Annabelle

*2 Months later*

It's been two months since I was welcomed into the pure lupus pack. The very small pack, mind you. Case your wondering it only consisted of Colton then Kate, Syphone, Kent, and Brandon who I later met. Kate and Brandon are mates and so are Syphone and Kent. Life has been great, I'm trained every day to become a great fighter. I was informed that my wolf being able to take over and fight like that was one of my gifts. When other werewolves wolves take over completely it's because they are extremely pissed. Not to mention, the only damage they do is to theme selves, they are to blinded by rage to fight properly. My wolf on the other hand, Isabelle, is able to fight and control my moves. She can't do that all the time though, so I have to be trained so I can fight as well. Kate and Syphone are my friends away from home, If they were to meet Kristy and Avalon, we'd all get along. Syphone is the quiet shy one, Kate is the out-going mischievous one, and i'm the calm and bubbly one. So I knew that Kristy would automatically take a liking to Kate and Avalon a liking to Syphone, whereas i'd be the glue holding us together. I'm not going to lie and say I didn't miss home, the home I ran away from that is, not the one I was shipped away from. My life is complicated. I was currently sipping hot cocoa watching rain pour outside through the window in my room, in my new pack house. I was propped on the ledge just sitting, when I felt two arms snake around my waist.

"Watcha doin?" Colton asked from behind me.

Oh did I mention that me and Colton have kinda become best est friends ever. He doesn't have his mate anymore so the pack was kinda like a support system, but with what happened between me and Logan he's kinda like mine now. I guess you could say we lean on the other. Colton is one of the few werewolves I know who survived losing a mate. Yes, his mate died. He didn't really get a chance to meet her, but regardless the pain is terrible. From what he's told me, yes we clicked rather quickly, he only saw from the back off her head wondering in a meadow before she was attacked by several rogues. He tried to help her, but was too late. By the time he killed the last rogue, she was already dead. Ever since, he hasn't been able to find a girl to take her place.

"Helloooo? Earth to Annie? Still in there?"

"huh? What yeah." I grinned sheepishly knowing i'd zoned out again.

"I asked what you were doin?" I mock glared at him and he smirked.

"Isn't it obvious? I'm watching the rain." He chuckled and I went back to looking at the rain. Coltons arms tightened around my waist as he hoisted me onto his lap, watching the rain with me. I peaked out of the corner of my eye, only to find him looking at me. I looked over at him. The way he stared into my eyes made my heart melt and a slight blush creep up on my cheeks.

"What?" I asked him

He didn't respond immediately, but when he did I was surprised at the words that came out of his mouth.

"Your beautiful." I was shocked. I've never heard him actually call me beautiful, sure he calls me pet names like 'rosy cheeks' or 'curly sue' no thanks to my hair, but never beautiful. I smiled back and he grinned.

"Go out with me?" Once again i was shocked. I knew he thought me differently, but I always thought like a little sister. Obviously not. It couldn't hurt right?

"Sure, Colton." He kissed me on top of my forehead before getting up and walking towards the door of my bedroom.

"Good, be ready by 7." He walked out of my room slowly closing the door with a goofy smile on his face. I laughed and threw a pillow at him. Before it could hit him or do any damage, not that a pillow could anyway, he closed the door quickly. I laughed and thought about Colton and our date later. In a way I was glad, I always found him kinda hot over these two months. And when he trained me, not that he took it easy, I always found myself staring at his sculpted abs and toned chest. Yup, you heard me. He tends to always find some way to take his shirt off around me, that boy.

Logan

"Never yours,

Annabelle..."

I couldn't stop re-reading her note over and over again. What have I done? The only chance I had to ever be happy and I ruined it. These past two months have been hell. I lock myself in my room and isolate myself. I wanted to order a search party, but my dad refused. I've been receiving the cold shoulder from everyone. The couple of people I thought only knew about me and Annabelle, turned out to be everyone. My mom won't even look at me, and when she does her face is contorted into a glare. My father avoids all contact and only talks to me on pack or alpha business. Yeah, I didn't take the alpha position, my dad said ' he didn't want some whore as Alpha Female, that Annabelle would've been better fit' that stung a bit at the time. But, I couldn't blame anyone, this was my doing and when or if Annabelle comes back, she will be mine. I know that Amber is Brent's mate he told me, well more like yelled at me when he found out about the mating.

*flashback*

"WHAT THE FUCK LOGAN!!!" at the time I felt crappy as is so was surprised.

"what's your problem Brent?"

"MY PROBLEM!?!? MY PROBLEM IS THAT YOU MARKED MY MATE!!! MINE!!!" At the time I was shocked, but it all fit together the puzzle pieces. I wasn't the only one who got an earful though, so did Amber.

"What's going on out here?" Amber asked coming out of the house.

"I really hope your happy Amber, maybe I thought I loved you I don't know anymore! But guess what?!?! I'M DONE!!!" Her eyes widened at that and she started to silently cry.

"What- what do you mean?" she barely choked out.

"You HURT people Amber ALL BECAUSE OF GETTING REVENGE ON ME YOUR MATE!!! Yes! I know I rejected you Amber and I'm sorry I was young and stupid, but YOU, you changed. The Amber I knew wouldn't have torn mates apart just for REVENGE!!! So i hope your happy Amber this the ever after you wanted?!?!"

"No-no Brent pl-please i'm- sorry pl-please forgive m-me! I only went out with other guys to try to get you je-jelous! So that maybe you wo-would try to get me back! PLEASE!" She sobbed

"Not until you change Amber, maybe i'll think about it. But, it's not me you need to apologize to, think about Logan and Annabelle." Brent walked away.

Amber was shocked her eyes bulging out of her sockets. Then she turned to me and she covered her mouth while she sobbed.

"Lo-Logan oh my god i'm-i'm so sorry, but I can't be with you. Brent is my mate. And I love him so much." I nodded I knew this would happen eventually.

*end of flashback*

I put Annabelle's note down and tried once again to feel around for Marcus. My wolf. He hasn't been around lately. And every time I try to got out on a run, I can't shift. I'll think about it as hard as I can, but nothing.

"Your fault, our mate is gone." I heard a raspy whisper in the back of my being. Oh no.

"Marcus! Marcus! Is that you?!?" he sounded so dead. And weak, he's never sounded like this before.

'Yes, and i'm leaving, enjoy being a human, Logan. I refuse to live without our mate. This was your doing, not mine." what? What was he saying?

"Goodbye, Logan." It was barely above a whisper before I felt a tearing in my soul, I felt burning in my chest and all around my body before I felt a shallow emptiness. My wolf was dead. I can't shift, ever. If Annabelle ever come back, i'll grovel on my knees and beg. I'd do anything to get her back and make her realise I had made the worst mistake of my life. I was just dissapointed it took me loosing my wolf and one of my best friend's to realise that.