we're starting the trial soon. i cant wait to see y/n again. i've missed her and i know she's miss me. i know she thinks about me. oh my god i almost forgot, i get to see finn too. i can not WAIT to see his face when he sees me. or jack and sophia. i wonder what they're gonna do or how they're gonna react.

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the trial is tomorrow. 1/20/21.

i'm horrified to be honest. me and my lawyer, kate, are finishing going over all the evidence there is. we know that we're gonna win. we have to win.

finn picked me up from kates office at 5:00. i got in the car and gave him a hug while he kissed my forehead. "i'm tired, let's go to dunkin and get coffee so i can stay up." i said looking through my purse to find a dunkin gift card. "y/n, no. you need to get a lot of sleep tonight. tomorrow is a huge day and you need to be as focused as possible." finn said while beginning to start driving.

"ughhh finnnnnnn. okay if you take me to dunkin i'll go to sleep early tonight. for you." i said laughing. "finn pleaseee" i begged.

"fine, but i'm staying with you tonight. i'll go to sleep early with you." finn said. "you're the best" i said putting my hand on his thigh. "i know" he said looking at me.

"hey y/n, can you text my mom to tell her i'm staying at your house tonight?" he asked. "of course. i can just call her on my phone if you want. "okay, that's fine." he said.

we finally pulled into the dunkin drive thru. i got over my "fear" of matt. you know? the guy i had a nightmare about? and i was literally scared of him for another month. after they got wyatt in custody ive been doing pretty okay. i feel comfortable walking around my house wearing what i want to wear instead of wearing a hoodie and sweatpants. i was always scared he was watching so i wore things to cover myself up. i know i can drive and so can my friends but i feel safe walking to their houses again. everything is slowly going back to normal. but there is still that small voice in my head telling me "someone's watching you" or "you're not alone". since my parents are always gone for work, i keep all the doors in the house open, my shower curtain stays open. yes, my shower curtain. or i just have finn, jack, or sophia stay with me.

i was about to tell finn what i wanted but he ended up ordering for me. he's memorized what i get because we come here almost everytime we're together.

"can i get a medium iced vanilla latte, a medium coffee with 3 creams and 3 sugars, and 2 chocolate frosted donuts please and thanks." finn said.

we pulled up to the window and got our drinks.

"hi matt" me and finn said at the same time. "hey guys, here are your drinks. good luck tomorrow y/n! everyone here is rooting for you." matt said back to me.

"thank you so much, it means a lot." i said smiling. i have finn my gift card to give to matt but he said "this ones on us today. have a good day you two." "thanks." finn said before giving matt a smile.

we got back to my house and went upstairs. " so y/n are you all set for tomorrow? you got everything right?" "of course finn. i'm still scared but we have really strong evidence. kate had the police run finger prints and wyatts prints matched the prints on the notes we got." "that's good. what do you think he's gonna plead?" finn said with a concerned tone.

"honestly finn, i have no idea. if he pleads not guilty, i mean obviously we can prove that he's guilty." "that's good and his only other option would be to plead guilty and that would be even better." he said reaching over to hold my hand. "actually finn, wyatts lawyer is trying to say that wyatts insane and isn't in a good place mentally. which means if they say he's not sane then-"

"then he might not even go to jail. he would go to a fucking mental hospital. you're kidding y/n. that's not even right. we all know that's false." finn said standing up and pacing. i could tell he was stressed. "he knew exactly what he was doing. you're seriously gonna fucking tell me that wyatt raping you was just him not being in a good mental state? that's fucking ridiculous. that's not even fair. i cant believe they would even-" i cut finn off because he started crying. i don't want him to get upset about this, i really don't. i know it's hard but i don't want this to mess with him. "finn stop. please. it's okay." i said standing up with him. i put my arms around his neck and pulled him back down onto the bed. he started crying really hard into my chest. it breaks my heart seeing him feel so strongly about this.

"shhh it's okay finn. it's okay. let's just go to bed okay?" i asked him. he looked up at me and nodded his head.

i gave finn a hoodie and sweatpants that he left here a couple weeks ago. we got into bed and just held each other knowing that tomorrow could possible be the end of this difficult time period in our lives.

in my life.

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