i know i talk about y/n for these parts but it looks like finn might have a crush👀. okay but it kinda feels like y/n might to. i mean that "yes finn, i love you" seemed pretty convincing.

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i hope y/n isn't mad at me. there is no way in HELL that i would expect anything like that to happen to her. she's one of the strongest people i know and we never see her break like that. and to see it, my heart broke into a million pieces. i mean how would you feel if anything like that happened to your bestfriend? i'm gonna find who did this, well we. as in me and finn. okay and why is nobody talking about what happened when y/n and finn were hugging? like not to change the topic or anything because this whole situation is very serious but like what? there HAS TO BE something going on between them. anyway, me and finn will find who did this to our bestfriend. one way or another.

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okay well i guess it's kinda obvious i like finn. haha. i don't know what it is about him, well i mean i do but, i don't know. it's just the way he cares for me and would do anything for me. i know jack would too or any of my friends but it's the way he does it. it's just him. and i think i want to be with finn but it's a bad time. and i don't even know if he feels the same so it doesn't matter. now what i've been avoiding, what happened today. i TOLD FINN AND JACK. i feel stupid. and i feel like maybe i shouldn't have told them but i also didn't mean to. i'm just glad they didn't go all ape shit after i told them about the party on saturday. tomorrow is saturday which means it's been a week. i still feel like i should tell the police or get help but it's been a week and there probably isn't anything they can do. they most likely can't do a rape kit so even if the man who raped me was caught, there wouldn't be any proof, and i mean ANY proof. nobody at the party even saw me and him together at all so there's no witnesses at the party. i fucked up. why did i even go to that stupid fucking party anyway? it's all my fault and since i blew up like that at jack, a couple other people most likely heard what i said. they're probably spreading it to everyone and next week at school all i'm going to hear is "slut", "well what were you wearing", or "you probably let him have sex with you" and stuff like that. i messed up so bad and there's nothing i can do. it's my fault people know. it's my fault my friends know and are probably really upset.

it's my fault i got raped.

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hi everybody! thank you so much for the reads, it truly means a lot. 🥺