"This doesn't fit I looked him in the eye he was calm, lucid." Rossi wasn't believing what he was hearing.

"They're committing mass suicide," Hotch said still listening.

"We don't know that for sure," Rossi said.

"Rossi, he just said it." Derek was getting mad.

"We're ready to go." The detective has his men ready to go in.

"If we go in now people are going to die." Rossi was the only one protesting.

"People are already dying," Hotch said.

~~~~~

"What do we do?" Emily asked.

"Nothing." You said.

"We have to do something these people just took poison."

"No, Cyrus just told them they did, and I

think he's bluffing." You said.

"Why do you think that."

"Just after he told them about the poison, he waited for them to start to react. And he nodded to call. And he started writing. Look." You gestured towards the two men in the front. "Their scanning the audience looking for reactions."

"The writing down the names of the people who are crying." Emily was realizing the same thing you were.

"It's a loyalty test." You finished.

"So he knows who fall him to the end." You started to think of different way you could that information to the team. You and Emily both knew that they would try to get bugs in. The really question was how were they gonna do it?

After taking a minute to discuss Cyrus finally spoke. He clarified that there was no poison.

~~~~~

"You guys need to see this." JJ walked over with a computer showing the news reporters.

"Now well into its second second day, The standoff at the septarian sect ranch has now been taken over by the FBI. There was much more speculation in regard to the hostages. but anonymous sources inside the state attorney generals office have told us that there is an undercover FBI agent currently being held inside this septarian sect ranch. hostage negotiator say they are making headway with a sects learner."

The report goes on to say that they didn't know why an undercover FBI agent had been sent it. The team knew even on the ranch had access the news.

Hotch's head started spinning. There was a high chance they would kill you or Emily suspected you had lied. The thought of you dying made Hotch weak. He couldn't focus on what everyone else was telling him.

~~~~~

At some point of being in the back you had found the wires in the box of supplies Rossi had brought in. You slowly take out the wire from the box and place it just enough under your shirt where are you couldn't see it.

"Oh I really hope this this is turned on." You said to yourself and turning back to Emily. They had escorted you guys back to the basement for some reason. Only being down there for a few minutes Cyrus comes through the door.

"Which one of you is it?" He pulled a gun from his belt. "Which one of you is the FBI agent?" You and Emily looked at each other.

"Why do you assume one of us is an FBI agent?" Emily asked.

"God will forgive me for what I must do." Cyrus pointed the gun go Emily head.

"I- I don't know what you're talking about." She wasn't going to break and you knew that.

"One of you does, who is it?"

"Me." Emily vision shifted to you. "It's me." Cyrus took the gun off of Emily. Emily opened her mouth to say something it, but Cyrus had grabbed you by your hair.

~~~~~

He drags you out of the tunnels by your hair. He takes you to the other side of the church. He takes you to an empty room and throws you on the floor. You groan as you try to get back up. Before you had a chance to stand on your own two feet Cyrus smack you in the face causing you to lose your balance again. You head smacks the concertante floor. Everything was spinning. He kicks you in the stomach. And again. And again. And again.

Hotch couldn't take listening to you getting hurt, but he couldn't take off the headphones. It took everything in him not to go in there and shot Cyrus in the head.

Cyrus was reciting a quotes from the bible's as he punched you in the face. You whipped back you hard your head hits a mirror that was behind you. You try to stand to stand tall but everything hurt.

"I can take it." You say as stern as you possibly could.

"Oh, you can take it." Cyrus come up to you and hit you.

"Listen to whats she's saying." Rossi tells everyone. Hotch gives him the I-cant-do-this-anymore look. "Listen he repeats himself.

You pull yourself back to your feet but slightly hunched over.

"I can take it." You wipe off the blood that was coming from your nose.

"She antagonizing him." Spencer said.

"She's not talking to him." Rossi corrected him.

"She's talking to us. She's telling us not to come in." Hotch hung his head. You were too strong for your own good. You never asked anyone for help. Always did it by yourself. It was his best and worst quality.

