we need to talk

Jeongguk covered his face with his both hands and sobbed. He never wanted to do any of this. He never wanted to hurt Taehyung, "Babe, I am so sorry."

"I didn't mean any of what I said. You weren't just a fling, you are the love my life Tae and I am so sorry for hurting you." Jeongguk said through muffled voice but right now Taehyung wasn't there to listen to his apologies.

"You needed to hate me baby. You will now never think of me again." the logic was actually stupid but Jeongguk thought that if the would hate him, it will easier for him to forget what they had, but everything comes with a cost― Taehyung was heartbroken and doesn't even know if anything would mend it again, if he will dare to love someone, once again.

Taehyung buried his face in the soft pillow and cried like no tomorrow. He should hate the younger but he can't believe anything the other said. He can't believe the person whom he talked to was actually the Jeon Jeongguk he knew. He was nothing like him.

"Tae.." someone called and Taehyung knew who it was. He knew this voice too well. He sniffled but still managed to sit up and wipe his tears. He now could clearly see his ex husband, Kim Namjoon sitting on the edge of the bed with his famous smile on his lips. The dimples that never fails to make the writer smile, even today, the brown haired male smiled but a small one.

"Stella said you are crying so I came here to check." he explained how the maid he told to give him news if anything happens informed him.

"Joonie." Taehyung called and crawled to the other and hugged him tightly. Namjoon pressed his lips in a thin line before hugging him back and ran his hand on the writer's back to calm him.

"Shh, don't cry." Namjoon pulled away and cupped the other's cheeks, "Just don't cry. What happened? Tell me."

"Jeongguk broke up with me." Taehyung starts, "He said I was just a fling, he can never love someone like me, he only wanted my body."

"What the hell!" Namjoon half yelled and Taehyung hung his head low, "I was such a fool to think he really loves me."

"Listen, Tae. Don't you find this odd? Like I have seen that kid with you. The way he stares at you didn't seem like he wanted you for a fuck only." Namjoon pointed out and Taehyung looked up at him, "What do you mean?"

"I mean I saw him twice with you and the whole time he was staring at you as if you are the most precious thing for him, that night remember...." Namjoon pulled the other's chin up, "He was almost crying when he saw you holding my hand. I saw that."

"He cried that night." Taehyung remembers that night. The night when they were fully each other's.

"Why are you telling me this, Joonie? Why are you taking his side?"

"Because I know you love him. I know I told you that I am your first love and I will be always special but the way you look at him..." Namjoon let's out a small chuckle, "You never looked at me in the same way. I maybe your first love but he is surely your true love."

"He isn't. He clearly said that everything was fake! All of that was just an act." Taehyung again felt tears rushing to his eyes and in a moment, Namjoon saw them fall, wiped them quickly.

Namjoon doesn't say a word more. He just consoles the other and decided that he needs to talk to this Jeon Jeongguk.

I am not going to spare you. Namjoon gave up thinking that maybe Jeongguk really loved the other and wanted a clear explanation on why he did this. But again sighed when he remembered that he also hurt the other in the past.

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"Mr. Jeon. Someone is here to meet you. He says it's urgent." Jeongguk's secretary asked peeking through the door and he sighed before nodding.

He wiped his face so that the tears disappear and grabbed his phone to see his face in the front camera but he couldn't when he saw the home screen wallpaper. It was of Taehyung in the carnival sitting with a lion plushie that he won for him. He smiled at the memory and was shocked to see Kim Namjoon walking in.

"What are you doing here?" he sternly asked and threw the phone on the table, not bothering to close it. Namjoon could clearly see Taehyung's picture in Jeongguk's phone and smiled.

"So, you use your fling's picture as your wallpaper?" Namjoon asked and Jeongguk scoffed, "It's none of your business and I had to. To make him believe that I love him and I forgot to change it."

"Okay, so you were crying?" Namjoon took a seat and now was sure that something was not right. That Jeongguk really loved the other.

"You love him." Namjoon said and Jeongguk's jaw went firm as he glared at the other with his now puffy eyes.

"I don't and leave right now. Or else I have to call the guards."

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so i might finish this book today!