Hiya, I'm Ellie and this is my story. It all started when I was 7 it started off as petty things like name calling or dirty looks. People would call me fat or stupid and being 7/8 I was really upset about it. When I was 9 I got into my first fight, with a bully(1) who had been bullying me since I was 7. Everyone around me cheered her on and I ended my with a couple of bruises and a skint knee.

When I was 10 everything when down hill. I was sexually abused for 6 months. Since I was so young when it started I didn't really understand what was happening so I didn't know it was wrong but at the 4 month stage a started to realise that what abuser was doing was wrong. Everything came out in sexual education when I broke down into tears and all my classmates wondered what was wrong. I told my teacher(1) what happened and she was shocked. The school phoned my mum who was worried sick and I cried so much. The police came round to my house the same night I wanted delatials. I was hard to give them but I did after a lot of tears on my mum and mys behalf.

The next day I had to go to the police station and I was sat in a room with two police officers on my own. I was 10 for hevans sake. I was so scared but I got through this one with out crying but I had to be booked for a medical test. It was so distressing. On top of that I was still being bullied at school, name calling and things like that.

After about two weeks I started cutting. I was one of those people who awash said I won't ever cut them I found my self but I cut in my arm then littered on my stomach. You can still see them and it's been two years. I also stated developing suicidal feelings.

Since then I've been and seen a councillor and now I'm back to seeing one after a flashback bright it all back. I I have also discoved my sexuality which is pansexual and I literally fell out the closet. I also questioned my gender and I'm still not sure if I'm female or male.

But to sum it all up I am getting better I'm starting just to ignore the bullies and focus on my friends and writing.

Please remember it gets better!!