《Her Hidden Self | ✓》8| Darkness & Lonely together
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❝Then all of a sudden she changed. She became a completely different person with a new mindset, a new outlook, a new soul.
The girl that once cared way too much about everyone and everything, no longer cared at all❞
My throat dried and I could feel the rapid beats of my heart, drumming against my rib cage. My stomach churned and twisted, just like how I twisted the doorknob mercilessly. I tried to wriggle, shake, to do anything to open the goddamn door.
Then, I heard the most beautiful sound, music to my ear, the click, the sound of door unlocking.
I furrowed my eyebrows when the door still didn't open. Then I realized that the sound of the door unlocking came from behind me?
I hastily turned around and saw the bathroom door opening slowly, like whoever was behind that door was testing me, how much I could take.
The door finally opened, revealing the devil behind it, wearing blue denim jeans and white T-shirt with converse. His alluring hazel eyes sparkled at me, Confused as I stood there wide eyed.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?" I burst out. Although a teeny-weeny, little, tiny, minute part of me was quite relieved that it was just him and not some other sick twisted guy.
"I can ask you the same question, you know?"
"I was umm looking around?" I said, though it came out more like a question.
"Of course, you were" He smirked at me. God! How badly I wanted to punch him for some reason.
I looked at him, narrowing my eyes into slits and asked "Now tell me, what are you doing here?"
"Some idiotic guy spilled his drink on me, so I came here to wash it off" He cursed gesturing towards the big wet patch on his white T, which became transparent and now was showing his chest.
I took a deep breath, turning around, so that my back was facing him and tried to open the door.
He let out something incoherent, then I heard footsteps coming close to me. "What are you doing?" I heard him asked.
"The answer of that question will be revealed by the god's give thing, We call eyes"
"Haha! Aren't you very funny?"
"Wasn't trying to be"
I cursed under my breath, when the door sill didn't open. Straightening my posture, I kicked the door.
"We are fucking locked here" I growled turning towards him. It's not that I was angry at him or me, I was just angry at the fucked up situation.
"Easy there Tiger! Here let me try" He looked at me with amusement. I moved away from the door as he took my previous position and opened the door, well tried to.
Sighing tired, I walked towards the bed and plopped down. I looked at him as he tried to open the door, running his hands through his smooth chocolatey hair, frustratingly.
"I can feel you, throwing cold hard glares at my direction" He chuckled, without turning to face me.
I scoffed out loud "Do something, open that fucking door"
"I can't," He sighed, turning around and rested his body against the door and looked at me pouting.
Gritting my teeth, I asked "Do you have your phone, right now?"
"Well yeah.."
"Then, what are you waiting for? Call Finn!"
He rolled his eyes, shoving his hand in Jean's pocket and took out his iPhone.
I watched him intently as he dialled the number, noticed his every movement as he again ran his hands through his hair or the way he was looking at me with the phone pressed against his right ear, Everything.
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He frowned and again dialled the number, before pressing the phone against his ear.
"What Happened?" I asked, frowning.
"That damn fucker is not picking up"
Then I realized that I left him downstairs fully drunk. No wonder why he was not picking up.
Sighing I said "Call someone else" He raised an eyebrow, then slowly nodded.
I waited as he dialled the numbers of our friends Calling for help. Unfortunately it was all waste, either the phones were switched off or nobody picked up. Our friends really loved and cared for us.
"Now what?" I was frustrated and got even more frustrated, when he looked so calm.
"I don't know. Am not Google"
I was about to give him a piece of mind, when suddenly my eyes widened as I saw him peeling off his white T.
"What the fuck do you think, You are doing?" I hurried towards his side.
"I am removing my T-shirt, Duh!"
"Why?"
"Because it's wet. Again Duh!"
Reaching towards him, I caught his hands just as he was about to take it off "But, what if I don't allow you to remove it?" I spat harshly.
He smirked slightly leaning in, taking advantage of our slight closeness and said "It's alright, I allow you to allow me to remove it"
I felt his hot breath caressing my face as I quickly pulled away, glaring at him. He shot me a wide grin and in another instant his T-shirt was off, showing his toned chest and carved six abs.
Leaving the Tee on the floor, he fell on bed. He puts his hands under his head as he laid there lazily humming a tune to himself.
What the actual fuck?
"Fucking prick" I muttered under my breathe, walking towards the locked door and banged it angrily.
"I heard that, grumpy pants"
"Of course you did! After all you have ears" I barked at him harshly and again banged the door.
"They can't hear you though" I heard him mumble. Of course! He was right. Nobody could hear me, the music was blasting really loud downstairs.
After getting tired of my failed attempts, I rested my back against the door and slid down, sitting on the floor.
~~~
God knows, how much time passed away with us just laying and sitting there. Waiting for someone or something, anything to happen.
We even tried to call our friends again and by we, I mean he obviously, but no one picked up.
"It's not that bad you know?" He spoke up, just as I felt the music and voices getting down. The party was ending, I thought
"What are you trying to say?"
Rolling his eyes, he turned his head towards me and said "I mean, It could've been worse, Lik-"
He didn't even finish his sentence, when suddenly the light got cut off and instant darkness fell upon us, complete darkness threatening me.
"I take every single thing I said back" He said quickly. After that, silence and darkness filled the room.
I let out a shaky breath as I told myself to calm down. It was just darkness, nothing special, just absence of light. I kept repeating that in my head and tried not to think about how familiar it felt to my Nightmare.
"You bring nothing, But destruction"
Suddenly Her voice rang in my mind as I quickly shut my eyes , begging myself to not to think about that, at least not there, not that time. I gulped down, Reminding myself to breathe.
Images flashed in front of my eye lids as I closed my eyes even more tightly. I felt my hands shake slightly, so I quickly clenched my fist trying to stop it.
