Hi guys, I'm Alison and I wanted to share my bullying story with everyone. So everything use to be fine, I don't really know when it started. Well after Kinder, I was put into gifted and I was only with a few people. that was in first grade, nothing bad ever happened there. In the second grade, I had the worst teacher I have ever gotten. There was this boy, and I think he bullied me because he liked me, I think that was it. He always said he was smarter than I was and said the most stupidest things and he always called me names and my friends just sat there and let it all happen! I didn't really care about this but it still made me feel bad and some people in my class also called me these names. It hurt because I thought it was true and I felt alone because no one cared, I mean I tell my teacher and she always ignored me. What the hell? Your job is about teaching but also supporting children. HELLO?! I always had one hour of gifted and the rest was with that other teacher. The bullying still continued. I've always been a shy girl but with my friends I was crazy but I think that there is where I became more of an anti-social person and that really hurt me. What did I know, I was just a little immature kid. Then I completely moved to gifted and I never heard of that kid again. Then came the third grade... I couldn't see the board well and I had to get glasses. When I went to school, someone shouted out, " welcome to the nerd world!". Why would you yell that?! I mean the guy had glasses too, what was his problem? I felt bad after that because my "friends" judge people a lot and now I looked completely different, like I can't survive this world without glasses. I've caught many classmates talk behind my back, please I'm not that stupid. I mean they all get into groups, started laughing and smiling while looking at me, and they whisper to each other. They look t me right in the eye, I know it's about me. That really made me feel bad and the worst thing is that my friends were also in that group. There was this girl, I will call her friend1. So she was like.... a gossip queen. Yes, she was nice and all but she never stood up for me and sometimes I caught her talking behind my back as well and I was still friends with her, I just learned to forgive but she was never good to me and I was too stupid at that time to realize it. The end of the year was getting closer and new people got into gifted but most of them decided to go in next year in the fourth grade. So there was these two girls, lets call them friend1 and friend2. So I've heard nasty stuff about friend2 and I didn't wanted to be with a bad influence and so I decided to avoid her and since in gifted, you always stay with the same people, I guess I just wanted to have a good friend and I met friend2. We got separated because of summer but she was with me in the fourth grade, including friend3. So well formed into a group, friend1, friend2, friend3, and me. Friend2 and 3 always fought with each other and since we were friends now I wanted to stop it and then I got involved, turns out I was always involved. Friend2 and 3 were always friends and I "stole" friend2 from friend3. I didn't know this but it wasn't my fault. I was just young back then and I believed what the other people said about friend3. We all got into this huge fight and friend1 was in the middle, not knowing what to do. That time was all about picking sides and I thought that was unfair, we could all just stop fighting, stop being jealous but that's not how it works to them. I was alone at that time, they all called me names and insulted me and teased me and they just didn't realize what they were doing. Friend1 just sat there and let it all happen, without caring. And there's this group of girls known as the popular, they are actually super nice but I NEVER fit in so I avoided them. What was the point if at the end it never lasted and they just walked away, now that wasn't very nice and they also turn against each other when it comes to random stuff like the boys which I hate, they are just bad news... and they got meaner. That's later in the story. So we were friends again, then no, then yes, then no and so on. This type of thing always bothered me and I would always break down. I didn't tell anyone, mainly because when I was getting bullied in the second and third grade, everything my parents said never helped and I just stayed quiet and I felt so stupid, I should have stood up but I didn't. Shame on me. So really now friend1 was bully1, friend2 was bully2, and friend3 was bully three. That was hard for me. A bunch of compliments build me up but it only takes one insult to bring me down.

Finally it was the fifth grade and everything was going fine. Friend1 and I made up.... not really made up. She pretty much pretended nothing happened. And I, the idiot. So bully2 and 3 were friends again. I really didn't know what my brain was telling me. I guess I was just too lonely and needed a friend. Then every Thursday, this police officer came to our class. It was this program called D.A.R.E. So this officer teaches you about drugs and smoking and all that stuff, why its bad, why we shouldn't use it, etc. But he taught us about many other things......(UGH), such us how to be demanding, unsure, and confident. Well to make things fun, we always use to act out things like this. AND GUESS WHAT?! So someone acted out the demanding...

EXMAPLE: DEMADING

boy1: * just standing there

boy2: hey can you help me with this project OR SO HELP ME I WILL BEAT YOU UP AND KILL YOU!!!

They just acted this out...

EXAMPLE:CONFIDENT

boy1:*standing there*

girl1: hi, I'm doing a project, come help me, it will be fun (blah,blah,blah)

EXAMPLE:UNSURE.....(great)

girl1:*just standing there*

girl2:* she walks towards were looking down all shy and mumbles everything* hey uh.... I was um wondering... if maybe you would like.. t-to help me...never mind, its not.. important

AND REMEBER THAT WAS JUST ACTIN!!!!

Then this boy shouts out HEY ALISON SHOULD BE UP THERE

nobody stood up for me, some laughed, some pointed, the teacher and officer did nothing, and of course the great...bully2 was looking at me, giggling and had that smug look on her face, like if she was better than me and people were just staring and she said some stuff like, " look at the shy little freak" or loser or weirdo. In the outside I just turned around and didn't care but in the inside I'm crying. At lunch I cried and sat alone. Of course bully1 was with other people and bully2 and 3 were across from me, whispering and laughing and threw stuff at me which just made me cry harder. I don't know what happened later but we became friends again, all of us, What the hell was wrong with me?! So now bully2 which is friend2 now has to pick sides... I stupidly was made a side. she either had to go with me or friend3 with WAS bully3. Bully3 was just complaining how I was a huge loser and jerk for stealing her best friend when she could have just told me how she felt instead of fighting but noooo.

