I was in 5th grade when i started to get bullied. My friends all turned on me in the middle of the year because of a new girl. I had come back to school after 4 weeks of being in the hospital because my throat had been slit and they started teasing me because of the cut and the bandages i had to wear. The bullying got worse in middle school. I lost my last friend and people were pushing me into lockers, tripping me, stabbing me with pencils, name calling, etc. I began cutting myself, burning, starving, and other forms of self harm. At the end of the year i got a boyfriend who I love dearly. In 7th grade i had to change for gym class and people saw the scars and cuts covering my body. Someone decided to take pictures and make an account on Instagram and say awful things about me. Eventually my principal found out. She told my parents and i went to therapy for about a month until they stopped taking me because they said i wasnt worth the money. In 8th grade my boyfriend and i (the same one from the end of 6th grade) were still going strong. One day after school he walked me home and my parents weren't home so he came inside and we were making out. He started taking our clothes off and i tried to say no. He begged until i said ok and then asked if we could have sex. I said no. This happened one day a week for 3 weeks until the 3rd time i didn't answer him and he ... Throughout the rest of the year he forced me to do sexual favors for him and would try to finger me and when I would squeeze my thighs together and try to push him away he would lay on me and force my legs apart and do it. The bullying was still going on as well. Kids would txt me and give me death threats and beat me in the halls. Nobody would do anything. One day I decided enough was enough and I tried to kill myself. I failed. I failed 17 times since then. I am now about to be a freshman in high school and am still getting bullied and my boyfriend still does things to me. Honestly I don't know what's going to happen. I have 59 assorted pills ready for me to take. Hopefully i will succeed in killing myself this time. I wish you all the best of luck in life and i hope you have the courage to stand up for yourself like i never did.