Cyberbullied.

I was cyber bullied for trying to fix something.

It only happened to me a couple months ago.Yes.its me,the girl from story 398,Chels

One day I walked to school and noticed one of my friends weren't hanging out in our usual group,she was hanging out with a group we despise.

I pulled her arm to get her back but she pulled away.The friend 1 was new in our group,I asked her why she wasn't hanging out with them

"Friend 2 lied to me.." She said

I walked all the way to my group of friends and asked all of them why she was upset (just in case she was lying) they told me because one of them lied to her.

I got a bit annoyed and mad.She was the person in our group who would always create drama over the most stupid of things.But I got more annoyed because she wouldn't get over a lie.A LIE.

If you know me well I'm someone who likes to fix things,not broken items,broken friendships.

I had friend 1's kik and I wanted to talk to her.She was bullied in her old schools but in this school she hadn't been bullied.But she got upset at the smallest of things.Which is why I think she couldn't get over the lie,I listened to her stories of how she was bullied (they weren't.that.serious.) and I always heard about how one person would defend her.She never stood up for herself and her bullies were always the one who had to apologise.

Back to talking to her on kik.

I told her about how our group misses her,needs her back for something but she denied because she wanted friend 2 to apologise.I told her how a lie is such a small dent in a friendship

(If it involves love then obviously not)

I told her how I used to be lied to all the time

(I had a friend who used to ditch me all the time for someone else)

And how I got sick of lies and finally let tears out.I got over a ton of lies that felt huge but weren't every time I look back at the past.I told her that things like this shouldn't affect her that big.

She told me how she was feeling upset because of the lie.She had been friends with friend 2 for months and she told me she is no longer feels trusted.She told me how she doesn't belong in the school and everyone doesn't like her.

I got confused.We made friends with her..our school is friends with each other even in different year groups

I took a screen shot and sent it to a group chat of my friends (friend 1 left the group chat when it all started) I told them about how upset she was.

A couple days past and we were avoiding each other.I had absolutely no idea what or why she was until I got home.I had got a message from her

'Why did you show everyone this fight?! I can't trust you!' Is what she said

It shocked me.It really did.But it also pissed me off.I had told her things that were actually making me cry,I had been trying to make her smile and she considers it a fight?!

At this point I was mad.

I made long messages saying how this isn't really something to be sad about or fight about,I told her a lot of things that were on my mind.After two messages I realised how it wasn't me.This is not how I should've reacted.

One day I decided to talk to her again on Kik.She sent messages to me saying

'Why are you forcing me to forgive her?!' Is what her messages would usually be to me

But I wasn't trying to do that.Im making her see how this is something to ridiculous to make a huge fight out of.

So I sent her a bunch of messages saying how I'm not doing that..Until I was all so suddenly added in another group..

Friend 1 and someone I don't know..but then I figured out it was one of her compound friend (I'll call her CF) CF was asking me why I was being rude when I told her hat I simply wasn't,I was trying to get friend 1 to see how this is nothing to fight about.Friend 1 and CF were telling me to stop acting innocent.I wasn't.CF started to be really rude to me

Then.She finally started to swear at me.About I better 'fucking' be nice and not act all 'bitchy'.One comment still hurt me to this day

'Filipino Bitch' (I'm Filipino)

I was gutted.I felt my body be a hundred times heavier.Then CF started a count down and I was confused to hell.She wanted me to change my attitude.I was never given a chance and this is how she treats me?

I was taught in school,if anyone ever cyber bullies you,tell an adult.

You had no idea how hard it would actually be.It was my first time being attacked.

When it all happened I was in he living room as my mom was across folding clothes.I built the courage and told her.She told me to delete the app and never use it again.She wasn't acting protective,she was mad.I was in tears.I felt.I can't even describe how I felt.It was a horrible feeling.But I didn't delete the app.

The rest of the day I stayed inside my room crying.I felt scared.I felt afraid of what was going to happen.I wanted to show my friends what she has done.So I took a screen shot of some hers and one swearing one.I sent them and all my friends panicked.Two of them told their parents and asked me if I told mine and I said yes.

Later that night I was called downstairs.My sister had come back from a party and showed me her phone.It revealed my group chat,the one where I showed the conversation between friend 1,CF and I.I had no idea how she had access to my group chat (to this day I still don't..)

My mom was angry as my sister was defending me saying it's not my fault and how I had no idea how CF got my kik and started saying things to me.We talked for an hour and my sister decided to email my teacher about it.It was 8;00 at night.We were all in the living room typing up the email (because my sister is terrible at English) my mom wanted her to send it later in the morning than late at night.My sister accidentally sent it as she said that.

The next day.My heart was beating.It was PE first thing but we had to do the register first.We sat in our seats (don't worry I'm not sitting next to the guy) and I was smiling,laughing and making jokes,hiding how I was terrified and hurt on the inside.Im someone who's good at hiding emotions.

After the register.We were told to line up.We were waiting on the Assistant teacher and as I stood in line I was told to wait behind a bit by my teacher.Yes I was terrified to shit.She told me to sit down as she closed the door and sat across from me.She told me she got an email from my sister and said it was really serious.I nodded and she told me to tell her everything that happened.From the start.Why it all began.

When I was telling her the cyber bully part I was holding back tears.It was painful telling the whole thing again.Then she wanted to see the conversation.I was completely okay with that.Then she asked me if it was okay if she saw the entire conversations and I was okay with it.When she got quarter way of the conversation,she had already seen enough.

By the time I finished,half an hour of PE had gone by and I missed a lot.She made me feel better by saying I was a good person who tried to fix something and how I was doing the right thing.

I went to PE and my teacher had to explain to the PE teacher about why I had to miss out and he understood.The whole class was put in four different football teams,I had to swap with Friend 1 as the teacher wanted to talk to her.

No one has bothered to ask if I was okay,but I was okay with that.I don't like it when someone feels sorry for me.Only because it hurts me more.I didn't want the whole class to know.And I hope they aren't hiding it from me.

To this day Im a girl who is afraid to make an account about herself.

I make fandom accounts.Hoping no one will ask for my identity.

As they will tease me for how young I am to have social media.

What scares me more is seeing someone swear to me on posts.Its either I make a good come back,but everyone is against me,or I ignore it.

Yes I do ignore it.But it burns my brain.

I'm a happy girl.

But on the inside I'm broken and hurt.

I've never shown my emotions about how much I'm struggling.

The only way I show is by covering it up.

By smiling.

Smile,because it confuses people.Because it's easier than explaining what is killing you inside-The Joker

Why did they swear at me? Please.

Do.Not.Be.Rude.on the Internet.

As it will or might have impact on their lives.

If you ever comment on something.

Make sure it will make someone's day.

Don't.make them feel like trash.

-Chels,from story 398