Later it was P.E. , which stands for physical education. bully2 and 3 were looking at me whispering and bully1 which is now friend1 listened to the entire conversation, mainly because she was right in front of them, we were all in ABC order and had to stay that way. There were three rows, they were in the middle row and in the middle, I was in the last row, I was almost the last person there, there's a kid behind me. So then I see bully3 come towards me. she has the word WHATEVER written all over her eyes, she obviously didn't care. she apologized and I was like....

" *bully3* I know you don't mean it. I know you don't care and you didn't mean that apology at all"

she said she did mean it but I wasn't buying it. Later on, friend1 told me that bully2 was going to pay bully3 50 CENTS just to apologize to me. F*** THOSE B****ES!!!! Who the hell do they think they are doing this to me. I wasn't really surprised they would do something like this. So basically, I'm worth 50 cents. NAH UH YOU DON'T PUT A PRICE ON ME!!!!! no one does, I'm worth WAY more than that. Well bully2 always had a crush on this boy, I'm going to call him bully4. so bully1, 2,3,4,5 and I were friends..... hell no. I can't BELIEVE I let this happen. that was like at January, a new girl came in and I wanted to be her friend, she is friend4. so now its friend 1,2,3,4, and me, bully4 wasn't exactly a completely friend to us, he was with us only at lunch. so friend1 always put bunny ears behind my head when I wasn't looking at first it was a bit funny to me and hilarious to friend 1,2,3, and 4, mainly because of my funny reaction but then it was really annoying and I wanted it to stop but it didn't and I always got angry so I got the name angry bunny. B****! IF ANYONE CALLS ME THAT AGAIN.... well I don't know.

so I always made this face... I put the corners of my mouth down and it was like a frowned face and bully4 said I looked like a fish and he called me angry fishy. great. I didn't really care until he spread it to the whole class and everyone called me angry fishy. so nobody really liked me huh? they all think its funny but I also have family issues at home that I don't want to talk about. That really hurt me and I would always fight with my friend and I was going through puberty too. well when I was eight, my ( you should know what) started to hurt because they were growing and then on October 30th I got my period and I always had mood swings, I got angry for no reason and depressed and happy and SO ON, so most of the time I was in a bad mood, mainly because I either had my period or in the morning when I get up to go to school, I fight with my two younger brothers or my parents. One time my class and I were getting back from P.E. and as we were going in the class, well a girl was holding the door and she asked, " what's wrong angry fishy?" now that got me pissed, I just glared at her and stormed into the class. Now lets go forward. I was still getting bullied but then, oh but then there was this fieldtrip and we were in class because we just came back from it and I decided to speak up. I told the teacher I wanted to share a " story" in front of the class...

this is what happened:

I got in front of the class with my heart beating faster than light and I was trembling so much the my brain was jumping up and down. I felt so cold and my voice got incredibly squeaky, I always get nervous when I'm in front of the class. so I open my mouth to speak, everyone is staring.

" so there is this little girl who has been bullied all her life by her friends and class mates and she has tried everything but nothing works. So um every day she would get home from school and sit down on a corner of her room and cry because of how her terrible day went and at night she would put on headphones and listen to sad songs and look at pictures of her "friends" while crying. She has nobody to help her in life and that little girl....", I said and tears started to form in my eyes," is me...", I said a started to cry. I couldn't help it. I'm actually crying right now. So I kept crying and explaining everything. That was really hard for me. I mean I said that someone even made a theme song about "angry fishy", I also gave some examples of what I heard all the time.

EXAMPLE:(this really happened once)

so my class was split and I was with two guys and a girl. so a fly got in the class rom and the teacher was really annoyed and none of the kids could catch it.

then...

boy1: if you cant catch the fly, you cant catch Alison

I mean hurtful stuff like this every single day and its all the time and no one ever stood up for me. But the other boy that was split with me has heard everything everyone else says, he's one of the "popular" kids but he is really nice, we're friends.

So I did it, I might have been called names like angry bunny, angry fishy, freak, weirdo, stupid, idiot, ETC, but I did it. everyone started to respect me a bit but now I'm going to middle school. That's fine with me, nothing will hurt me, I know I'm confident, strong, brave, unique and amazing. AND so are all of you. Don't let anyone push you around. If you want to speak up you could also use what I did, it could help. THANK YOU FOR READING AND DONT WORRY!!! everything gets better. I'll probably be back though..... Nah HAKUNA MATATA!

-lionking2lover101.

Teasing, name calling, insults, SOMETIMES physical like hitting but only from one girl

Around 6 or 7.

Classmates, "friends",etc.

I felt like a worthless piece of junk, like if I didn't matter, I felt so alone and depressed and I was full of anger sometimes.

I was a bit hurting but felt a lot better to share this.

well my parents but not really.

Well the first time I did, nothing was working so I kept it to myself until I finally decided to speak up.

6 years.

Well no because its summer but I'm not sure.

WELL thanks everyone for reading, I hope everything gets better for you guys who are being bullied.