"How can you not find him? Aren't you supposed to be the best in the field?" Pha shouted as he paced around agitatively. It was already Saturday and still there was no signs of Yo, it was as if he has disappeared off the surface of the Earth. Pha couldn't sleep the whole night, despite the fact that he entrusted his best men to find Yo, they couldn't do it yet.

Ever since he left Mr Panichayasawad's house, he felt a renewed need to find Yo urgently in case Mr Panichayasawad's words turned out to be true. He couldn't even think about the possibility of never seeing Yo again, he nearly went into a panic attack at just the thought of it thus here he was, contacting every one who could help him and even offering a small fortune for it. He never felt so helpless before.

He was so emerged in the fear of never seeing Yo again that he completely neglected himself, he wasn't having any meals and he didn't even bother to change out of yesterday's clothes. The ever so controlled Phana was in a mess, his tie was loosen around his neck with his shirt untucked and he was even sporting a short stubble. Moreover his eyes were bloodied red from lack of sleep and his dark circles were very prominent in his rugged face. Anyone who saw him was taken aback but they didn't dared to say something because Pha was looking very much like a caged and angry animal right now.

"ANSWER ME! How can he disappeared like that?" He shouted again as he advanced towards them angrily but he got distracted by the phone's ringing. He rush to answer it, "tell me you found him."

"WHAT?!" He screamed out in frustration and smash the phone down, breaking it.

Rock tried to appease him, "Pha, our men are working on it. They are checking every CCTV around the corner and we are trying to locate his driver. Once his face will be detected from the recording, we will spring into immediate action and follow his car trail. We can then reach him in no time. Don't worry, we will find him."

Pha went to him and grapped his collar in desperation, "you better. Bring him to me because I...I can't breathe! I need to see him, I need to touch him, to hear his voice and to smell him. I'm going crazy without him."

Rock nodded tightly, he could see what Yo's absence was doing to his boss and he couldn't help worrying. If this continues then he would have no choice but to alert the big boss, that is his brother Forth. Although he doubted that Forth would be able to get Pha in control.

He left shortly afterward with his men, they were going to find Yo whatever it takes. Pha sat down behind his desk in defeat, he can't believe that he was rendered to this current state because of a guy, a cute guy nonetheless. He was like an addict craving for his fix as he was already feeling the symptoms of withdrawal. No sleep, a deep constant fear in his heart and stress has built up so much that his neck was feeling too heavy for his body.

"Yo...where are you? Please come back to me." He murmured desperately as his voice turned shaky. He blinked his eyes as he felt something heavy fell out of it, reaching out a hand he brought it to his face and he was left stunned at the wetness of it. He was crying! He never cried for as long as he remembered but now he let everything out. His desperation, his fear and his anger. For the first time ever he was rendered powerless.

By midday there was still no news of Yo, that makes 30 hours since Pha has last saw him and he was loosing it little by little. Thinking of no other solutions, he decided to take the last alternative. Grabbing his jacket on the way out he ignored the surprised look of some workers who were working overtime on weekends, he hurried outside and got inside his car impatiently, intending on confronting a certain person. Speeding away he arrived in record time in front of a big, imposing building. The Panichayasawad's Enterprise.

He entered inside and headed directly to the conference room. He knew that Yo's father had a conference schedule with some important businessmen at this moment but he couldn't care less. Going pass the surprised secretary he opened the door and burst inside. Dead silence descended upon the room as all eyes fell on him. Breathing hard, he looked around and saw the man he wanted. Signalling him with a finger he said harshly, "come outside, we need to talk."

Mr Panichayasawad stood up and glared at him with suppressed anger, "I'm sure our talk can wait, can't you see I'm in an important meeting right now?"

"My talk is more urgent, what do you prefer? You want to talk outside or you want to talk here?"

