School is like my safe haven. Its funny, how its like that. I have wonderful friends at school, but they don't really know how my life is like at home.

It is horrible: my mom had me with my dad, but when I was about 3, completely separated me from my father, because of something his ROOMMATE did wrong. Then, at 7, I was introduced to the person who I take after the most, because let me tell you that I HATE drama(especially girl drama) Then, after 10 years, my mom decides to just get up and leave my step dad for another guy. 10 YEARS OF (not marriage) BEING TOGETHER AND MY MOM JUST GET UP AND LEAVES. Now, it seems like she's always trying to give us(me and my half brothers) away to my dad or step dad so she can do WHATEVER she does. She's always "working" or "sleeping" and she can't even try to get up early enough to get her own child to school on time.

Then, after she drops me off late, she goes and gets the boys chips and sends them to school early. I try to tell her that my phone is retarded, but she won't listen and yells at me if I don't respond to a text I never got from her. She can't even listen to her own child. She doesn't even know me. She doesn't even try. I mean, its not like I care, but the last time mom and her side of the family had a get together birthday thing, I wasn't even thought of. Its funny, how last year I was the perfect, straight A student, and no one from the family could ignore how "beautiful" I was, whether through jealousy or lovingness(I guess) and now I'm nothing. You can't even remember me. Very nice to know I've been shut out. Its okay though, I don't fit in with them. Never have, never will.

I don't know what happened with my old mom who, although worked a lot, especially in the night, still tried to spend time with us, and who this monster I call a "mother" is, but I almost feel like I can't take it.

I sometimes wish that I could just disappear into thin air, or that I could just start over with life. I don't think my mom realizes that the reason I love daydreaming and writing on Wattpad is because for a little bit, I can be someone else. That, I wish that I was someone else, not this clumsy and super awkward daughter of a psycho mother who just, basically plays with men.

Yup, school is basically a safe haven for me. At least I have my friends.