Hello! I'm only doing this because a best friend of mine did this (We haven't know each other that long) But she "broke" and started crying. Her crying is like seeing a rainbow monkey..... Wow.... Rainbow... Monkeys... So I thought 'Hey you lazy jerk! Let's try to write this down so she can try again' So here you go.

It all started when I was around 5. I have a family with 5 other siblings and once had 2 mothers (will be explained later) I started watching anime then, I still love it. I started out with one of the best anime's of all time (For a little kid) Dragon Ball Z. Me and one of brothers would watch it everyday. We loved it! Until things started to change around the house. Soon my dad was pushing me or slamming me into a wall. The house always had the smell of beer or wine. My older brothers and sisters got hit with newspaper and were chased around the house. I was smart so me and my brother stayed in are room all day. When we ran out of anime, we would try to use the things around us as cosplay. I always played as the villan, my brother was always the hero. (Me and my bro were born in da same year)

When I started school with my bro... That's when things went down hill. We always wore hand me downs and kids would make fun of us and call us "poor" "ugly" but the one that still haunts me today is "dirty" We survived and kept are ground. We got amazing grades and we always looked to the bright side of things. That all changed in 2nd grade. Random women would come and go at our house. Me and my bro locked ourselfs in are room and just worked on school work. At school... Things were not in our favor. We always sat alone and would read. At lunch we would sit at a table... Alone.... Kids called us more names like "Shady" "Murders" But I alone got the worst bulling. One day, my bro was sick so I was alone for the first time. I did the normal but when we we're let outside.... I did the normal, sat down in the grass on the other part of the playground.

The bullies walked up to me, and then I cracked. (This is from a blurry memory)

"Hey look! The nerd is alone!"

"We're is your boyfriend? Did he die? Or did you kill him and eat him up?"

After that they punched me and kicked me. Half way into the beating they stopped and I fell down. I felt dizzy and I was able to make out some words.

"Your weak"

Then I cracked, I stopped. I changed. I stood up and had a huge smile on my face.

"Weak? Hit me now and let's see who is weak"

As they hit me I stood up. I was always standing on my two feet from their. When they were out of breath, I was a mess. 2 black eyes, I was bleeding from the right arm and leg. I had black,purple,and red spots all over my body. I hid them in class and I ran home.

In 5th grade, me and my brother where the same again. We were what the kids call "crazy" "insane" "Losers" "pile of shit" "Whores" I brushed it off and just gave them the middle finger and walked away. My brother couldn't take it any longer to he tried to hang himself.

I walked into our room after a day in hell. I looked to see my brother hanging from the celing. I grabbed a knife and cut the rope and took the knife and dropped it. He fell into my arms, his eyes showed the gates of death. His body was weak, we skipped school that whole week. As he gained his health back, I found a girl online obsessing about anime. We messaged each other then I found out something that changed are friendship forever.

"Well I love yaoi (boy x boy) and I'm just leading about it. It's helped me a lot in this pit of anger and depressing thoughts"

After those words.... We became the best of friends. Over the summer, we became super close. I still haven't told her about my bro, but she will be scared if she knows if their is another me. Now living with my aunt. Me and my brother have found happiness. School is boring and the bulling still goes on but it's only with words. I think that's all... But let me say this. I don't want any crap like "I know how it feels" NO! You do not! I'm only smiling now because of one person. But il never tell who.

~YaoiFangirl