well, sounds like things are going okay with y/n and finn after that awkward thing, situation? i don't know what it was but i'm glad they're doing okay.

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things have been getting hard. i mean they've always been hard, i'm just losing motivation for a lot of things. i haven't been to school in 2 weeks. my parents have gotten calls and i've been getting emails from the school. all of them say the same thing like "you're daughter hasn't been in school" or "y/n, you need to return to school if you want to pass your senior year". and stuff like that. it's scary because obviously i don't want to fail my senior year but everything has been so hard. i've started getting my work every single day from school though so my grades have been improving a bit. but i haven't been to school not because i don't want to be, but because i'm horrified of what could happen next. i know i'm not safe at school. but to be completely honest, i don't even feel safe at my own home. or finns for that matter.

my parents got back from their business trip a couple days ago and things have been weird between them. like not between the two of them but between them and me. they haven't talked to me much about what been going on. the police had to fill them in on everything since well, they're my parents and i'm not 18 yet so i'm still under their control. they got home and gave me hugs and kisses and all that but we haven't talked about it once. do they see me differently? if so then there's nothing i can do about it. and i've tried to forget and forget but it just can't happen. i'm trying to move on but i cant. it's been what? two and a half months now? and i'm STILL not over it. but truthfully, finn and jack have been helping a lot and we're finally going to talk to sophia today. i'm actually excited to see her.

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i have had the craziest month. like i cant believe that one, i told finn i'm the one who called the cops for y/n. and two, i lost all my bestfriends because of it. it's been really hard being on my own. they wouldn't talk to me no matter how much i tried.

but i couple weeks ago jack texted me and asked if we can all talk soon. he told me that him and finn have been thinking about being friends again. of course i want to be friends with them again, i want that more than anything but the question is, does y/n want to be friends? i know i hurt her but she is my bestfriend. ya i have finn and jack but y/n is my forever person. anyways, they're picking me up today so we can all talk. i'm excited but so nervous at the same time.

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y/n, jack, and i are on our way to pick up sophia. i think we're all just going to get dunkin and go back to my house. y/n is scared to go out somewhere for a period of time. she's always paranoid that he is watching her. or watching us.

we got to sophias house and she came out to the car and got in the back seat with jack. i turned around and said hi to soph and so did y/n. we didn't start talking about everything yet but we were kinda just talking about random things on our way to dunkin. we ordered and pulled up to the drive thru window. while we were getting our coffees y/n wouldn't look up at the window or even up from her lap. she's been fine but now she's being weird? we're always at this dunkin, why is she just now being weird about it. i just brushed it off though. after we got our order and paid we drove back to my house.

this is just a filler but i'm so sorry i haven't updated in almost a month. i've been trying to write but i just haven't been able to. thank you for over 3k reads and over 160 votes. again that's literally insane. i love each and every one of you and i promise i will try to update. thank you for your patience.

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