waste it on me.

Taehyung stared at the younger, right in his onyx eyes, his eyes softened when he saw him grinning like an idiot and smiled back at him.

"You are so cute and precious." Taehyung suddenly commented and Jeongguk smiled, "Then you should date me already. Why wasting time?"

"Love is a waste of time, Jeongguk. Just get this thing in your head." Taehyung sighed softly but never expected the sentence from Jeongguk to be his reply.

"Then waste it on me." Jeongguk saying smiled not knowing how much this sentence hit Taehyung. But soon he realized when Taehyung did next.

The older cupped Jeongguk's face with both his hands and pulled it closer and pressed his lips on the other's forehead and kissed it softly before pulling away, regretting immediately.

But his heart did a thing when he saw Jeongguk's eyes still close, a small smile adorning his lips and Taehyung knew this is the most beautiful thing he have ever seen.

"But I don't want you to waste your time on me, Jeongguk." Taehyung's sentence caused Jeongguk to snap out of his heavenly moment but he still smiled.

"You're just so tough." Jeongguk commented and took Taehyung's hands in his carefully, looking up at the other's face to see if he had an expression showing he is uncomfortable or not and seeing that he was okay, he tightened his grip.

"I gave love a try Jeongguk but, ended up getting hurt, I want to love again but am too scared." Taehyung finally says the truth and could feel tears again forming at the corner of his eyes.

"Give me a try. I promise I won't disappoint." Jeongguk with the most genuine tone said and Taehyung fixed his gaze on the white floor, not wanting to look in Jeongguk's eyes.

All his mind was thinking about was him and Namjoon. How they got separated. He can never forget that night, the night he lost Namjoon.

"How can you do this to me Joon? You slept with that girl. Wasn't I enough?" Taehyung shouted at his husband who looked down, regretting everything.

"Baby, I was drunk and I wasn't in my senses. You know I love you." Namjoon fell on his knees and looked up at his husband, "I love you and only you. Please forgive me."

Taehyung knew Namjoon loved him so much and he regretted what he did and eventually he even forgave him but he couldn't just trust him anymore like he used to do. Trust issues led to everyday quarrels and nothing in their marriage was like it was. Everything started to shatter.

Finally when Taehyung and Namjoon understood that there was nothing left in their relationship, they filed a divorce. But soon realized that still now Namjoon wants Taehyung and Taehyung even knew that he loved Namjoon but he doesn't want to give Namjoon any more chance.

But now he doesn't know if he loved the other like he used to do or not. He felt like his love faded for the one who was once his everything.

"Hey, where are you lost?" Jeongguk squeezed Taehyung's hands that was in his causing Taehyung to snap out of his thoughts and pulled his hands out of Jeongguk's hold immediately.

"Let's just see the covers and then I have to leave."

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Taehyung threw himself on the bed and buried his face on the soft pillow before he started crying. He just doesn't know where his life is going.

"What do I fucking want?" Taehyung asked himself and took a deep breath before pulling himself up and half sit on the bed, "What do I want?"

He closed his eyes and all he could see was Jeongguk's face when he kissed him on his forehead. He opened his eyes immediately and bit his bottom lip thinking about that very moment.

"Fuck I gave him hopes now." Taehyung berated himself and wiped the tears away, "Jeongguk is just too good for the world and me."

His jaw went firm when he stared at the white ceiling and could feel his heart rate getting double when he thought about the younger.

He can't make me feel this way. Taehyung thought to himself and threw the pillow away in frustration. Everything was getting messy or we can say Taehyung was the one who is messing up. He was the one making it difficult for everyone.

But that boy is ready to accept you like you are, he doesn't care about your age! Taehyung's inner self said to himself and he knew Jeongguk was the best that he can get.

"Give me a try. I promise I won't disappoint." Taehyung remembered what Jeongguk said and sighed. Now in a dilemma if he should think about it or not before Jeongguk stops trying.

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sorry short and a little confusing chapter but will update again today. i promise :))

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