"Pride comes before the fall." He brings his fist to your gut one last time. He lets you fall to the ground. You roll around trying to find a spot that didn't hurt. No luck. You vision get blurry and your hands start to shake.

~~~~~

You open your eyes and your in a room, on a bed. You went from a concrete floor to a bed. You turn your head to see Jessica's mom sitting in the edge of the bed. She was cleaning the blood that came from you nose.

"You should've told Cyrus who you were. He's a prophet. He predicted Satan's armies would come in and lay siege to us." She said when she saw you had woken up.

"There's a name for that kind of prophecy- self fulfilling."

"You don't know how dangerous it is to lie to him." Well you did know he almost killed you.

"I know we will take a brave woman to defy him, knowing the consequences. And that that woman would have to have a damn good reason to do it." You said instead. She looked up as if to make sure no one was listening. She stood from her seat and walked out.

You stare at the ceiling hoping that the rest of the team knew what to do. You breathing got slower. You felt your eyes start to close but you force them open. You weren't letting yourself fall asleep mostly because you didn't know if you were going to wake up.

You heard the door open. You thought it was Jessica's mom but a familiar face came into view. It was Emily. She stood over you in awe. blood was all over your shirt and pants. You hand were behind you back. The bruises on your face started to darken. You forced a small smile when you saw her.

"I'm so sorry." She crouched down to your level.

"It's ok." You could barley get the words out.

"It should've been me."

"Emily I opened my mouth. I took the blame knowing what it was going to cost me." There was no use for her to argue with you. She didn't know what else to say but you need something.

"Emily I need you to do something for me."

"No, we're not doing that. Were not gonna do the whole tell someone I love them. No cause you can do it when we get out of here."

"Emily please." You begged.

"No we're gonna get out and then you can talk to who ever you need too."

"Emily, my heart rate is slowing down. I'm dizzy which mean I'm not getting enough oxygen to my brain. I can barley keep my eyes open. I know that if I closed them, I won't wake up." You swallow hard. "So please."

"Ok." She gave in knowing you were right.

"Tell Aaron that him and Jack are the best that had ever happened to me." There was so much confusion on her face but she took the order anyway.

"Ok." She nodded. "Look out for the team they should be giving us a sign to when they're are gonna come." You nodded the best you could. she rose to her feet and walked out.

You weren't going to allow yourself to die. At least not there. You lay awake think of all the moments you cherished with Aaron and Jack. There weren't many but still some. You wanted to make more. So many more. You were brought out of your thoughts when you heard doors to a truck close. That could be the team.

"If you can hear me I know you're coming, I can try to get the women and children down to the tunnel, but I need to know when you're coming." You repeated yourself into you saw a laser pointer come through the window.

"Ok. Ok. I got you. What time?" You asked. 3 quick blinks from the laser pointer.

"3 a.m.?" You asked. The pointed moved up and down.

"Ok. Emily is on the first floor somewhere with Cyrus. And please remember that there's are children here." You threw you head on the pillow. You heard the door open. It was Jessica's mom. She helps you sit up to give you water.

"Cyrus is planning a mess suicide. You made that 911 call." You told her.

"This is all my fault. None of this would've happened if I have made that call."

"You were trying to protect your daughter." She went on to tell you hi there had been other girl last before Jessie. And all she wanted to do was take her and run but she was scared she would never leave Cyrus.

"I can give you another chance the FBI is coming here at 3 a.m. I need you to gather Jessica, the kids, and the other women. Get them into the basement just before 3 a.m." You watched as she moved to the other side of the room.

"Why are you telling me this."

"Because I have faith that you can do the right thing for your daughter." She walked out and you wondered if you made the wrong call by telling her that.

~~~~~

"I know I can't go in there." Hotch said when you felt Rossi walk up.

"I know you can't, but I am." Rossi said.

"If something happens to Emily or Y/N..." He voice trailed off at the thought of you.

