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I was rushing out of the house to get to practice, I had to drive back home to get my gym bag.

I made it back in time for practice. I'm glad I wasn't late, that's an extra workout session added on. I don't want to stay over today my man's coming over, secretly to see me.

"Hey Raina, you're doing warm ups with Keshia today." Coach yelled, I got kind of excited.

Keshia was just as competitive as me. She's a junior so she'll be at the top shining next year. The girl's a beast, she already beat my time once. She's determined to do it again. I'll have to come back and check her out next year.

"Great, thanks coach."

"Hey Keshia, you ready?" I called out to her.

She smiled at me while walking in my direction. "Oh you know I am."

"Friendly competition at the end?" I squinted.

"I've been waiting to get another round, its your four to my one." She smirked which made me giggle a little. We give each other tips on our speed and breathing all the time.

"Cool let's get started."

Practice went on for couple hours then I went to the locker room to shower and head home. —Well that's what I wanted to do, I couldn't find my phone. I searched my gym bag, the locker room and my car. I couldn't find it.

I asked Sienna to call it, she stayed behind after practice helping me look for it. She called it and... my brother picked up.

I began to panic.

"Hello, this is Sienna. Raina and I were looking for her phone and I see she left it at home." She spoke cautiously.

"Yep, can you tell her to get home now please!" I heard him yell over the phone. Sienna glanced at me, I nodded.

"Ok I'll tell her,—bye." Sienna quickly ended it.

"Girl he sound so pissed off, shit he knows something."

"Fuck, shit! What am I going to do?" I panicked, slapping my hands down my sides.

"I don't know sis, you want me to go with you?"

"No because that's only going to piss him off more knowing you knew." I took a second to think. "Let me see your phone real quick."

She handed me her phone. I called Adrians phone.

"Hello." I mumbled, then heard my brother yelling in the background.

"Look Rai your brother knows, he went through your phone. He read our messages." He spoke loudly over Mikey shouting in the background.

"Oh my gosh, he's going to kill me."

"Look, Mike chill man." Adrian spoke loudly away from the phone.

"Who the fuck you think you talking to?" I heard Mikey shout.

"Aight man I told you, you need to let me explain." Adrian replied to him.

"No need to explain, we're suppose to be boys and you over here fucking my sister."

"What!?!" I yelled out loud.

"Mike I'm not fucking your sister." Adrian corrected in a calm tone.

"Look Rai, I'm trying to stay here until you get here but I'm not sure how much longer and Mikes drinking. Call Leah please and tell her to get here."

"Ok." I said before ending the call.

I called Leah, she said she was on her way not far from the house. Her aunt was meeting her to pick KJ up so he wouldn't have to see Mikey like that.

I hugged Sienna good bye, handed her her phone then got in my car and headed home. I drove in complete silence. My nerves were shot, I don't want to face this.

Unfortunately for me, the drive home was not long. No heavy traffic, no roadblock or anything. The closer I got the more I was panicked. I could feel my pulse beating through my fingertips from gripping the steering wheel so tight.

I eased up the driveway, parked then slowly got out. Leah was already here I spotted her Denali parked. I took my time sneaking inside the house.

Once I entered shutting the door behind I heard a lot of noise. I could make out some of what was being said. I headed in that direction, next thing I know I heard a loud boom. Like something or someone fell against the wall. I hurried in the living room. I saw Mikey had Adrian on the ground choking him. Leah was trying to break them up, I ran over trying to help pull Mikey off.

"Rai back up, that's only going to make it worse." Adrian spoke almost breathless. He was trying to pry my brothers hands off his neck, not trying to fight him at all.

It was too late Mikey ended up pushing me out of the way. I landed on the floor and bumped my elbow.

"Ow ." I squealed, grabbing Adrians attention.

"You alright Rai?" Mike asked through his clenched teeth. Still looking down at Adrian. He still held a tight grip around Adrians neck, obviously not enough to kill him.

"Yeah, you just need to calm down."

"Me calm down? Your fast ass telling me to calm down?" He spat.

"Really Mikey, you have it all wrong." I pleaded.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now Rai?" He yelled while adding a knee into Adrians rib. I went back over to help Leah pull him off.

"Mike, that's enough!" Leah yelled sternly.

"Nah man fuck that, I'm not gon' just sit here and let him take advantage of my little sister."

"Mikey it's not like that, I swear it's not." I begged for understanding.

He held his grip on Adrian, Adrian finally punched Mikey in the rib trying to get free. He then loosened his grip and pushed himself off of Adrian.

From the looks of everything, they had already shared a few punches before we got here. Adrians lip was bleeding and my brothers eye was bruised.

"So you want me to sit here while somebody else takes advantage of you?" He slurred, plopping down making a seat for himself beside Adrian. He was still laying on the floor. They were both out of breath.

"You're over reacting Mikey —and please shut up. —How did you get my passcode anyway." I asked trying to distract him from what he was about to say.

Adrian mustered up enough energy to sit up leaning his back against the wall. He gave me a puzzled look.

"I know you Raina, like the back of my hand. I know you have a thing about odd numbers so I took a wild guess. Dads birthday, all even numbers." He paused turning his attention to Adrian. "Wait I see what you just did. —So you don't know about her getting raped at ten years old. You don't know-"

"Shut up, why would you do that?" I shouted interrupting his confessions.

He made a snarky little smirk and shook his head repeatedly. Which pissed me off so I charged at him.

"Why do you have to be so fucking stupid all the time." I yelled in his face before slapping him. Leah pulled me away from him.

Adrian stood up frozen, he was in shock. I stared at him and then Leah. They shared the same look my brother had on his face almost eight years ago.

I grabbed my phone off the table, ran upstairs to my room quietly locking my door behind me. I couldn't bare being exposed like that anymore, something I wasn't ready to share.

I started to panic and my breathing picked up. So I grabbed my antidepressants and a cup of water from the bathroom sink. I removed all the pills from the bottle and placed the empty container beside the tub. I started downing all of the pills, followed by chugging down the water in two big gulps. I then turned the water on in the tub, then stripped myself of my clothing. I folded them up neatly and placed them in the near hamper.

Tears were streaming down my face. I was shaking profusely. I started getting drowsy and my body started feeling numb all over. I could already feel my troubles fading away. I smiled to myself as I stepped in the water making myself comfortable while the tub continued to fill.

Things will be so much easier around here without me. I'm sure of it. —I just want it all to be over. The little good I had was now tainted. Secrets out and I no longer want to live with this. The Nelsons my foster family, they win. They've had a hold over my life for so long, I'm done.

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