Taehyung and I were having a crucial battle of having a staring contest sitting across from each other. He wanted a divorce after two years even after all the bullshit we endured together. He wanted to be set free but I didn't, it's like he had given up on us. Our journey, what we built, what we created together was tarnished.

"So, both of you are here." The divorce attorney grinned at both of us as then we quickly broke eye contact. "How are we feeling?"

"Great." I lied with a shrug to my shoulders and then crossed my arms across my chest. The way he tried to act like he was unaffectedly made my heartache, is this how my mother felt when she went through this? I knew this man for five years and married him for two, I know how he looks when spent days crying. Why did he HAVE to act like he didn't have any emotions now?

The attorney sat down across the table from me and the other attorney sitting at my side, "So Graycen, it appears to be that you're pregnant."

I gulped down nervously before nodding my head slowly, "Yes and I'm twelve weeks so far."

I looked around the room to see Taehyung, seething.

Why was he seething and he was the one that wanted this divorce in the first place?

"Well, congratulations to you on your baby!"

I watched as Taehyung was leaned back in his chair and bit his lip. "So first we're going to go through the paperwork and–"

"No!" Out of nowhere, Taehyung sat up in his chair and his hands slammed down on the wooden table. "Can Graycen and I have a moment to speak first?"

"No!" I waved him off, turning to the attorneys. "You guys can stay and just hand me the papers to sign. The papers that Taehyung was pressing me about." The way his name rolled off of my tongue had him even more upset. He threw his head back in frustration before giving me a hard down stare.

Taehyung scowled and then scooted back from the table with his jaw dropped, "You're pregnant and you didn't even have the decency to tell me you were pregnant, Graycen. That's bitter and that's low, how dare you?" His eyes were literally cutting into my soul. "Did you find out before I even wanted a divorce?"

I stayed silent but he knew me so well that he knew the truth without me saying anything. He ran his fingers through his hair before sitting up, "You don't think a pregnancy would've factored into my decision to move forward with the divorce–"

"– I knew it would!" This time, my tears wouldn't stop falling from my eyes. I feel like all we did was scream and argue and blame each other for things ending the way it did. "I knew it would've but you didn't want to stay with me! You think I want you to stay for just my baby–"

"– our baby!"

"You want me to trap you into staying with me for a baby?!" This time I swiped the stack of paperwork on the table. "This, right here, is what I wanted to avoid!"

One of the elderly attorneys cleared his throat, "Please calm down." He picked up the papers and the pen before staring at us both. Taehyung and I took minutes to calm down. We were acting like fools and it worked him up a bit – I can tell with the beads of sweat on his forehead.

"I get that you wanted to avoid this," he finally said then took a pause, "I guess I am trying to get that. It's a lot of shit to process at this moment."

"Oh," I breathed out before grabbing the pen, "you don't have to try to get it."

He sighed before moving his body more closer to the table, "We can figure this out, right?" The look in his eyes made me shift uncomfortably in my seat.

No matter what Taehyung and I were going through he still had the effect on me that made me feel like a teenage girl, "Yeah." That was all my brain told me to say was "yeah" and I hated it.

Before he fixed his lips to say anything else I continued to speak, trying my hardest to conceal the fact that my voice was cracking. "Look I just didn't want to tell you because last time my pregnancy–" I paused to look down at the paperwork that I never wanted to ever see in my life under my hands, "my pregnancy tore us apart. Literally, neither one of us could've helped the other and everyone just got hurt."

He was about to speak again but I wasn't ready for him to speak again, "I didn't want that again for you or for me. I just wanted to wait until everything was okay. I'm sorry, okay?" I hated being this vulnerable definitely in this situation. I felt my vision getting blurry but I closed my eyes to keep the tears from slipping out.

"You wanted to wait until everything was okay or until you were too far along in your pregnancy to do something?" By the time he said that I guess the attorneys could tell that I was about to lose my mind in that office. They all shifted in their seats and not a pin drop was heard in the office.

I chuckled in disbelief, "I'm sorry but do what?" I sat up in my chair before putting both of my hands on the table.

"Maybe not put us through this again." He scoffed and then proceeded to look me in the eyes like he was all of a sudden superior.

"Are you–"

"– shut up, Graycen." My eyes widened after he had the audacity to even utter those words from his mouth. "Are you sure that you didn't want to put us through this again or even our baby for that matter? For me to hold him as he dies in my arms. There are some options, you should know."

"Oh, so you're implying that I get an abortion now Taehyung?!" I huffed as I felt my fists ball up. "That's not an option for me."

"Well, what about me?!" He raised his voice an octave higher than mine. "Hm, when will I count–"

"Because bastard you don't fuckin' count here!" A nerve struck which caused me to shout even louder than him. "You don't get to act crazy to me, I'll be even crazier Taehyung! You don't count here and I don't think you ever will until the baby is born."

"I–" he breathed out before craning his neck and piercing my soul with his eyes, "I'm the father."

I chuckled, sitting back in my chair. "Yes, you are. You're the father when there's a baby. Right now you have no say in this. It's my body and it's my damn baby. You're not the one who will be carrying this baby for nine months."

"Graycen–"

"– you're not my–" I took a deep breath before continuing my sentence and it burned my chest for me to say it, "husband. You have no rights now." I rushed and signed the divorce papers and got up from the seat before walking out the room I glanced at Taehyung. "Stay the fuck away from me, I mean it."

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um so that's that

taehyung is 26 and graycen is 25