All though I think that my story is not as bad as other stories I feel, that it is worth sharing.

Okay, so let us begin.

When I was younger I had foot surgery and couldn't walk. I used to get harassed by perverts who tried to stuff themselves on me, since I was unable to walk. I grew very protective of myself and as soon as I learned how to walk again I learned martial arts. I got bullied, because I didn't like people touching me and because I slapped them if they tried something funny.

People started calling me flat, fat ugly and that stuff, my mom started abusing me and calling me all those things too.

I later fell in love with someone over the Internet, with someone amazing, he kept and still keeps me strong.

But before we fell in love he used to make fun (just playing) of me when we were friends, that I'm a fatty, since I loved him I started dieting and developed anorexia.

When he found out he apologized so much, I got sad and said I don't starve myself anymore.

Later my mom started calling me fat and lazy, all though I race on horses, do swordmanship and two kinds of martial arts, plus I run.

I started cutting because the bullying was getting worse, I was getting stalked to school, stared at, because I was an outsider, since I am from a different country, getting things throwed at me, I was bullied by my teachers and when I trusted someone they told everyone.

It sounds ridiculous, but it wasn't fun.

I did try to kill myself, to be honest, there may not be 'large' reason to some people that I told this to, but for me it was enough.

I still think about death sometimes and cutting, but my boyfriend did save me from the worst.

I am suffering from depression and horrible mood swings, sometimes panic attacks, but it's all much better now, since I'm dating the best person alive, who is helping me for almost a year now.

NOTE: It won't stop right, you can't be cured at any given moment and all though I am not one to give advice, there is always someone who will love you, no matter what you have done, even if ithey aren't right next to you! So keep on searching boos.

-The girl who believes in you