who was resting his head on the vocalist's shoulder. "Hm?" He hummed in response watching Taka's hand slowly rise to cover his flushed face. "You know I'm a man too..." "of course you are" "and I wasn't a bottom to begin with so" "what do you want Taka?" Toru inquired suspiciously seeing Taka's weird demeanor. "I- I want to try being the top for once" "oh-" Toru merely choked, taken aback by Taka's announcement.

The guitarist sat up rubbing the back of his neck "that-" "I'm sorry, I was just being stupid. Forget what I said!" Taka replied hurriedly, frantically gesticulating his arms. "No no I understand but...this is.." Taka felt his guilt shoot through his mind as he watched how flustered Toru was. "Only once right?" "Yeah" "L-let's do that" "but" "I said it's fine" "I wouldn't hurt you Toru. I promise" Taka assured his lover giving him a sweet soft kiss.

The couple ascended to their room and plopped on their bed. "Toru are you sure? You can go back on your words if-" "I'm fine Taka" the elder man casted his reluctance aside and lounged at his lover, kissing him deeply while working on taking his tank top off. Toru attempted to do the same to Taka only to be stopped by the latter, "I'll do everything today, just enjoy it" he whispered peppered kisses on Toru's face who was already pressed into the mattress.

The young frontman felt his boyfriend's stiffness as he kissed his way down his abdomen. "Relax, Toru" Taka said before capturing the guitarist's lips once again with a successful endeavour to calm him down to some extent. "Toru" Taka called repeatedly, his voice low and tender, as he showered Toru's naked torso with fond pecks and occasional bites. If he were to be completely honest, Toru didn't hate Taka's love bites, not in the least. He held them dear as his precious lover's signature on his body.

A while has passed, and Taka started feeling Toru melting in his arms, his previous anxieties gone into thin air to be cutely replaced by soft moans. "Are you feeling good?" Taka chuckled attacking Toru's neck then proceeded steadily to his earlobe and sharp jawline. "That's no good Toruuu" the vocalist faked an angry tone as he licked Toru's lips "don't bite them again!" Taka warned kissing the small cut in the younger's perfectly carved lips.

Seeing that time was running fast, Taka admired his man's looks once more before grabbing something that worked as lube. "I-I'll do it myself!" Toru almost screamed shooting his hand to grab the bottle, however, his hand was caught in both of Taka's smaller ones. "Just sit back and be a good boy okay?" Taka looked into Toru's eyes through half lidded irises, kissing his knuckles. Toru's trousers were thrown far out of his reach, immediately followed by his underwear and confidence. He suddenly felt so helpless and scared. His naked sensitive skin seemed so vulnerable compared to what was going to follow.

The blondie's fingers quivered slightly, his eyes roamed from the bottle Taka was emptying on his hands to the spotless white ceiling then back to Taka. "Toru?" Taka's concern took him off gaurd, making his head snap in the voice's direction. "We can stop now" "no..don't" "are you sure?" "Yes" Taking his lover's determination as a good sign, he hid his own doubt, already regretting his decision to ask, and pushed his finger through the taller man. "Nhg" Toru groaned, shifting uncomfortably. Another digit followed, met by a louder groan. The frontman started scissoring Toru's insides who pressed his teeth firmly together.

It hurt, he was in pain, but there was no way in hell he'd tell Taka. Yet, his expression failed him when Taka placed his free palm on his chest, caressing his abs then moving on to his arms. That little gesture aroused heat out of Toru's skin. He felt Taka's fairly small hands envelope him not noticing the kiss occupying his lips nor the fourth finger that just went through his entrance.

"Relax" Taka uttered to Toru whose muscles were completely tensed up as his boyfriend's length stood at his hole. "Everything is going to be fine" Taka reassured Toru again, though not sure himself. Was it really going to be fine? Was he really doing this? Taka started sliding in, so slow almost not moving. He leaned in to kiss Toru once more "you're as stiff as a log Toru. Relax please" Taka begged cupping Toru's face in his palms. "Take it easy" he then soothed, stroking Toru's sweaty bangs "breathe slowly" he continued still fully focusing on his lover.

"I knew this was a bad idea" Taka spat annoyed at himself as he started pulling back "no don't stop" Toru murmured clutching the sheets so tight his knuckles turning white from the action. Fully aware that Toru was forcing himself, Taka decided to end things faster for him. So with that, Taka was fully inside, pushing twice then pulling back. He repeated the same technique but haulted promptly when a whimper tugged at his ears.

His heart squirmed when he searched for its source; Toru was pressing his palms to his eyes, his tears streaming. "It hurts so much" he sobbed "how did you bear with this?" Despite the shame and remorse gnawing at his organs, a small smile crawled to his lips. Even in that situation, Toru was thinking about him.

Without further delay, the vocalist pulled out and hugged his soulmate "I'm so sorry" he whispered genuinely in Toru's ear. Taka's sweet tone never failed to waver as he covered Toru's face with kisses for the umpteenth time. He watched Toru's breath become ragged as he finished him off with a final hand job. "Thank you" Taka mumbled, throwing a clean blanket on top of Toru's sleeping figure.