《Racing for her love: A Madison Beer fanfiction》Chapter 19 || What love means
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I felt a poke in my rib cage, I woke up.
"Baby?" As confused as I was, I was also worried.
I look around and see my girlfriend sit right up next to me, looking into my soul as if I just committed a war crime.
"What's it?" I still was confused, but also kinda spooked from the gaze she gave me.
"YOU BETRAYED ME AND I KNOW THAT YOU'LL NEVER FEEL SORRY, FOR THE WAY THAT HURT" Madison's voice was like never before, the scream hit me right into my nerves.
Madison still wasn't done, I was still confused what was all going on.
"ALL YOU EVER WANT TO DO IS LIE, WHY YOU ALWAYS SUCH A CANCER?"
"I'm an Aries-" Then it struck me, Madison knows I'm an Aries, she was the one who taught me about astrology, not that I'm a 100% believer, but I realized she must have seen me for someone who is a cancer and hurt her badly.
I could only think of one person.
"Baby, its me, Y/N, not Nick... You're all safe..." I tried in an effort to stop her.
"I really hope this hurts like hell." Suddenly she grabbed a Karambit knife and even did the little spin around her finger with the knife.
That's a trick I do... Hold up-
Madison then shapeshifted into me... Am I hallucinating as Nick?
Before I could do anything, I stabbed myself, right into the heart. I felt the blood gush out and bloodstains started to appear on the sheets. I started to panic, however I strangely didn't feel the pain, but this should definitely be a fatal stab, however I didn't stop with one stab, I kept stabbing him until my arms were sore.
"That's what you get for being such a moron you deserve this pain, it's called vengeance" I said, my voice was much deeper
"Y/N baby, Y/N!" I heard.
Suddenly I woke up for a second time.
"Baby, are you okay, I heard you sleep talking and now you're sweating like you just raced a car in the Sahara dessert and you look as pale as a corpse." I saw Madison look at me, worried and on the verge of crying.
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"Bad dream, I don't even know." I sat right up still shaken from the nightmare I had just woken up from.
"Do you want to talk about it buppy?" She put her arm on my shoulder.
"You should sleep baby." But deep down I knew she wasn't gonna until she made sure I was okay again.
I stood up, looking out the window and towards the full moon, still trying to process what had happened.
Madison got up as well and hugged me from behind.
"Mads, I- I had a dream that I was Nick and I then got stabbed by-" Madison looked shocked at me.
"I stabbed myself..." I could barely get those words of my lips.
"Y/N, it's just a dream, you didn't kill him, you would never do that." Madison was also all shook up.
"I'm terrified, if that was actually me, then what the fuck happens if I ever lose control over myself... Will I go insane as well, like- like my father?" The salty tears started to roll over my cheeks.
"No Y/N, you won't, I'll promise you..." She gave me a kiss, I stared just at the floor.
"You're strong Y/N, you know that." Madison stroke a thumb over my cheek, wiping away the tears.
"I'm just scared that one day, I'll go into a rage mode and hurt you, I don't want to hurt you... I could never forgive myself that."
"Ssssst Y/N, don't say that cause it's not gonna happen, your sweet side has the upper hand over your emotions." She gave me a kiss on the lips.
"Can you sing for me baby, please?" Her voice always calms me, whether that's over Spotify or in person.
"Of course buppy, let's get back to bed, then I'll sing you to sleep."
I climbed in bed and went to lay in Madison's warm and comfy arms.
"This is a song I wrote about you, I might put it on my next album."
I couldn't help but smile, before even hearing the song itself.
If I, If I ever saw you cry
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I'd pull the tears out of your eyes
And put them into mine
On the night, on the night you might die
I'd pull the bullets from your heart
And put them into mine
'Cause you're so lovely
Oh, I'm so lucky that you love me
And if I'd have to die for love
Then I would show you what love means
Oh, you're so lovely
How the fuck do you love me
I almost gave up on love till you
You showed me what love means
And I, oh I'm always such a messI smoke too many cigarettes
But somеhow you're obsessed with mе
If I see, if I see that you're in pain
I'd pull the heartache from your veins
And put it in mine, I break
'Cause you're so lovely
Oh, I'm so lucky that you love me
And if I'd have to die for love
Then I would show you what love means
Oh, you're so lovely
How the fuck do you love me
I almost gave up on love till you
You showed me what love means
Cause you're so lovely
How the fuck do you love me
If I ever give up on love
Will you remind me what love means?
"That is the most beautiful song I have heard and that says something, you really do show me what love means."
"I'm glad you enjoyed it buppy, now, close your eyes, I'll protect you. Maddie is here to hold you through the night."
I closed my eyes and drifted away into a calm and peaceful sleep.
"Nobody will break my buppy" Whispered Madison softly.
Madison supplied me with plenty of back scratches and kisses, before she quickly fell asleep as well.
I woke up and looked at Madison and smiled.
"Asleep like a little baby."
I pushed her hair out of her face. I didn't want to get up so I just snuggled up to her.
"Madam still looks like a gorgeous princess when asleep." I whispered, she didn't wake up.
I gave her a kiss on her forehead and then grabbed my phone. I decided to take a selfie with Madison asleep. But I forgot I left my shutter sound on and Madison woke up from it.
"Hey delete that." Madison tried to grab my phone but I was too quick to avoid it.
"That's being saved." I smirked.
"Shut up, NO OMG, that's a terrible picture."
I couldn't help but smile.
"Y/N stoppppppppp." Madison tried to pin me to the bed, but I resisted, we wrestled for a few moments. Eventually Madison got tired and lied upon my chest. I then trapped her there by pinning her to my body.
"Actually, this is pretty comfy, can we stay like this buppy?"
"We got nothing to do until next week, then my training schedule starts again."
"Hmmm, then let's cuddle till you have to go to the gym again."
She tapped my nose then gave me a kiss.
"Hey that's very rude of you baby."
"That's your price for keeping that terrible picture."
"May I use that as my wallpaper for my phone?"
"Hmmm, yes, but I can tap your nose again then."
"Go on then" I put my phone down again.
"Boop" She tapped my nose and planted a big kiss right up my forehead.
"Surprise attack of kisses." I started to put a lot of kisses all over her face.
She then laid her head on my chest.
"Boy, the serotine you provide me is insane." She said softly.
"And you make me feel like a teenager in love." She giggled at that reference.
She suddenly looked me in the eyes.
"Y/N, I truly fucking love you."
"Madison, I love you as well, I genuinely can't think of a better woman to fit into my definition of wifey material."
We cuddled for the most of the day, only getting up to grab some snacks occasionally and going for a walk together with Bowie.
"This feels like a family walk and I love it." Normally I don't really like walks, but with Madison it felt so different, in a good way so peaceful as we walked hand in hand through the park.
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