《An Akshan FF- Sauda(deal of love)》Chapter 7
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Antara reaches home , Akshat is working.
Aj- Are aa gayi tum, kafi der kar di tumne.
An- Ha vo..... mujhe kuch baat karni thi tumse....
Aj- Ha bolo na(still busy in his work)
An- Mai kya keh rahi thi, vo jo ladki hai na... guddan... jisne tumhe vo recording bheji thi...
Aj- Uska kya....
An- Tum usse shadi kar lo....
Aj- (shocked) Kya????? kya bol rahi ho tum.....
An- Dekho tum overreact kar rahe ho... meri puri baat to sun lo.....
Aj- Mai tumhari har bakwas nahi sununga......
An- Tumhe sunna hoga , ye mai hum sab ki bhalai ke liye kar rahi hu.....
Aj- Ghar tod kar kounsa bhalai ka kaam kar rahi ho jara bataogi?
An- Dekho mai tumhe batati hu... lekin tum meri puri baat sunoge.. aur phir bologe... mai bhi nahi chahti ki humara ghar tute... tumhe kya mai itni buri lagti hu mai?
Aj- Thik hai thik hai.. bolo....
An- Mai abhi bahar gayi thi na to ek admi mila tha mujhe, mai nahi janti ki vo koun hai, kya karta hai... lekin usne mujhe paise offer kiye hai us guddan ki aur tumhari shadi ke liye ha karne ko....aur kamal ki baat to ye hai, ki jo paise vo denge, use hume lautane ki bhi jarurat nahi hai.... hai na badhiya...
Aj- Accha matlab ye sab tum paiso ke liye kar rahi ho.... wah.... aur paiso ke liye tum apne pati ka sauda karne chali ho....
An- offoo Akshat.. maine aisa kab kaha... mere liye tum aur humare baccha important hai... na ki vo paise... ha mana ki mujhe paiso se pyaar hai... lekin tum nahi rahoge to mai un paiso ka kya karungi....
Aj- Agar aisa hai, to tum mujhe shadi ke liye kyu ha karne ko keh rahi ho?
An- Isiliye to maine plan socha hai... us admi ne kaha ki tumhe shadi ke liye ha kehna hai... par agar ladki hi shadi ke liye na keh de to?? Vo admi kuch kar hi nahi payegi... to usme humari to koi galti nahi hogi...
Aj- Mai kuch samjha nahi... agar vo pyaar karti hai to shadi ke liye kyu na kahegi?
An- Vahi to us admi ne bhi yahi socha hogi, ki vo ha kahegi... lekin mai uske samne tumse shadi karne ke liye aisi sharte rakhungi, ki vo khud hi shadi ke liye na keh degi....
Aj- Aur agar usne phir bhi ha keh di to.?
An- Agar usne ha kaha vo un sharto ke mutabik hum usse pesh ayenge.... aur humare pass paise bhi honge.... to uski choti si bhi galti ke liye hum use yaha se bhaga denge....
Aj- Tum ya bol rahi ho.... us ladki ki zindagi barbad ho jayegi aise to.... mai aisa nahi kar sakta....
An- Ye usi ki galti hai.... vo khud hi dukho ko nyota de rahi hai... hum kya kar sakte hai.....
Aj- Nahi mai kisi ki zindagi barbad nahi karunga..... and that's final....(he goes away)
An- Akshat suno to...... ye kyu nahi manta meri baat... lekin mai bhi dhit hu.... use meri baat manani hi hogi...
From next day she stops eating food.... Akshat, Rajesh and Nisha ask her again and again to have food, but she keeps denying. And one day, she faints due to weakness. Doctor checks her and asks her to have food.
Aj- Suna na tumne, ab ye bachpana chod do.... aur kuch kha lo.....
An- Maine kaha na, jab tak tum ha nahi kahoge, mai kuch nahi khane vali.....
Aj- Tum aur zyada bimar ho jaogi... dekho ye sab sahi nahi hai..... kya tum sach me mujhe humesha ke liye aapne aap se dur karna chahti ho?
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An- Mai aisa kab kaha... hum humesha sath hi rahengi... tum aisa kyu nhai sochte ki humari lifestyle upgrade ho jayegi... hum ek behtar zindagi ji payenge.... mere liye na sahi lekin baccho ke liye to socho....
