Hi. I was kind of bullied by my older sister. It started when i was little. She would get mad at me for leaving my toys on the floor. But what was i suppose to do i was little and we shared a room. As we got older it got worser. We would argue more and more. One day it got bad not really bad but bad. We were argueing and it lead to her saying stuff like "i want to hurt you". She put her hands around my neck but it wasn't to the point where i couldn't breath. Then there was another fight. We had physically fought in the yard. After that i use to be down. At one point i wanted to cut and kill myself. I would cry and cry but it would be low for no one could here. As i got older we would fight but it was a word fight. We wouldn't talk to each other for a couple of days. She called me a brat and annoying. Even though i never actually cut myself i watched a person who was dearly to me try to but i stopped her. I learned that cutting or suicide is not going to help. Yes some people say it relieves the pain but all you are doing is putting bruises on your body showing that you weren't strong enough. It means that your in pain and need help. I might be young but i know that im here for anybody. Suicide might relieve you from pain but imagine all the people who did love you. You have to watch them suffer. The ones who didn't hurt you. The ones who couldn't be with you 24/7. The ones who love you for who you are. You might have guilt cause even though you say your setting your soul free you are not. Think before you act. Im crazy. I've tried to cut my self infront of my friend. She stopped me. She said i had a reason to live. Now i go in my room and listen to sad music as i cry about everything that happened in my past life. I cry and cry. Nobody knows cause i try not to let nobody in. Now i open up to my best friend. I know that she is going through problems like me. Im happy i can open up more.