Wandas POV

Fast forward another few weeks. I know, we're really flying through time here.

I'll answer your burning questions first; no I haven't talked to or even seen Blue Eyes since that night. Er, morning.

And I don't think I will. Clearly it wasn't something that was meant to be. We are on different paths that just happened to cross for a brief moment in time.

I won't lie and say that, if she had come to me or found me and asked me to give her a chance that I wouldn't give her one.

But it's not something that's taking up all of my thoughts anymore.

Instead I've invested in Lexi.

We've been out on a few more dates and I'm really considering asking her to be my girlfriend. Or hoping that she will ask me.

We'll see. Neither of us are in any huge rush for anything, but I've really enjoyed spending time with her.

Once I let go of Blue, it's crazy how easy it was to let myself fall into whatever this is with Lexi.

I know. I know.

I heard it.

I brought her up again.

But that's what you want to know about, right?

I'm just sorry there isn't anything else for me to tell you.

Er.. no. I'm not sorry about that.

Ugh. You're making this seem like more of a thing than it is.

It's nothing. There's no thing.

I've moved on. So has she.

There's nothing more to the story.

Because there is no story there.

But Lexi and I on the other hand..

We've been having a lot of fun. Nat and Tony were completely right. Once I let myself be open to some one else and start to let them in, it wasn't that hard for Lexi to fill that space.

She's funny, and sweet, and she knows a lot of good restaurants.

And the sex is great.

Now, with blue eyes.. well, I don't know if anyone will ever compare to her. She was actually the one that let me open myself up to actually being with someone..

Holy fuck.

Okay. Maybe I haven't entirely moved on..

But the first step is admitting the problem, right?

I'll get back to you on this...

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"Okay, come on, Wanda. You're really going to push it off again?"

"I'm not pushing it off.."

"Yes! Yes, you are. That's exactly what you're doing."

I roll my eyes at Nat even though my back is facing her as I make us some omelettes for breakfast.

"Don't roll your eyes at me!"

Wait.. how did she..

"Come on. What's the hold up, Wanda? I thought

you really liked this girl?"

"I do! She's great. We've been having a lot of fun.."

"Right. And I know you mentioned maybe asking her to be official. So.. why don't you want to go on a double date with us?"

I sigh, a little frustrated. Not so much at Nat, but myself. Because I'm not even sure why. I know Lexi has been asking to hang out with them as I had mentioned it before. And I keep trying to make plans with Nat.

But, once the time comes to actually follow through..

I don't know.

"I don't know," because sometimes, you have to tell the truth.

"Huh. It's not because you don't want to hang out with us, right?" Nat asks skeptically.

"No! Of course not. You know I've been dying to meet Spencer. And I'm super happy for you. That's not the issue here."

"But you don't know what is?" Nat asks.

"I don't know.."

"It isn't because you don't want to introduce Lexi, is it?" Nat asks cautiously.

I take a deep breath. Because kind of? "I don't know. Maybe a little bit? But not for the reason you're thinking."

"Oh, and what am I thinking?"

I finally turn around having finished the omelets. I take the time to dish them up before I answer Nat.

Once I've got them sorted and I'm sitting down across from her, I realize she isn't going to let this go.

She hasn't even touched her food yet.

"I guess.. I guess if I introduce you all to her then.. it's real. Then this is something more serious than going on fun dates."

I see her shoulders relax a little, "Wanda. There's no reason to worry about that. You introduce her to everybody when you're ready. It seemed like you were more serious with her, but I guess I misunderstood. We don't have to do the double date." She gives me a reassuring smile.

Now I feel guilty.

About saying no to Nat and for feeling this way with Lexi.

I should have nothing holding me back.

"Can I ask.. what's holding you back? From wanting to introduce her to everyone? Truly."

Okay.. but seriously... does Nat have mind reading abilities, or is she just that good?

I shake my head, focusing on the conversation at hand.

"You want the truth?"