Aj- Thik hai...lekin tum ek baat yaad rakhna... us ladki se shadi karne ke liye, hume divorce lena hoga... aur uske baad hum dono ke bich koi rishta nahi hoga.... hum dono puri tarah alag ho jayenge... aur humara ek dusre par koi haq nahi hoga.... jo paise tumhe milenge, usse mera koi lena dena nahi hoga....tumhe ye sab sach me manjoor hai?
An- Ha akshat mai sab janti hu... aur ye sab soch rakha hai maine... sab thik ho jayega.. bas tum ha kardo... baki mai dekhlungi...
Aj- Thik hai..... mai shadi ke liye tyaar hu..
Antara gets happy and haves her food. Next day, she goes to guddan's house. Here guddan is very upset , her father and revti are trying to convince her. Karan and Kaushalya are watching them.
Kau- Dekha bhai, kaise nakhre kar rahi hai..... mai to tang aa gayi hu isse....
Ka- Are behna tu kyu chinta karti hai... maine sab set kar rakha hai....
Kau- Kya khak set kiya hai... us antara ko paise offer karke, humara kya fayda....
Ka- Are vo aurat paiso ke liye andhi hai... isliye, paise dekh kar pighal hi gayi...
Kau- Usne paper to padha hi hoga na par.... aur usme tumne paise nahi lautane aisa likh rakha hai...
Ka- Behna tu samjhi nahi... mai karan hu... paiso ko invest karta hu, barbad nahi.... uske pass paise na lautane ka contract hai... lekin humare pass alag contract hai...
Kau- Kya matlab?
Ka- Maine 2 contract banvaye the... jo use dikhaya usme use paise lautane nahi hai, lekin jo contract mere pass hai, usme ye saaf likha hai ki 1 saal ke andar use paise lautane honge , aur ek saal ke baad har month 1 lakh jyada dena hoga.... aur agar nahi de payi to uska sab kuch chen lunga mai..
Kau- Kya baat hai bhai, kamal kar diya....
Just then door bell rings. Revti opens the door and finds antara standing.. She welcomes her.
An -Mai tumhari behen se baat karne aayi hu.. use bulao...
Revti comes in...
B- Kya hua koun aaya hai...
R- Papa vo akshat ji ki patni, antara jindal aayi hai..
B- Kya? vo yaha kyu aayi hai?
R- Unhe di se baat karni hai....
B- Mai baat karta hu unse...( he is about to go, guddan holds his hand)
G- mai baat karti hu papa, vo mujhse milne aayi hai na...
B- To hum bhi sath chalenge...
Ka- Aap log jayiye.. mai yahi rukta hu.. vaise bhi mera is mamle me bolne sahi nahi hoga..
B- Thike , hum log chalte hai...
As kaushalya is about to go.. karan stops her. After the 3 leave room....
Ka- Dekho, mujhe lagta hai vo yaha shadi ki baat karne aayi hogi... par tumhe is shadi ke liye na kehna hai...
Kau- Par kyu? hum to chahte hai na ki vo bala is ghar se nikal jaye..
Ka- Ha, par uske jana ke baad kya tum is pure ghar par kabza nahi chati?Nahi chati kya ki sab tumhari mutthi me rahe?
Kau- Bilkul chahti hu.. par shadi ko na kehne se kya hoga?
Ka- Agar tum shadi ke liye na kahgi, to sabki nazro me acchi ma banogi.. agar aage jake kuch gadbad hui, aur guddan is ghar me vapas aayi, to tum keh paogi ki tumhari baat nahi mani isliye ye sab hua.... kuch samajh aa raha hai tumhe???
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Kau- Hmmm samjhi sab.. ab dekho kya hota hai.....
Here in living room...
G- Kahiye.. aapko mujhse kya baat karni hai....
An- Tum mere pati se pyaar karti ho na, aur usse shadi karna chahti thi, kyu?
G- Ha par jab mujhe pata chala ki unki already shadi ho chuki hai to...
An Tum shadi kar sakti ho, mujhe koi problem nahi hai...
G- Kya????? Aap kya bol rahi hai?
An- Mai bilkul sach keh rahi hu, tum mere pati se shadi kar sakti ho, aur uske liye mai unhe divorce bhi de dungi..(guddan gets happy hearing this) par meri kuch sharte hai.... agar vo manjoor ho to hi tum shadi karogi....
G- Kya sharte hai aapki?
An- Pehli shart, shadi ke baad tum , Akshat, humare bacche aur mai, hum ek hi ghar me rahengi....
G- Manjoor..
