Wandas POV

That is actually a great question. I also want to know the answer.

"What do you mean?" Yelena asks.

"Like about Alex?" Nat explains.

"Oh. Well, there really isn't much of a choice. I can't just give up on the mission. I definitely won't bring up how her and Wanda know each other, it would raise suspicion on why I'm bringing it up again. I can't pick a fight that could split us either. So until Fury has enough information one way or the other, I'm still going to date her."

Now my heart breaks a little for Lena. She hates having to lie to Alex, especially since she doesn't seem to be this crazy mastermind after all. Alex seems to be treating her right and really likes her.

When you know you can't properly be with someone, and they're giving their all to you, it sucks not being able to let them go.

It's hard to lead someone on like that.

Oh..

Shit.

Kind of like what I'm doing to Lexi?

And I have no 'mission' as an excuse. It's just time for me to end things.

Next chance I get, I'll do exactly that.

"I'm sorry, Lena. I know that has to suck. But maybe Fury will get over it soon and you won't have to keep dragging her along?" Spencer offers.

"Yeah. Maybe. I don't know how it hasn't been enough yet. I've been with her for months. At this point I feel like I might be stuck in this for forever." She places her head in her hands.

"Hey, don't worry about that. Fury wouldn't keep you in this dead end recon job for that long. You're way too important for that. You'll get a new mission soon, I'm sure of it," Nat grabs Yelena's arm and gives it a reassuring squeeze.

"I really hope you're right. I hate dragging Alex along. She's a good one and I don't want to keep lying to her."

"You won't Lena. It'll be over soon."

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It's been weeks since we found out the true reason Yelena and Alex are together. Well, on Yelenas side, anyway.

And yes, they're still together. Fury isn't ready to give up on the fact that Alex might be some evil mastermind. I guess he wants more concrete proof. So Yelena is still stuck.

She has told us anything new that has come up that might insinuate that Alex is this crazy person Fury makes her out to be.

So in total, she's told us nothing. There's no new information.

So either Alex is insanely good at keeping this huge business under wraps, or she just really isn't the bad guy.

We're all rather inclined to believe the latter.

But we can't exactly say that to fury because we aren't suppose to know the whole relationship is a fake.

Yelena isn't exactly happy, but she isn't unhappy.

She's having a lot of fun with Alex and likes her a lot, but lying to her is only getting harder.

And I feel horrible about it.

And there's me and Lexi..

I haven't broken up with her yet.

Don't yell at me.

I said the next opportunity I have I would and I haven't had the opportunity. I've had a bunch of missions lately and she's had a lot of meetings. So we've had minimal time together unfortunately.

But that will all come to an end tonight.

I am going over to her house for some dinner and I will have to break it to her then.

I am not looking forward to this.

I have been sitting in my room dressed and ready to go and just staring at nothing for the last twenty minutes.

Then there's a knock on my door.

"Yeah, it's open," and I use my powers to unlock the door and swing it open.

"What are you doing?" It's Nat.

I sit up, "I have to break up with Lexi tonight and I don't want to."

Nat softens, "well, why do you have to?" She walks over and joins me on the bed.

"Because of Yelena."

"What?"

That didn't make sense. Let me back track here.

"Because when Yelena was talking about having to lie to Alex. Alex thinks she's in this committed relationship when she isn't. Yelena hates that she has to drag her along. And it made me realize that that is exactly what I've been doing to Lexi."

Nat nods her head, "ah. That does add up. Though I wouldn't be so harsh on yourself. You weren't exactly trying to drag her along right? You did try to commit to her."

"Yeah, I guess. But I think I've known for awhile that it wasn't going to work out and I just.. haven't put a stop to it."

"That's okay. You had to take your time and make sure. The point is that you're going to stop it now. I'm sure you'll feel better about it afterwards. Well, kind of."

We both smile, "yeah. I can't imagine being totally happy after this, but I know it needs to be done."

"Well, when are you suppose to go on this date?"

"I'm suppose to be at her house at 6."

"Wanda, it's 5:30."

"Shit." Good thing I'm already dressed to go. I jump up from my bed and run out the door. Yelling to Nat as I leave, "bye Nat, thank you!"

"And I'm out the door.

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Luckily I wasn't that late to Lexis place. She had just been setting everything up when I got there.

I was also glad to hear that she didn't have the time to cook and had to pick something up at a restaurant on the way home.

That way she didn't put all of this time into the dinner when I'm only going to end everything.

We've finished the food, which was great. (Not Spencer level, but good. She should really open a restaurant..) we've just been sitting at the table, sipping our glasses of wine and talking.

Well, kind of talking. My head is somewhere else entirely. Constantly trying to figure out when the best time will be to bring it up without making it even worse than it is.

Which, I guess, hasn't been at all through dinner.

And I'm running out of time.

"Wanda?" Lexi catches me drifting away again.

"Hm? Yes?"

"Are you okay? You seem sort of.. out of it tonight." She places her glass on the table.

I hold onto mine. I'm going to need it.

Because if there was any a time to bring up the fact I want to break up, it would be now.

I let out a long breath, still trying to delay it all even just a little bit.

"Actually.. not really. I've been hoping we could talk. And I know we've both been kind of busy lately but.." I drift off. Still trying to procrastinate.

"It's okay, Wanda. I think I know where this is going, but go ahead."

Ugh, I don't think that made me feel better. I don't really know if it was suppose to.

"I've had a lot of fun with you, and you are an amazing person. My friends like hanging out with you, I like hanging out with you.. but, I just don't.. I don't know if.."

"If this is going anywhere?" She ends it for me.

"Yeah.." I whisper.

She nods her head and stays silent for awhile.

More silence, yay.

"I get it. I can tell we've become more distant. And we never really progressed from when we started dating. But you're right, it has been fun." She offers a sad smile.

And I just about let a sigh of relief out. She gets it.

"Yeah, I wish it weren't the truth, but it is. And as much as I like spending time with you, I think we're both just not letting ourselves move forward."

She actually laughs a little, "you know, I think you're right. We've stayed here because it's been easy, not because we think it's going anywhere."

"I guess now we can both let go and move on?" I ask hesitantly.

"Yeah. We can. No hard feelings or anything like that. We're adults. We know this has run its course. It's time to let it go."

I am so glad she understands. I was so worried about what her reaction was going to be

"Yeah. Time to let it go. But, I'm still glad I met you and I'm glad for the time we had."

"So am I. I will definitely miss those magic hands of yours.." she smirks at me.

We did agree to let this relationship go. It's at an end. It's run it's course. We're adults. Both consenting adults who can definitely have break up sex.

And we may have done just that. A few times.

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The next morning leaving her place surprisingly wasn't awkward.

More like leaving a friends house.

Which I guess might be weird.

Anyway.

Nat was right, annoyingly.

I feel so much better now that that is over. I don't have to worry about it and I know Lexi carries no hard feelings.

It's time I move on and move forward.

It's time I open myself up to something real now.

It's time I let love find me.