Well. Thanks for reading this. Well I'm guessing your reading this, try to excuse my grammar as this has been made in a rush. I don't know if this counts as bullying and I don't know what to do about it so please leave a comment. Let's start

Ok. So we'll start in primary school. (This is all English and I don't know the differences bettween years and grades, so... Yeah) it kinda started young and it wasn't bullying it was more of certain friends being horrible, constantly. Ok so there was friend 1. We used to be best friends and she was a very pushy best friend. And she had this way of... Stealing your stuff. It annoyed me but I didn't say a thing. But then came friendlyfriend. Who saved me from friend1 but had to move away a year later. Me and friend1 became friends again, but I wouldn't take it to best friends as I saw what a friend was really like (thanks friendlyfriend) I was in year 2 at this point. And me and friend1 had plenty of arguments. And she forced me into playing a game she called 'Tigers' which basically meant beating up the boys. Now leading into no boys like liking me. Yay! Fun *note the sarcasm* so with these fights with friend1 I was left. On my own. With no one. At breaks while she would go and break up a friendship some where else and keep the pieces for herself. As we were a small school it was hard to make new friends, as we all head our own little groups. But we'll move ourselves for ward a year.

This is when I was in year 3, I realised I don't have to do what friend1 says so I stayed with my cousin who had just been ditched by his best friend as his mum never took him to after school clubs he never got into foot ball so the boys ditched him... Sad right? So I hung around with him for a while. I stayed friends with friend1.... Just not very close. So me and my cousin hung around. But I hated with my gut this b**** of a teacher who was out to make my life a living hell. Who would want to make a cute 8 yr olds life hell? But I was stuck with her for the rest of the year. But I couldn't make friends with her constantly making me seem like an idiot. I blame the school for making me who I am today. But there was one boy who I had always known but this was when he started to stick up for me. And it really comforted me and got me through the rest of the year. But when I reached yr4 everything became the best. I met 2 more friends Well call them friend2 and friend3. Friend2 and I were practically alike except she was more popular and would only deal with one best friend at a time. This meant for a week she'll talk and hangout with me the next with friend3. Then with friend1. Friend3 got really annoyed at friend1. Friend3 was best friends with friend4 as well so she never was alone. So I was alone practically all the time.

Yr5

This is were I got interested into Football. And u have to be popular to play football. So that left me screwed. So I kept the system with friend 1 2 and 3 about the once a week. But then friend3 got really annoyed and friend2 and had this massive argument. I had to pick a side so I was forced with friend3 we all ignored each other for 2weeks until friend1&2 came and sat next to us. Then friend3 started lying through her teeth about this massive sleepover we weren't having. And I hated every minute of it.i was still annoyed at friend1 but then a boy (he's really not relevant to the story) said he saw friend2 crying. And this really broke my heart. As I hate any sadness in any one.we made up after that. (Friend one has forever since been p***** at friend 3 but they didn't have the argument)

Yr6

This is were I met the girl who saved me from their drama, friend 4, We both realised we loved football and I became the schools girl defender and friend4 became girl striker. We barely, never had arguments but friend 3 would always make one. Friend 4 accidentally pushed me over and friend3 would try to make me hate friend4 and call her a b**** in the end I had to say things I didn't believe about them to each other. Just so I wouldn't be left out. I practically begged friend3 to stop. I found friend3 crying in the toilets once. And she wouldn't stop until I called friend4 a bitch. I still feel horrible for doing it. but friend3 made me say it again. But with friend4 behind me. I dint know friend 4 was behind me. But me and friend4 made up after I explained everything. Friend3 had a go at friend 4 for bullying me. But she'd only give me playful slaps which I'd give in return. This whole thing made me feel horrible. And I hated it.end of yr 6 friend4 had to go to a different high school. And we both cried when it came to it. And I found out that boy1 from a different school liked me. :).

Yr7.

