My bullying started when I was 12. I had just moved up to high school, and was super excited since I had one of my 'Best Friends' in that class with me, along with another one. I'll call her bully1. Bully1 and I would stay together as we only knew J, but bully1 would 'pretend' to be her friend and talk about her behind her back, spread lies, and talk about her to me. Me, being the shy person I was, just nodded and went with the flow, even though I knew deep down it was bad and wrong, I didn't know what else to do.

Me and bully1 stayed friends, with J trailing along. I felt good. I hung out with bully1 after school, we'd laugh and have an amazing time, and honestly, I miss those memories. That's when it took a spin. I started hearing names and such bully1 said about me, but she would shake her head and tell me it was J. So, I started to try and cut myself off from her. I saw two girls in that class that seemed good friends. Bully2 and friend1.

But, fate was a bitch, and bully2 met me half way and hung out with us. I didn't know what she was really, like and me, J, bully 1 and 2 were a group.

Then it went to me. I would get called names behind my back, but they weren't the smartest, and I knew every single thing they said about me. Bully1 started dating bully3, one of the most popular boys in my year. Then the rumour, that I was 'flirting' with him came around.

In a group chat, bully1 told bully2, to watch out if, (penguin emoji-they said I walked like a penguin), was flirting with bully3, since bully1 would be off.

The thing is, it was a public chat. Me, bully1, 2, J, and other people were in it.

Fast forward, and large arguments started. Bully3, 4, and 5 made fun of my name, and would scream it out at the top of their lungs (I am not exegerating). People would laugh, and I got extremely embarresed. This went on for ages, and we had many talks with our guidance teacher when I complained about bully1 and 2. Me and bully1 would talk it out, and she would blame it on J.

I'm now in a new class, with friends, the boys (bully 3, 4 and 5) have stopped, but 1 and 2 haven't. They still make fun of my name, and still shove me about. Though, one of my real friends went through a worse time than me, and got out of it better, sticks up for me and called bully2 a bitch.

I recently started cutting, and everytime I look in a mirror I want to gag.

Ignoring them doesn't work, is there anyway I could make them stop?