An- Dusri shart, Tumhe akele hi ghar ke sare kaam karne honge... tum job kar sakti ho lekin, job ke naam par ghar ka kaam nahi chodogi... Ghar ka sara kaam hone ke baad hi tum apni marzi ka kaam kar sakti ho...
G-(take a deep breathe) Manjoor...
An- Aur aakhri shart, tumhe har vo kaam karna hoga jo mai tumse karne ko kahungi, bhale hi vo naukrani ka kaam hi kyu na ho...
B-(angrily gets up) Bas ho gaya , aap meri beti ke sath aisa nahi kar sakti....
An- Mujhpe chillane ki jarurat nahi hai, aapki beti ke liye mai aapne pati ko chod rahi hu, to uske badle me mai thodasa favor mang lu to kaunsi galti kar di maine..
G- Papa, aap shant ho jayiye... mujhe aapki sari sharte manjoor hai....
B- Kya bol rahi hai beta....
G- Papa aap hi kehte hai na, apni life ko khushi se jina chahiye... to mai kahio bhi jau kaise bhi rahu, agar vo mere sath hai, to mai khush hu.... papa kya aap apni guddu ko support nahi karenge?
B- ( thinks for a while) teri khushi se badhkar, mere liye aur kuch jaruri nahi... mai tere sath hu....
R- Mai bhi aapke sath hu di..
Kau-( happy inside) Are aap kya bol rahe hai.. aap humari beti ko aise ghar bhejna chahte hai, jaha kate hi kate hai.... mujhe ye shadi manjoor nahi hai... aisa karke hum guddan ko khai me dhakel rahe hai... mai ma hu, aisa nahi hone fde sakti....
B- Kaushalya, baccho ki khushi jaruri hoti hai.... ha keh do..
Kau- Thike, mai ha kehti hu lekin... agar is shadi ne guddan ki zindagi barbad ki, to is ghar ke darwaze nahi khulenge guddan ke liye... aur ye baat acche se yaad rakho.... ( goes inside )
B- Antara ji, humari ha hai is shadi ke liye..
An- (are ye to man gaye, mujhe laga in sharto ko sunne ke baad, vo na kahenge. Chodo, paise ayenge is shadi ke baad, aur kya chahiye phir) Thike hai, divorce hone ke baad hum bata denge...
Akshat and Antara get divorced and Akshat gets children's custody. Akshat and Guddan get married. As per contract, antara gets money, and they move into a big mansion. Antara asks guddan to do all house work. Guddan happily doe everything. Soon in few days, antara gets bored torturing guddan, and lets her do the work. Antara starts going to parties and clubs. She starts completely ignoring everyone in the house. Children and Akshat are upset by antara's this behaviour. Akshat starts spending more time at his work, while Guddan starts working from home.
One day, Guddan is working and children return from school upset. Guddan sees them.
G- Are kya hua tum dono ko, school me kisi ne kuch kaha kya....
Rajesh and Nisha feel akward to talk to her....
G- Are , baat nahi karni mujhse? maine koi galti ki kya???
R- Nahi vo baat nahi hai....
G- To kya baat hai?
N- Vo hum mummy ko miss kar rahe the, bohot dino se khele nahi na hum unke sath...
G- Are... itti si baat hai.. mummy nahi hai to kya hua, mai hu na, hum game khelte hai....
R- Par aapko to kaam hoga na...
G- Kaam to hota rehta hai, par aap dono cuties ke sath khelne ka mauka mai kaise chod sakti hu?? hmmm ( they smile) ab aap dono jaldi se kapde change kar lo, mai khane ke liye kuch bana deti hu, phir hum khelenge,, Ok?
R,N-(Happily) Ok, hum abhi aate hai....
They change, have some snacks and play with guddan. When Akshat comes back home , he sees rajesh and nisha smiling happily, and feels happy for them....
G- Aap dono to games me bohot acche ho..
N- Hum mummy papa dono ke sath khela karte the, khas kar papa ke sath. Mummy ko accha nahi lagta tha(gets sad)
G- Koi baat nahi, ab aapke sath khelne ke liye, mai aapki friend hu na...
R- To aaj se hum aapko bhi mummy bulye?
N- Bhaiya, mummy nahi ma jyada accha lagta hai... Hum aapko ma bulaye?
G-(gets emotional) Ma? mujhe bohot accha lagega , tum jo chahe bula lo...
R- To thike, aaj se hum aapko ma bulayenge....