"She alive, Derek heard her. She sounded weak but she's alive." He knew all that mattered was that you were alive. Rossi patted his shoulder and walked away.

~~~~~

"You were right they have this places wired to blow up." Jessica's mom ran into the room and untied you hands. "I told Jessica Cyrus said to get all the women and children to the basement. But it's 2:45 we have to hurry." You ignored the pain in you stomach and ran through the hall. You find yourself in the basement met by Derek, Rossi and Spencer. The SWAT team was right behind them.

"Where's Emily?" Derek asked

"In the church was Cyrus. We go to go get her."

"Y/L you gotta get outta here." Derek said.

"We gotta get Emily first."

"We will get her, go." You felt Rossi grab your arm and pull you out side. It was dark. It took your eyes a moment to focus in the dark. You find Aaron at the end of the steps. You ran down the stairs and threw yourself in his arms. You had the tightest grip on you. It hurt like hell but you weren't about to stop him. You buried your face in his chest. You breathed in all his cologne, it smelt like home He smelt like home.

"Are you ok?" He whispered in your hair.

"I'm ok."He hardly heard you. The whole time he held you his grip never changed, like you were going to slip out his hands. Which you eventually did when you heard your name being called. Emily was running up behind you. Turned around to wrap your arms around her.

"We're ok." She said.

"We're ok." You repeated. She loosened on you, she knew there were more important people that wanted to hold you. His face hadn't change since you came out. They all insisted that you go to the hospital. You knew it was the best idea but all you wanted to do was go home and curl up into a ball next to Aaron. But you found yourself in an ambulance sitting with Emily.

You sitting in a hospital in the ER with Emily when the rest of the team walks in. Derek makes a comment about how it's nice not being the one in the bed for once. You laugh but it hurts. Reid was in the middle of give the ratio of Derek being in the hospital vs everyone else when the doctor walks in.

"Wow, there's a lot more of you guys in here now." The doctor said.

"This is the rest of the team." You gestured to them.

"Ok well, I'm Dr. Grey I am a General Surgeon, I was paged to take you up for some scans. So I'm going to go admit you, and find you a room that can fit all of you." You smiled and walked away.

"The need to get you a head CT." Spencer looked at the blood that had dried in your hair.

"I'm aware." You pushed his face away from you head. "But I'm feeling better."

"Your adrenaline is still going." Derek said from the foot of the bed. You rolled your eyes cause you knew he was right. You glanced at Aaron. He had his boss face on, but you could see the worry in his eyes.

The doctor had come back and gave the team the room number and took you to go get your scan.

"I'm sorry about them. We tend to get the rules when one of us is injured." You said to Dr.Grey who had been pushing you in a wheelchair.

"It's ok I completely understand, I've worked on many police officers and their squads tend to be much bigger then yours."

"Yeah our team maybe small but we're all a family, you know?"

"I get it."

After sitting in multiple machines for who knows how long. You were finally heading back to your room. You were met with everyone sitting expect Emily and Hotch. Their warms smile made you feel safe. You hoist yourself into the bed trying to avoid flashing your ass to the whole team. Emily and Hotch move to either side of you as the doctor out an IV in your arm.

Derek mumbled something about being hungry so him, JJ and Reid went to go find a vending machine. Emily has no hesitation to open her mouth.

"So how long has that been going on?" Emily whispered and point to you and Aarons hands that together. Aaron raises an eyebrow at you.

"I may have told her to tell you something, because I thought I was dying." You cleared the air.

"And what is this something you wanted to tell to me?" He asked.

"Nothing." You turn to Emily and gave her the shut-up look.

"You probably said you loved him. Cause that's what most people say." Rossi chimed in from the corner of the room.

"He's knows too?" Emily asked and you both nodded. "How long?" She asked again.

"5 months." You stated

"You've been with him for 5 months and haven't told me." Her voice got higher.

"I'm sorry. But I didn't know how to tell you." You said and the doctor walked in before Emily had a chance to say anything else.

"So, you have an acute bleed in your upper right quadrant. Which simply means-"

"I have a small bleed in my upper abdomen I know." You cut her off.

"Ok then, Since the bleed is so small it should clear up on its own. Your CT scan showed that you have a minor concussion, but it is borderline on something that can become

more major. So I would like to keep you here for a couple of day just to be sure that it doesn't become something big."

"Ok." You simply agreed.

"You the first officer or agent that I've treated that hasn't refused to stay for observation." She laughed.

"Yeah well the blond and the guy with the muscles that just walked out of here like 2 of my closest friends. The guy with the long hair, we have the same mind so we know what a major concussion can do. This one right here." You pointed to Emily. "We were together when this all happened, she blames herself for it even though I knew what I was doing." You pointed to Rossi who hadn't moved from his chair. "He's like a father to me." You looked at Aaron. "And this one right here." You placed your hand on his. "He's my boss and my boyfriend, so I don't have much leeway." The doctor smiled and nodded along.

"And I'd really appreciate it if you didn't tell the one with the muscle, the blonde one and the guy with the longer that he's my boyfriend cause we haven't figured out a way yet."

"My lips are sealed. Now try to get some sleep." She walked out.

"You heard the doctor." Emily said. She and Rossi said their goodnight leave you and Aaron alone.

"Hi." You lay on your side to face him.

"Hi." He placed his hand on you cheek and runs his thumb over the bruises.

"I'm gonna be ok." You reassured me.

"I know, it just I could've lost you."

"But you didn't, I'm still breathing." You out your hand into of the one that was on your cheek.

"I know but it doesn't feel real." You lean forward to place a kiss on his lips. Nothing felt better. You look at his eyes that soothed slightly since the last time you saw them.

"Ok, try to get some sleep." His stood and kissed your forehead.

"Where do you think your going?" You asked looking up at him.

"To the waiting room to talk with the rest the team."

"Well since you've graced me with you presents when I sleep. I find myself not being able to fall asleep with you not there." You admitted.

"Oh really." He said and sat on the bed. You moved closer to the other side so he had space. He laid down and opened his arms for you put yourself between them. You snuggle as close to his chest as you could. The sound of his steady heartbeat mixed with the small circles being drawn on your back made you fall asleep within a minute.