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"Everything is your fault"
"Ethan?" His name came out of my mouth like a prayer, a breathless desperate prayer. Like a beg for a moment of peace, before I get swallowed by those wicked whispers.
"I think that's the first time I've ever heard you speak my name," He said cheerfully, for a moment it seemed like he was actually trying to distract me and it was working.
"Don't get used to it"
"I would never" He swore, Then quickly added "By the way, what was your name again? Ice? Snow? Cold?"
"You fucki-"
"Oh yeah! Now I remember It's Winter, Right?" He asked slyly, although I couldn't see him but I knew he was smirking.
"Go to hell!" I grumbled pulling my legs to my chest and put my head on it. The room was dark, the floor was cold; but surprisingly nothing bothered me at that moment.... Well except from my heels, they were killing me.
"Sorry, but I only go on vacation there" He replied cheekily. Bastard!
Ignoring his remark, I asked "What time is it?" Still sitting on the floor, I took off my heels and threw them somewhere around the room.
"I told you before, I ain't no Google"
"Just tell me"
"How?"
"Check your phone, Dumb-ass!"
"My ass is not dumb and battery died" He retorted as I sighed. He was being too much but it was preferable than sitting in silence and thinking.
"Come again?"
"My ass is no-"
"Shut up! You said, ''your phone's battery died?" I asked, shocked. That night was getting better and better. Not.
"Yup and I also think we should sleep, it must be very late"
"No one asked your opinion" I snorted
"Whatever. I am gonna sleep, ''he said as I heard soft rustling on the bed.
"Sure, go ahead. You should have a good long eternal sleep"
"Can you not sentence me to death and disguise it as kindness?" I heard him mumble.
Rolling my eyes, I Buried my face in my knees and just like that, the thick sheet of silence covered us.
I closed my eyes and tried to sleep too. The soft 'Good night' was last the thing I heard as the darkness consumed me.
~~~
Drop. Drop. Drop. Drop. Everything was quiet, except the sound of water droplets falling, which echoed like a scream.
I was sinking somewhere deeper and deeper. What was it? Ocean? Lake? River? I didn't know, I was just sinking.
"You deserve to die," Then, I heard it, that cold evil whisper that always haunted me.
I jolted as I realized that I was drowning in water, holding my breath I looked around, but saw nothing except darkness and felt the water pulling me down.
"She was right, You killed her"
Again I heard that hazardous whisper. I whimpered as my lungs burned with the need to breathe, trying to suck in a breath, I looked up and saw a faint reflection of light from the surface.
"I hate you so much"
Her voice echoed, I desperately tried to block it and swam towards the surface. Frantically, looking around for someone or something to hold onto.
"Just leave!"
I could hear everything, she had said to me ringing. Images from the past were whirlwinding around like a tornado ready to destroy everything in its way. Ignoring it, I just swam speedily, trying to reach the surface.
I breathed heavily as I finally arrived there , inhaling as much as air I could. The faint reflection of that light was the only source as I quickly looked around floating.
"It's not water," That whispered spoke, it sounded deadly, like it would not hesitate to kill me, slowly and painfully.
"It's her tears," I heard it said. I froze in my place scared, I was drowning in tears?
"You destroyed her, broke her in every way possible"
I started to shake staring towards that small light, hoping it would save me, would kill the darkness, but it didn't. It didn't save me and just looked at me, it felt like that light was smiling evilly, enjoying. Telling me that I deserved it.
"And now she's crying because of you," Just as that whisper spoke, I heard her cries, screams and it broke me.
"I am sorry, please don't cry" I pleaded, my own eyes started filling with tears. I couldn't see her or anything, But I could hear her crying and so I begged her to stop.
"She is so broken"
"She is so alone"
"It's your fault"
There were lot's of whispers, torturing me, hating me for what I did. I begged them to stop, begged her to stop crying. I told her that I was sorry, that I would do anything. But she didn't stop and neither did those whispers.
"You killed her"
"Please stop it" I let out, tears were streaming down my face endlessly. Suddenly, I started to feel the unconsciousness kicking in, my eyelids were getting heavy, my body was losing its energy.
And just like that, I started drowning in her tears. The tears that she let out all because of me. I was sinking deeper and deeper, but this time I didn't protest accepting my fate and let it pull me down.
~~~
Gasping for air, I woke up startled. Anxious and scared of the unknown, the darkness fell like a curtain on my vision and the nightmare started to feel real.
Trembling, I quickly got up feeling weak for some reason and let out a whimper as I couldn't see anything. I took deep breaths trying to control my breathing, but it didn't work. Afraid, I reached out to grab something, but found nothing in darkness. I felt defeated.
"Come"
I heard a soothing voice, then a warm hand enveloped mine. I froze as realization hit me and all the memories come flashing back, party, room, lock, Ethan! Before I could say something, the hand tugged me forward slowly.
Frozen I let it pull me. Then I felt it, the comfy warm mattress under me as someone gently took me and laid down.
"I am absolutely fine, you know?" I croaked just as I got my voice back. We were laying on bed awfully close. too close for my liking.
"Shh.. Sleep" He whispered in his silky voice. I could feel him gently, ever so slightly patting me, like a baby.
Dizzy in the soft soothing sensation, I closed my eyes and slowly scoot closer to him comfortably and once again let darkness consume me.
I had so much fun working on this chapter. Staying up late to write is my new favorite hobby!
As you know or maybe you don't, I am on a break from Wattpad. But, I didn't want to hang this story in between, so I updated :) I was excited to share this with you all, hope you like it!
Don't forget to vote, If you like it and comment what you think.
Bye, Take care! And don't forget, you are never fully dressed without a smile :)
Love, Zee...
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