Guddan happily opens her arms and kids give her a hug. After that their bond strenghtens. Guddan plays with them and takes their study as well. Akshat is happy seeing kids happy, but still not willing to talk to Guddan.
One night, Akshat is waiting for antara to have dinner, but she comes late and says that she had dinner already... Akshat gets sad and leaves without eating . Guddan watches this and goes to him with food.
G- Kuch kha lijiye, bhuke pet sone thik nahi...
Aj- Jao yaha se, muje tumse koi baat nahi karni....
G- Aisa kyu keh rahe hai maine kya kiya hai?
Aj- Kisi ko chot dene ke baad marham lagane jane me tumhe sharam nahi aati. Tumne mera hasta khelta ghar barbad kar diya aur puch rahi ho kya kiya?
G- Maine aisa kuch nahi kiya, maine sirf pyaar kiya.
Aj- Mai nahi janta , ki tumne kya kiya hai, aur kaise antara ko is shadi ke liye manaya hai....... jarur ye paise bhi tumne hi diye honge antara ko....
G- Nahi, maine nahi diye... mere pass kaha honge itne paise..maine aapse pyaar kiya, aur shadi karna chahti thi..... lekin mai pyaar pane ke liye, is haad tak to nahi gir sakti ki paise dekar pyaar kharid lu.... aapki khushi ke liye, aapko bhulne ki koshish kar rahi thi, par antara didi aayi thi mere pass.....aur aapne aap ko sacrifice karke agar mujhe pyaar mil raha hai, to mai khushi khushi jaan bhi de du..(akshat covers her mouth)
Aj- Kya bol rahi ho tum....
G-(removes his hand) ye sirf aapke liye aur baccho ke liye pyaar hai mera, aur kuch nahi chahiye mujhe...mai to apke dil me mere liye jagah bhi nahi nahi mangungi... vo to didi ke liye hai na.... mujhe aapke pairo ke pass bhi rakh dijiye, kafi hai mere liye( sits down near his feet)
Aj-(picking her up) Tumhe ye sab karne ki jarurat nahi hai... maine dekha tum sara kaam acche se karti ho, bacche bhi khush hai tumhare sath... mujhe aur kya chahiye phir...
G- Meri sirf ek baat man lijiye, khana kha lijiye....
Aj- Thike.... ( after eating few bites) tumne khaya?
G- Aap bhuke honge to mere gale se khane utrega kya?
Aj-( offering her) To ab kha lo (feeds her)
G-( she feeds him) aap bhi mere hath se kha lijiye ek baar( he eats)
As they have dinner, akshat's anger cools down. After dinner,
Aj- Ek baat puchu?
G- Puchiye?
Aj- Kya tum janti ho ye sara paisa kha se aaya hai?
G- Matlab?
Aj- I mean kya tumhe pata hai, ye sare paise antara ko kisne offer kiye hai?
G- Nahi mai nahi janti, itna janti hu ki mere ghar me se kisi ne nahi kiya. Humare pass itne paise kaha se ayenge..
Aj- Ha... mai bhi vahi soch raha tha, tumhe dekh ke lagta nahi ki ye harkat tumhari hogi... to hoga is sab ke piche?
Days pass Akshat and Guddan bond grows gradually. Guddan does everything which makes Akshat and kids happy. Antara is busy with her rich friends and wealthy lifestyle..Once, Antara goes to picnic with her friends for a week. On weekend, all are home . Akshat is playing with kids while guddan is preparing snacks for them. Suddenly, she slips her leg and falls causing cuts on her right hand. Akshat and kids go and help her treating her wound...
N- Aap thike ho na ma?
G- Ha beta, mai bilkul thik hu, bhuk lagi hogi na , mai abhi lati hu khane ke liye kuch.
Aj- Kya lati hu? Chot lagi hai na tumhe, baitho tum yahi pe....
R- Ha ma, chot lagne par kaam nahi karte....
G- Par aap sabko bhuk lagi hogi, jyada vakt nahi lagega mai abhi lati hu kuch...
Aj- kuch nahi tum baitho yaha pe, mai bana ke lata hu...
G- Aap banayenge? Aapko aata hai?
N-Ma, aapko nahi pata, papa ekdam badhiya khana banate hai...
R- Ha ma, papa aaj aapke hath ka special khana ma ko bhi khilate hai...
Aj- Ok, to mai abhi kuch badhiya banake lata hu..
Akshat makes food for everyone. guddan gets impressed with his skills. After having food, kids go to play with their friends.
G- Mujhe nahi pata tha ki aap itna accha khana banate hai...
