I'm nervous as fuck right now. I just touched down in DC, Ronald Reagan Washington National Airport. I'm not all that familiar with the DC area, only ever came here for business. The whole plane ride over I thought about the many ways this can go all wrong. I have to do this though, I embarrassed her when I broke it off with her so I should be able to put myself out there to try to fix this.

My first mission is to get a rental so I can go find her. I haven't even eaten yet, been nervous all day.

I made up my mind I was going to deal with my pops when I get back. My mama was right I need some time to cool my head. Right now I don't want to even think about that.

I walked around to the car service area and grabbed a rental then headed straight to see her. The closer I got to the campus the more nervous I got. What the hell am I walking into? What if she moved on completely with someone else?

I need to know if things are still mutual between us.

Pulling into the campus I parked and got out. Finding my way to the front desk of her building, I went ahead and pulled my ID knowing they're going to ask for it. I didn't even know if she was here right now or not. She could be in class, it's the middle of the day.

"Hi, how may I help you?"

"Hi my name is Adrian Adams and I was wondering if you could let Raina Jackson know I'm here."

"Ok do you have your ID, I'll need it if you plan to go up?"

"Yes, here you go." I handed it to her.

"One moment." She told me before dialing Raina's Dorm. I nodded.

I took in this moment to breath. I've never been more nervous in my life. If I want anything in life I should know discomfort, nervousness and fear comes with it. Especially if it's someone you really love, I really want things to workout between us. This is who I see myself being happy forever with.

"Hey Raina, you have an Adrian Adams here to see you."

There was a little silence before she spoke again. "Ok not a problem see you in a bit."

The front desk attendant hung up the phone.

"She will be down in a few minutes, if you would like to sit you can wait over there." She gave a warm smile pointing in that direction.

"Thank you." I went to sit over by a window where I could see her when she walked off the elevator.

I just have to be ok with whatever the outcome may be. She might not want shit to do with me. I did give up on us. I talked up a good game about how nothing was going to ever break us.

I sat scrolling through my phone to pass time. Perhaps to distract me a little, I was freaking out.

After about fifteen minutes later she slowly walked through the elevator door. She immediately spotted me and stood frozen. So I stood up in front of the seat I was seated in while we held eye contact.

She made even a plain white tee shirt and a pair of ripped blue jeans look good. The way the whole thing hug and clung on to her skin. She wore her hair down but combed back away from her beautiful almondy' face.

She finally broke eye contact with me, she put her head down. I could see all the hurt I cause all over her face. I started feeling a little doubtful about coming here, I'm not trying to play with her heart.

I thought again about my reason for coming. I said no matter what I was going to try, she deserves this level of possible humiliation from me. So I walked over to her not sure of what I was going to say.

"Hey Rai." I sheepishly smiled, and she looked up at me. I saw this painful fear in her eyes. God be with me.

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