It all started in 1st grade. I was called the occasional 'fat, ugly' it never really bothered me. It always stops in summer because there is no school. I was verbally bullied from age 6 to now. But it is much worse now. I am now 12. I have also been cyber bullied. Not the typical social media bullying but there is this game mini carnival, and a lot of people call me a sl*t, wh*re, b*tch, and all of those. I sometimes don't mind but when we become friends than they call me that. It hurts a lot. My story is different. I know. But this book gave me a voice. And I have been bullied for half my life. I remember this one time in 6th grade. I just finished. This classmate said as I walked into the classroom. "Hey look here comes the hippopotamus." My friend stood up for me and he said. "Don't say that (bullies name) she is way stronger, smarter, and nicer than you. So shut up." I also said shut up but I didn't give a rant about it. My friend he really stood up for me and I give him a huge thank you for that.

Since 5th grade I have been depressed, but 6th grade is when it went down hill. I started talking to an adult friend who is a counselor and she has helped me. I am still very depressed and have wanted to cut but I don't have the guts to. This is all caused because of bullying and my grandpa's death.

Here is a note to all of you who are depressed and cut: no one deserves this. We are just simply victims of people who like to get reactions. There are 2 quotes I love, "it gets better. Eventually. But it does get better." And I also like, " it is harder to recover from a mental illness than a physical one." So please try and get out of cutting. I know I'm a suicidal kid that is now telling suicidal people to get better. But I also tell my self that everyday in the mirror.

No one deserves this. No one knows why we are the ones being bullied. But I know I'm too good for those dang bullies.