Constant teasing. Constantly. Bearing down on me. I couldn't stand it. All about boy1. Boy1 was popular so he didn't get teased. Me however? Constantly. And by everyone. Except from one group of girls. People would drag me from one side of the yard to the other and I was near tears by the end of it. Finally people stopped nagging me after I had ago at friend2 for teasing me when she knew that I didn't like him.

All friends ignored me from my primary school and this is where I became super conscious about my body look and personality which had all changed, then I was accepted into a popular group of girls, the only ones who didn't tease me (these will have different names as its getting confusing. There was g1 g2 G3 G4. This was... Awesome they were great friends until G4 floated away and didn't talk to me anymore. Which hurt. A lot. I made a lot of enemies but this didn't bother me until g1 would insult me constantly " I don't wanna talk to you. Flea" I know it's no bad but she was my best friend and to have her cruising my every Move? Hurt like hell. My sister then introduced me to Watt pad do where I wrote a book. Basically channelling my feelings into it. But with a plot which is nothing near my life. This is when it got worse. Not just g1 scrutinising my every move it was also my sister and her friends. E.g. "such a person said u looked fat wearing ur jumper like that. Such-and-such said ur hair looked like a birds nest today. Thingy ma Bobby said u over act everything." all this killed me until they found my story. My sister showed it them because her book only got 23 reads mine got 230 in one day. Then they started scrutinising it. And my cousin (mentioned earlier) joined in. I dont know if it was bullying or it was just bitchy family. But it hurt like hell. I stopped updating more often and lost followers and readers. Ive not updated in a month and a half now. I nearly killed myself multiple times. Held the razor to my arm. But I can't do that to friend4 we haven't spoken in a yr but I know it'll crush her. And my family would probably kill my pets if I was gone. They hate them already. So I couldn't leave them behind. But we'll skip to end of year

I saw g1 in river island where we went shopping together. And she saw a shirt. Black lace completed with a separate black vest. I personally didn't like it. Not my style. But after g1 left I carried on shopping where I found a gorgeous top. A white long T-shirt with tiny little holes cut into it with a tight white crop top underneath. It would split apart at the back. It would show your stomach and ur back. I didn't mind at the time obviously. But the second I walked into school with it on (non school uniform day) I knew I made a mistake. People were staring at my stomach so i held it in, being self conscious (thank u sisters friends and g1), but when I made it into form I knew I made the right choice. When Boy2 walked up and said. I really like your top, he was blushing :) !!!!! He was the most popular and fittest boy in the year. AND HE LIKES MY TOP. this was a serious self esteem booster until I say down and g1 turns around and spits at me "You stole the top I said I was going to buy, you lying thieving friend, " she turns around and DOESNT talk to me all day. I was really worried/scared so i told g4 who told me it was all gonna be fine.

Last day of yr7:

Starts out alright. Last period is perfect and we all pick groups I walk over to my best friends g1 g2 and g3 who all smiled at me and nodded. But then g1 scowled and walked over to a group of slutty popular girls and left us behind. After this I just had a breakdown about everything the whole year. Just everything. G2 and g3 sat next to me and wouldn't leave my side but I was a terrible friend and wouldn't talk to them. Just sit and cry and cry and cry. Eventually g1 can over and said. "errrrrrrrr..... What's up?..... " then when I broke down into more sobs she just left g2 had a go at her for not trying I tried to say something but I couldn't stop crying. Its now the summer holidays. And. No ones asked me if I'm OK. No ones texted me. So I just shrug them off and say "Fuck off bitches, I've got real friends i don't need you"

I've not sorted anything out. At all. So if you have any ideas or comments please comment. And tell me. Is this bullying or me being over emotional? *there is more I'm just running out of time*

Mainly verbal, but occasionally physical.

I dont know exactly. But it mainly started in yr7 So 12 but if u count primary... 5

One teacher, and all of my friends

Except for 2. They r awesome

Shocked, confused, offended scared, stupid, ugly, fat, over dramatic. And hated. Like nobody would care. Like a fly swatted away.

I... I dunno yet

Not until now

I felt I would be judged. I didn't have the nerve.

Well the bad bullying 1yr the primary included.... 7

Well it depends if I was being bullied it the first place