They stared at each other until Mr Panichayasawad finally gave up and apologied to the others. Leaving the meeting in charge of his manager he gestured for Pha to follow him. They walked to his office in tensed silence. Upon reaching Mr Panichayasawad abandoned all pretence of politeness, turning to Pha he snarled, "how dare you?"

"I dare because you're hiding what's mine. Tell me where he is."

Yo's father snorted, "what makes you think I will tell? I told you yesterday that I'm not letting you use him as your playboy. Go find another one."

"I can't, I need Yo only. Can't you see in what state I am? I can't function without him, I need him."

Mr Panichayasawad sighed, "look Phana, you're a good boy but now you're overstepping the limit. I can't allow you to destroy his life and I'm sure you will do that because Yo is too naive and the worst is that I can see he loves you. I don't know what he sees in you but his heart is already broken because of you so give up. You can't make me say where is he but rest assured that he is fine. Give him some time and he might find someone else. That's what I want for hi..."

He hasn't finished when Pha lunged towards him and grapped him by a chokehold, "listen to me very carefully, Yo is only mine and no one else. I will kill anyone who lays a hand on him, understand?"

Securities burst into the room and grabbed Pha by the arms, dragging him away.

Mr Panichayasawad straighted up and looked at him with a hard expression the guards tried to take him from the office. He shrugged them off him and turned to him, "I....I'm sorry, I lost my control. I shouldn't have done that. You're my elder and i stepped out of the line but you can't separate me from Yo. No matter what you do, I will find him and i make him mine completely"

The guards tried to get a hold on him again but Mr Panichayasawad stopped them, "are you willing to take responsibility of him for the rest of your life?"

"What do you mean?"

"Go and think about it yourself." He signalled the guards, "escort him out and see that he never set foot here ever again."

After being escorted outside Pha let out a scream of frustration, the one thing that he came here for was unsuccessful. He came here in a last hope of finding Yo but he only worsened the situation. Groaning aloud he passed his hand over his face, he was tired and lonely but his heart wasn't ready to give up. He knew that his sanity won't last long without Yo but what else can he do? He already has more than 20 men working on finding him, he just hope that they find him before he lost his mind completely.

Returning back to his office, he sat down heavily behind his desk. Everywhere he looked he saw Yo's memories. He sighed when he spotted the sofa, he remembered clearly how his laughter has lightened the room. He could even hear his cute voice echoing around. Slamming his fists hard on the table he got up and went towards his bar. Although he rarely drinks at this time, he badly needed a drink to warm his dark soul.

One drink turned to two and two drinks turned to three. It continued like this until he lost count of how many drink he had. He staggered to the sofa with his bottle in hand and sat down reminiscing about his faith. Why was he so attracted to that little guy and what did Yo's dad mean? Was he willing to take his responsibility? Of course yes!

He was ready to do that from the start itself but for the rest of his life? He thought back to when he was getting engaged and then he saw this most beautiful, unbelievable angel. He wanted to capture him and keep him for himself, away from other eyes until he had enough of him but thinking deeply about it, he wasn't really ready to let Yo go, not now or ever. He would never accept it if Yo gets someone else in his life someday. Just the thought of it was enough to make him feel murderous.

Thus, the answer was yes, he was ready to take care of Yo for the rest of his life. He could now understand what Yo meant when he said that he wanted to be the only one because Pha wanted to be the only one for Yo too. Groaning, he rest his head on his hands, he was such a fool. How could he realised it now, Yo was perfect for him and Pha would never hesitate to marry him instead of Samantha. Thinking back, he started feeling disgusted at the idea of being with Sam from the very start itself, indeed all he could think of was only Yo.

Such a big fool, shaking his head he drank his regrets slowly until the whole bottle was empty. It was close to 9pm and he was still sitting on that sofa. His eyes was glazed and he kept staring mindlessly at the view in front of him from the big window. The door opened behind him but he gave no reaction. He was feeling numb and hollow.

