Wandas POV

Thank goodness Spencer is with us. She makes this whole moving bags around thing so much easier.

All we had to do was carefully put everything on Tony's boat before we all got in, swimsuits already on display.

And I will say we are bunch of beautiful women. Really I wouldn't say no to any of them.

Yes, I am very happy that no one else has the power to read minds.

"So Nat. You really know how to work this thing?" Yelena questions her sister.

"Of course I do. Don't be ridiculous," as she says this she gently pulls out of the launch zone and out into the ocean.

We all just take a moment to soak up the sun on our faces and the wind pushing our hair in crazy directions.

I could almost fall asleep..

"Babe, can you grab the sunblock?"

There goes that, "yeah, of course." I reach into the bag with the sunblock and comply when Lexi asks me to put some on her back since she forgot to earlier.

I should be enjoying this more. I am here with my.. basically my girlfriend, she is looking amazing in her swimsuit, and we have all day to lounge around.

I am glad Alex isn't here. And I'm not.

Clearly, she is not completely out of my mind.

But to be fair, I thought I was going to have to deal with her all day. So I'm thrown now that I don't have to.

It's a good thing, I know.

But also kind of weird, right?

Yeah. I don't know. Just a.. feeling.

It was only fifteen or so minutes before Nat pulls up to a secluded beach and anchors us to it. We all hop out in silence, bringing the necessary gear with us.

We all move around seemingly simply agreeing that we'd all take the time to lay out on the beach before doing anything else.

Soon enough we had our towels down and everything else off to the side.

I was next to Lexi who was holding my hand. Lena was on my other side.

And I am just itching to ask her about Alex.

Why didn't she come with us? Did she really have to work? Why does it bother me?

Okay, that last one is more for me.

But I'm laying here going back and forth on if I should say anything.

I shouldn't, right?

I mean, what could she possibly say, right?

I just need some input here.

I have no idea how long I stayed like this, lost in the world where Alex has control of my thoughts.

But it was soon broken by Yelena sitting up and asking, "is anyone else hungry?"

"I'm starving!" Spencer agrees, also sitting up.

Soon enough, we were all sitting up as Spencer pulls the coolers over to us and starts taking the food out.

It's not long before we're all scarfing down some sandwiches Spencer made (yes, they're fucking delicious) and some fruit salad she had cut up.

"Okay, Spencer, I don't know how you made such a simple sandwich taste so good, but damn," Lexi says once she's finished it.

Spencer finishes her bite, "Oh, that's easy. I make them with love." She smiles.

Nat nudges her gently.

"What? I can't actually give away my secrets, love." Spencer says before kissing Natasha on the nose.

Ugh. Why do they have to be so cute together.. it's almost annoying how perfect of a match they are. Almost. I'm also really happy for the both of them. Spencer really seems to make Nat happy. And that's what I care about.

But that makes me think of my relationship with Lexi and how.. not perfect we are? But you aren't really suppose to be perfect, right?

Ah, who am I kidding. Like you know.

Each relationship is different. Ours is just fine.

Yes, I was so in my head again that I didn't hear any part of the rest of that conversation.

Oh, for sure. For someone that can read other people's minds, I sure get stuck in my own a lot.

Wait.. I could read Yelena's mind?

No. No. Not okay. Total invasion of privacy. She has to tell me herself.

If she will.

"Ok, who is up for a swim?" Spencer asks, looking over at Nat with a smirk.

"Maybe later, bub. I'm enjoying the sun," Nat answers.

Spencer does an adorable pouting face that Nat must just not look at because how could you say no to that face?

"Hell, yes. Let's go Spence," Yelena says, standing up and then dragging Spencer along as she runs off to the sea.

They're laughing as they making it into the water, splashing along as they go.

And it does look like fun..

So I stand up and offer Lexi a hand. "Would you do me the honor of swimming in the ocean with me, babe?"

I see the smile that I've grown so fond of before she reaches her own hand out to meet mine. I help pull her up and then we're also dashing off towards the water in fits of giggles.

"Well, I'm not going to be the only one on the beach!" And then Nat is joining us, Spencer picking her up in her arms and twirling her around once she does.

Damn it all. That's what I want.

Then there are arms snaking around my waist and a smirk forms on my lips.

"Hey babe?"

"Yes?"

I don't get another second to think before I'm falling back into the water with Lexi.

I come up gasping for air, but I'm also laughing.

She is really trying to get me out of my head here, and it's about time I embrace that.

So we stayed in the water for awhile, really taking our time, splashing and tackling each other into the water.

But we do agree that we'd like to dry off, finding ourselves once more laying out on our towels, the sun doing it's best to dry us.

I'm doing my best to focus on Lexis hand in mine.

Soon after though, her hand is removed from mine. I look over to her with a question, but I'm answered with her eyes being closed and her breath deep and even.

She fell asleep. And it's adorable. I happily let my smile take over my face, taking in this moment.

I lay back down on my own towel, ready to close my eyes and join her in dream land.

But my friends had other plans, apparently.

Yelena pokes my arm to get my attention. I move my head until I see that her body is turned towards me.

I guess I didn't have to find an excuse to talk to her after all.

"Are you okay, Wanda? You seemed a little out of it today?"

Damn it. Was I that obvious? Good thing I have my job as an excuse, and hopefully it's enough for Yelena.

I figure I should ask her my burning questions about Alex when Lexi isn't around.

Sleeping or not, I'm not taking the chances.

"Yeah, I'm good. Head a tough mission this week. How are you doing?" I'm asking her without asking her.

"I'm good. Work is fine. Everything's good." Doesn't sound convincing, does it?

I raise an eyebrow at her, "is that suppose to be believable?

In Yelena's pause I can hear Nat and Spencer giggling with each other.

"I said I'm fine, Wanda," the snap in Yelena's tone catches me off guard.

She asked me how I was doing first, right? I guess I wasn't suppose to dig too deep into this conversation.

Before I can properly respond, she's turned back to the other side so we aren't looking at each other anymore.

I try to shake off the weirdness.

I want to enjoy the rest of the time we have here.

So I do.

My best.

So I'm not entirely focused when we're throwing the frisbee around. Or when Nat takes us on a short ride to another beach. Or when they're all laughing and joking.

Even as we're sitting around the bonfire Spencer made, Lexi and I cuddled up in a blanket as Spencer makes some incredibly amazing s'mores (I have no idea how she does it, but she's like a master at it), I am still not entirely present.

I'm not proud of it. But I just can't shake how weird that thirty second conversation with Yelena was.

Or why she was short when we asked where Alex was.

Or why Alex didn't show up.

And maybe I'm putting way too much into this.

(Okay, I know I am. No need to call me out on it.)

But what if..

What if there is something going on?

What if it's more than just Alex having to work?

And I know you think I'm probably being selfish here, but I'm not.

If Yelena and Alex are having issues, I want to be there for Lena. We are friends and I do care about her happiness. And it seemed like she was happy with Alex.

So if there's something going on, I'm going to make sure she knows she has someone she can turn to.