I was in Elementary when it started. I wasn't the skinniest of girls. I've been called fat, pig, ugly, emo, black girl, and a lesbian for most Elementary up to 7th grade. I'm still not the thinnest girl. Due to bulling I have started bulimia and self harming. I still do it cause they have became an addiction. This bully got pissed off real easy and I accidentally bumped into her and she end up pushing me and called me a fat a$$ for bumping into her and of course it was in the hallway so I was humiliated. I've attempted and failed suicide three times. My own mother encourages me to stop eating and it makes me feel worthless. Aren't mothers suppose to make their daughters feel happy? These days im just so insecure to leave my room. Scars are on my upper arm so I wear a cardigan or sweater to keep them covered. I dont want to be judged for that next. I feel stupid for the mistakes i made but i cant stop because of the insecurity and past.