"Pha?" Forth approached cautiously and drew into a sharp breath when he saw him. Messed-up hair, unshaved and still wearing yesterday's clothes, Pha has turned into a stranger.

"Pha are you ok? I was wondering why you weren't at the meeting this afternoon and you were not responding any of my calls." Forth sat down beside him and regarded him worriedly, "you're stinking of alcohol. For how long have you been drinking?"

Pha finally gave sign of life, he turned lifelessly to look at Forth, "I'm missing him so much...it hurts."

Forth looked surprised, "who are you talking about?"

"Wayo, I need him here with me. I feel like I'm loosing my mind."

Forth stared into his bloodshot eyes and saw a deep loneliness. His heart started paining at the sight, from childhood itself he tried to shield Pha from the harsh world but their father was adamant on teaching both of them from a young age. He tried to give him the love that every child deserved but he himself was lost and burdened from all the responsibilities entrusted to him. Growing up Pha turned out cold and rarely showed any emotions but now seeing him like this a tear ran down Forth's cheek. His baby brother was hurting badly and he obviously didn't know how to handle the onslaught of emotions assaulting him.

He reached out and took the bottle away from him as Pha protested, "no, this won't help you. Believe me, I tried it."

Pha looked surprised, "you?"

Forth give him a lopsided smile, "why? You can't think of me drinking off my problems? Well little brother I did, a lot of time. I just did it in hiding because as you know very well, we can't show any weakness to the big bad world out there else they might eat us alive."

Pha snorted, he turned back to look at the view, "I...I think I love him because...I can't stop thinking about him. I keep hearing his voice echoing everywhere and I keep seeing him but in the end it's only my imagination. I want it to be true, I want him to be really here with me." Tears were rolling down his cheeks as he confessed into his brother. Forth slid closer to him and put his arm around his shoulders.

"He will come back because he loves you too."

Pha looked at him again, "you don't seem surprised."

"You might think that you're very cunning but you're not little brother, at least not as much as me. I saw immediately through your acts, you would always look at him with your possessive and burning eyes. And i noticed it several time when I'm with you, you would always search for him first whenever you stepped into your office. I also noticed the way you didn't like it whenever someone else approached him. "

"I was so jealous when he hugged you." Pha muttered and Forth laughed. After that they fell into an awkward silence until Forth asked,

"Did you eat? And you're stinking bro, at least take a bath and put on some clean clothes."

"I will, don't worry."

Forth nodded and remained seated by his side for a long time, offering his silent support. After a call from their father he had to go and meet him immediately since he had to make some sort of excuses for Pha's absence. Their father would definitely not be happy if he learned that his son was mopping for a guy.

Pha remained seated until he fell into an uneasy sleep for the night, he kept tossing and calling out Yo's name. By Sunday morning he was feeling like crap. He didn't ate for a whole day and now he was fighting against a nasty hungover. Groaning he sat up slowly feeling his whole body protesting.

Rock called shortly afterward to tell him that there was still no news concerning Yo. Hearing this he went straight to the bar and got set om another bottle of whiskey. He kept on drinking on an empty stomach as he walked around the house. He touched the coffee maker as he remembered Yo touching it and making coffee. Moving on next he entered his room. He fell down on his bed and inhaled the sheets deeply. Yo's smell was still on it since he spent the night there on Thursday night.

He grapped his stomach as it started burning and he turned ghostly pale as he started feeling more and more dizzy. He felt like the room was swirling rapidly around him until he could take it no longer and fell into bliss unconsciousness.

He dreamed about small hands caressing his cheeks and a sweet voice called out, "P'Pha."

Author's note:

Hola! I'm back. I know some of you are very excited and can't wait for the updates but please, please be a little more understanding. It takes time to come up with ideas and to write them. By the time I finished it's already 1 to 2 am and by 6am my busy day starts again so rest assured that I am trying my best and I am not updating late just because I want to🙏🙏 It really does take time and as soon as I finish I usually update immediately 😀

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