"Wouldn't have asked if I didn't."

"Fine. I guess there's still a small part of me that's hoping.. fuck. This already sounds crazy and I haven't even said it out loud yet.."

"Hey, Wanda. It's fine. You can be honest with me. It can help to talk to someone about your craziness. Even if it's just a friend," she had reached over and held my arm in reassurance.

"I know.. and I trust you. I'm just realizing how ridiculous this is going to sound now that I'm about to tell someone.."

"Take your time."

I nod my head in thanks.

"Well.. you remember that blue eyed fire fighter? The one that saved me?"

"How could I forget? You talked about her enough. Even though she yelled at you. And ditched you after hooking up."

Ouch.

"Yeah. Can't forget those parts. But.. I guess there's a part of me still holding on to that possibility that she just might.. want me."

I can see Nats expression form into one of pity, so I'm quick to stop it before she can say anything.

"I know! I know. I shouldn't. And I don't want to. I want to be fully committed with Lexi. But.. I got to see behind the stone cold blue eyes and feel the warmth they can offer, too. And I guess.."

"You guess you thought maybe she'd keep those walls down for you?"

I lower my head and push around some of the eggs still sitting on my plate.

"Hey. There's nothing wrong with wanting someone," she starts softly. "I get it. She's attractive. And fun. And alluring. And a mystery that you want to solve. But, Wanda?"

"Hm?"

"You deserve to be with someone that knows your worth and treats you even better. You deserve to be happy. And this person with the blue eyes doesn't seem to be the one that can do that."

Ugh. I know she's right.

"It's ultimately up to you, of course. But I think you should really try to let it go. Let her go. It only seems to be bringing you down. And I hate seeing you like this. I want you to be able to have fun, enjoy who you're with."

I smirk, "and go on a double date?"

"Yes! And go on a double date!"

We both fall into laughter.

"But really, Wanda. I want to see you happy. Whoever that's with."

"I know. Thank you, Nat. I know you're right. I know I have to let it go. Lexi is a great person and I have a blast with her. I shouldn't let anything get in the way of that."

"Exactly. Also, at this point, Spencer is starting to wonder if you even exist," Nat admits with a smile.

I can't help but chuckle. "Wait, really?"

"Yes! I keep saying 'my amazing friend Wanda and her friend want to double date' and then I have to tell her some stupid random reason as to why you can't show up. It sounds fake!"

"Okay, you aren't wrong. It does sound suspicious," I laugh. She joins.

"It's either that or she's convinced you don't want to meet her, which I hope isn't true," she raises an eyebrow.

"No! Of course I want to meet her. She sounds incredible. And the way you talk about her.. well, it's pretty obvious she has you wrapped around her finger," I tease Nat.

"Pshh.. that is absolutely true. I would do anything for her. And I don't even care if that makes me a sap."

"It might a little bit. But it's really sweet and cute. I'm glad you've found someone that makes you happy and treats you well. You deserve it, Nat."

She has that big grin she gets when she talks about Spencer.

"Well I'm just glad she even gives me the time of day. And she's amazing. I'm lucky to get to call her mine. And I plan on keeping it that way."

"Oh yeah, sounds like she's the one?"

She rolls her eyes. Thought that was my thing. "I really think she might be.." Befofe I can squeal in excitement, she continues, "which is whyyyyy I want you to meet her. Even if you don't bring Lexi. So she at least knows I'm not making you up!"

I can't help but laugh again, "I don't know.. it's kind of funny that she thinks you have a made up friend."

"Rude!"

"I'm kidding! I'm kidding. I'd love to meet her. And I will in fact bring Lexi. We can still do the date tomorrow."

"Yes! Perfect! I will confirm it with Spencer. I'm so excited!"

Nat gets up, taking her plate over to the sink then running away like a kid who found out their crush likes them back.

It's really cute.

Yeah. I guess I'm kind of excited for tomorrow's date, too.