Aj- Bas, accha lagta hai ...
G- Par aapke khane ki taste to kamal ki hai, aap restuarant kyu nahi khote... bohot chalega...
Aj- Lagta to mujhe bhi hai, par antara ko accha nahi lagta, mera business ki baate karna...
G- Par ab yaha antara didi to nahi hai, to aap try kyu nahi karte.... mai hu aapke sath..
Aj- sach?
G- Agar aap full time isiko dena chahte hai, to bilkul kijiye, meri job hai na, mai ghar sambhal lungi....
Aj- Thank you, mai planning shuru karta hu...
They start planning for starting a business, and keep it as secret from antara..When Antara comes back , she keeps enjoying her lavish life, not paying any attention to others. On Akshat's birthday, she forgets it and goes to kitty party instead.. Suddenly she remembers as someone talks regarding it... Antara hurridly comes home to find noone here... She waits for them in living room but soon falls asleep on sofa.. When she wakes , it's already morning.... She goes to check and finds guddan working in kitchen..
G- Are didi, aap uth gayi, breakfast laga du?
An- Nahi..vo... mai puch rahi thi ki, akshat kaha hai..
G- Vo to subah hi office chale gaye...
An- Kal kaha gaye the tum log?
G- Kal unka birthday tha na, to vo chate the ki hum sab sath me celebrate kare... aapko der ho rahi thi, aur baccho ko bhi bhuk lag rahi thi, to hum khana khane bahar chale gaye...
An- Accha... kal mai jara busy thi na.... to akshat ko wish nahi kar payi... use gussa to .. nahi aaya na...
G- Nahi to.. ha thoda unhe bura laga.. aap mili nahi to... par baad me thik ho gaye...
An-(happily) Vahi to, mujhe pata tha, Akshat mujh pe gussa nahi karega... accha tumhe office nahi jana?
G- Jana hai na, thoda kaam hai, kithchen ka kaam pura kar lu, fir chali jaungi, aapko kuch chahiye tha kya?
An- Kuch nahi, karo tum kaam.... aur.. breakfast table par rakh dena mai kha lungi...
G- Thike didi....
Guddan completes her work and goes to office. Antara plans to make dinner for everyone. As she goes for shooping she forgets everything and starts spending time with her friends. When she remembers it's already late. She reaches home to find, everyone having dinner together....
G- Didi, aayiye, aapki plate laga deti hu...
An- Koi jarurat nahi nahi hai..... (she starts going angrily when she hears akshat talking to guddan)
Aj- Guddan... kal meri important meeting hai, agar vo successfull hui na, to mera promotion bhi ho sakta hai....
G- Wow, that's great...
An-( kal mai jaldi uth ke sabke liye breakfast banaugi na sab mujhse khush ho jayenge, khas kar akshat. Maine thoda dhyan kya nahi diya, mujhe ignore karne lage. Kal ka breakfast kha kar phirse mujhse pyaar karne lagenge.)
Antara wakes up in morning to prepare breakfast, but when she brings it, she finds everyone already having breakfast, she angrily goes inside...)
An- Ye guddan.... are ha, aaj Akshat ki meeting hai na, dahi chini deti hu, vaise bhi us guddan ko kaha ye sab pata hoga..
As she goes out, she finds guddan feeding akshat dahi chini... Akshat goes from there...Antara starts fuming in anger, but is unable to say anything and goes to her room. Similar things keep happening for few more days..... One such night, Akshat and Guddan are talking regarding restuarant but stop when they see antara coming....
An- Guddan...tum kafi khush lag rahi ho...
G- Ha didi aajkal mai roj hi khush rehti hu...
An- Accha... mujhe umeed hai tum bhuli nahi hogi...tumhe vahi karna hai jo mai kahungi....
G- Ha didi mujhe yaad hai....
An- Good, to aaj se Akshat aur bacche, mere sath soyenge....
G- Thike...
N- Par mujhe ma ke paas hi sona hai....
R- Mujhe bhi...
An- Tumhari ma mai hu samjhe...
N- Nai.. tum mummy, ye ma hai....
Antara gets even more angry...
An- Chup karo dono, aur chup chap mere sath chalo...
She pulls them and starts taking them away..
An- Tumhe alag se batana padega kya akshat?
Aj- Nahi aa raha hu.....
Those three go with antara, and sleep in the room. But after some time again go to guddan. They sleep peacefully with each other. Antara gets very angry at this.
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