It started when I was fife years old.

My sibling loved to part around with me.

One time it went to far that I almost got kidnapped.

They were telling me how my mom didn't love me and she ran away.

Me being a scared little girl, ran outside to look for her, I ran a few blocks away screaming "mommy". Till a black car came up.

There were three men.

They looked emo. Wearing all black.

They told me they knew where my mom was and I was going to go with them but my neighbor saved me.

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The next time was in kindergarten.

I had warts on my fingers and every one was grossed out.

When I was going to touch someone they would say "ewwww!!! Doubt touch me!"

But one of the girls was mean...

When I was going to sit next to her she would be like "I don't want a freak to sit with me." Or " get you dirty hands off me!"

Kids would call me names and hit me.

In first grade.

I was this hyper, fun, outgoing little girl everyone loved.

(That was just a mask. At home I was abused by my grandfather who would step on my back, pull my hair, etc.)

Honestly, some people thought different.

Bully1 (who is a girl) would pull my hair and her friend (bully 2) would push me around.

I never told anyone because I was to scared.

Sooner or later, I started to get scary.

I lost control and yelled at the bullies.

2-3 grade, kids were scared of me, the boys too..

All of the teachers never noticed it.

During fourth grade, I join boys and girls club.

One time I joined a talent show with my best friend, I wore one of my old cheer uniforms, during that time, bully 3 (a boy) was stuck in a net. So I helped him out. When I got stuck in the net with my bestfriend he didn't help all he did was laugh and put his butt in our face.

The staff who was watching us DIDNT care.

After a few months, one of my bullies became my crush. I didn't know how that happened.

His friends and another group would bully me and my bestfriend.

I stood up to them but they keep on doing what they do to us.

I didn't like telling people what happens at school or If I get bullied.

My crush for him quickly faded.

He found out I had a crush on him by these two girls in my class.

I'll name then X and K.

X and K went to me during boys and girls club and asked me "do you have a crush on any one?" I didn't answer so they started saying some names.

I'm going to put the first letter of there names

"Is it R? No K! No Crush." I froze when they said his name

There eyes widen and ran to him, "(Me) likes you! (me) likes you!"

It broke me because I trusted them.

X was a friend I trusted but now I cant.

I'm still friends with her but I can't trust her.

In fifth grade this started to get better.

I was still bullied but not as much.

Yeah I would get punched, kicked, or name called. But I got used to it.

I started to act like a boy.

Some people (even my family) would mistaken me as a boy, I didn't mind much.

Currently, I'm in six grade and i still have my best friend.

I get named calls and sometimes a punching bag but In okay.

I cry myself to sleep most of the time.

Trying to get ride of the bad times.

A guy in my class once called me hitler.

I almost cried.

It hurt me a lot: But I didn't show it.

I keep an emotionless face on.

I show emotions sometimes.

I'm a teachers pet now.

I cry myself to sleep.

I think about cutting.

Even thought I never have done it.

I want to cut but I don't do it.

I'm scared in this dark place that has no ending...

I am healing slowly.

How Old Were You When The Bulling Started

I was five

Who bullied you?

My siblings, friends, crush, class mate, etc.

How did you feel when you were bullied

I felt worthless. I get names like "Pig." "Whore" "Slut" "nerd" "idiot!"

How you told anyone that you know you've been bullied?

No...

How long have you been bullied for?

7 years

Are you still getting bullied?

Yes... I am