If there’s one thing I’ve learned from school, it’s that girls fight much dirtier than boys. I go to a school where bullying is pushed away so strongly, it almost doesn’t exist, and I am so grateful for that. Still where theres kis theres bullying,and the hidden implied thoughts and messages have always been there.

My school has a bit of a popularity rank too though, and I’ve worked hard to find a place on the rank where I have an amazing set of friends and also an amazing school life.

The horrible group of mean girls still remains though, attacking some of the weaker parts of my group.

Alright, lets start at the beginning.

I was 5 years old and just starting Kindergarten. I was a little nervous about friends, but as an only child I was used to coping by myself. Still, at playtime I saw this little girl called Friend1 who was playing with the lego, and we immediately clicked.

Friend1 and I were convinced that there were other kids in the class that we could make friends with too, and that was how our little group was made. We had Friend1, the twins, Friend2 and myself. All was good until Bully1 came along. She swooped in like a bald eagle and pretty much dragged Friend1 away from the group. She explained to Friend1 that she was her best friend, not me. Friend1, being a kind and shy person, kind of just went with it. She had no idea what to do. Bully1 and I had some pretty big fights. I wanted my friend back, and Bully1 waned Friend1 to hang out with her. After a few “I don’t want to be your friend anymore!”s and birthday invitations to Friend1 in front of my face, Friend2 and I had had enough. We left the group and played with just each other for a long time. We were both immature and crazy, and that was what we had in common. One day my mom went to drop off my lunch and she saw us playing together. She told me that I had to play with other people, otherwise if Friend2 ever left the school, I would have other friends to play with. Friend2 and I agreed, and we promised that we would play together every recess, just with other people.

A few weeks later she ditched me.

I spent the whole recess looking for her and I found her playing with the group of girls we had left when the drama was just too much.

I felt a little hurt that she didn’t even tell me about this, but I sat on a bench, and shook it off.

The next day she did the same thing.

And the next.

And the next.

I found a new group of friends and started hanging out with them. These are my current besties that have stuck with me through everything.

About a month later, Friend2 asked me if she could play with me again. I said sure, but she didn’t like my friends and wanted to play with just me again. I politely declined, and she got mad and walked away. That was the end of that friendship.

Friend2 moved to a new school a year later (not because of me).

A couple years later I have faced yet another problem. The boys are always singing rap songs in girls faces, and sometimes being a little rough with them, but the only reason that they do this is because that is what they do with each other. The girls have taken and still do take this the wrong way. Once they all ganged up on the boys on a day I was absent (pretty convenient) and told the principal about how mean the boys were being to them. Unfortunately, the never ending hate still exists, and half of the boys are going to a new school to get away from it.

Girls, huh.

A couple weeks ago Friend2 came back and visited my school. This is what my ‘i thought he was my friend but he turns out to be kinda mean friend’ said:

Friend2 you little midget. Wow it’s been a year and you’ve grown 0.1 mm! Omg you’re a big girl now!

(Friend2 tried to say something but mean friend interrupted)

no shut up. why don’t you just go back under the rock where your parents found you.

This friend is still my friend because apparently Friend2 was really mean to him when she was at the school, and because he has never done anything like this before. He’s also been my friend for so long, and he is pretty great.

Besides all of the recent drama, I am twelve years old right now, with supporting friends and a great life. HIgh school will bring much more bullying than my school, but right now I just want to live in the moment and enjoy my popular-enough status while it lasts. :)