❝She is a paradox. She is faithful yet detached. She is committed yet relaxed. She loves everyone yet no one. She is sociable but also a loner. She is tough yet so gentle. She is passionate but also can be platonic. In short, she is predictable in her unpredictability❞

Three months. I was stuck with basket ball team for three whole months, which sounded like pure torture. But turned out Coach was actually really glad to have me as a helper.

"That's Nathan, ma buddy!" Finn said, pointing towards a dirty blonde haired guy who was on ground stretching. I nodded as my mind registered another name. Although I was sure that by the end of the day I would forget all zillions names, I've heard.

Shaking my head, I asked "Why are these girls here and why the fuck these guys are stretching in front of them?"

Finn grinned cheekily and said "You know what they say?"

"What?" I asked not taking my eyes from those girls, who were standing there eyeing those guys and cheering.

"People will stare, make it worth their while" He remarked, winking at me.

"You guys are delusional" I muttered.

"Well Come on, you still have to meet a few more people" He told me as he made his way towards his team mates. Rolling my eyes I followed him.

"Hey! Winter, fancy seeing you here" Theo grinned getting up from ground as he saw us coming.

Of fucking course he is in Basketball Team I thought.

"Well, she is Coach's new helper" Finn elaborated running his hand through his brown hair.

"For three months only" I muttered coldly, convincing myself.

"Really? That's great! You're going to love our team" Theo said, flashing me a broad grin and raised his hand, giving a thumbs up.

"Not the whole team but sure" Finn said chuckling.

"Yo guys! Who's this chica?" A boy with light golden hair asked, coming our way. Oh god! Give me a fucking break.

"Easy there mate! You have a girlfriend" Theo spoke jokingly, shoving that guy's shoulder lightly.

"Yes! Whom I love very much, thank you" He deadpanned.

"Winter, this is Alexander. Alex for short, please. He'll be pissed otherwise " Finn said gesturing towards the golden boy, standing there.

"Winter huh? So you are the new helper?" Alex asked as he offered me a genuine smile.

"Unfortunately" I muttered under my breath.

He grinned and said "You'll have so much fun here" to which I didn't bother to reply.

"And that's my main man Ethan," Theo hollered, dragging Ethan to us. He froze at his place when he saw me standing there.

"What are you doing here?" Ethan asked with clear horror and shock visible on his face.

"Well, she's our new team helper" Alex explained slowly, clearly sensing the sudden change in air.

Ethan looked at Alex then at me growling "You've got to be kidding me"

Gritting my teeth, I said bitterly "You don't have to look so happy. The feelings are mutual"

"Shut up, Freak!" He spat harshly.

"Or what would you do? Jackass"

"Bitch"

"Asshole"

"Twat"

"Jerk"

"Skunk"

"Douchebag"

"I seriously don't know what bad blood is going on between you, but can you try to be polite?" Finn said, chuckling.

"Fuck off" I grumbled, giving him a glare as a gift.

"You guys come one, at least try to get along" Theo pouted looking back and forth between me and Ethan.

Ignoring him and everyone I took a step towards Ethan and said "Stay twenty meters away from me and we'll get along just fine"

This is going to be the longest three months of my life. I thought about leaving everyone and walked out of the gym.

~~~

A few strands of my hair flew as warm air wrapped its hands around me. I walked towards the cafeteria flowing through the hallway.

I ordered a burger and went to sit with my friends at our table but stopped in my tracks as I saw lots of people sitting on our table. Why is it so crowded? was the first question that came in my mind.

"Hey Winter," Finn yelled beaming as he saw me. What the fuck these guys are doing?

Alex, Finn and Nathan... I think one more girl was sitting casually with my friends as if it's the most natural thing.

"Why are you late?" Kate asked, raising her eyebrow.

"I guess, It's because I didn't make it in time" I muttered and went to the empty seat, beside Finn.

"What are you guys doing here?" I asked, trying my best not to seem annoyed. I wasn't a big fan of having lots of people around me.

"What does it look like?" Theo said grinning. When I didn't said anything, Maria spoke "I didn't knew that you were friends with these people"

"Neither did I" I said, sighing.

"Don't be silly! We'll get along really well" Finn said. Don't know why but my appetite was just dead.

"By the way Winter meet my girlfriend Sharon" Alex said gesturing towards a blonde girl beside him. I squinted my eyes, she looked awfully familiar and then it hit me.

"Hey! you are the girl from earlier right, Sharon?" I asked

She nodded giggling and said "Yes. Thanks for standing up against Ericka though. You were total killer"

I shrugged and said "Don't mention it. Someone had to put her in her place"

"Since no one is introducing me. I 'll do it myself" Nathan mumbled.

Then Giving me a boyish smile he said "Hello Winter! I am Nathan, you can call me Nate"

Nodding my head I mumbled "And I am not going to introduce myself cause you already know my name"

"He's hot, Isn't he?" Maria whispered in my ear. I rolled my eyes at her and said "I thought you weren't into boys"

Shrugging her shoulder she said "I am not. But that doesn't mean, I can't appreciate boys" Giving me a smirk. I shook my head at her and took a sip from my water bottle.

"Well everybody's here but Where's Ethan?" Theo asked, furrowing his eyebrows.

"Do you know where he is?" Finn asked me, giving me a knowing smile.

"How the fuck am I suppose to know, where that jerk is?" I asked giving him a cold expression

"Well you two seemed very clo-" Nathan, I mean Nate began to say but abruptly stopped in the middle, when I threw a vicious glare at his direction.

"Man I can get used to this" Alex said wrapping his arm around Sharon's shoulder.

"Yeah me too. Theo, why didn't you introduce us to your friends before?" Finn asked, throwing a French fry at him.

"I forgot?" Theo reasoned giving him a sheepish smile.

Although there were a lot of people around me, lot's of friends but still a part of me felt lonely. I shouldn't be feeling that, but still I felt as if I didn't belong there. I didn't know why a part of me felt hollow, empty. They weren't supposed to be with me.

"So Winter what do you think?" Kate inquired, breaking me out from my thoughts.

"What?" I asked absentmindedly.

"There's a great Cafe I know and I think we should go there. Their cappuccino is obsessive" Sharon explained

I shook my head and said "I am just gonna go to my dorm and sleep. You guys can go without me"

"Oh come on! We'll have so much fun" Maria pouted childishly, crossing her arms over her chest.

"I don't think so," I muttered. I couldn't believe I was saying no to Cappuccino.

~~~

Time flew away fast. The guys went for their practices and girls to Cafe, although they forced me very much, but I didn't want to go.

Wrapping my arms around my body, I walked towards my dorm room. My bag hanging on my shoulder; bouncing in the air with every step I took.

I let out a shaky breath as my hand touched the door handle, pushing it open. Silence crept over me drowning me in as I closed the door behind me.

I wanted to be alone yet I was so scared to be lonely or maybe I was scared of the silence that loneliness carried. Because only then I could hear my screaming thoughts, the echoes of the past, footsteps trying to catch up with me.

I avoided thinking at any cost because thinking would lead me to over thinking and my mind was like a tunnel, the further I got into it, the darker it gets.

Trying to distract my mind, I decided to clean up a little because our room was messy, well what else to expect from two girls?

After cleaning the whole fucking room and throwing all the dirty clothes in laundry basket. I took a long relaxing shower and changed into my Pjs.

I picked all of my books and notes from my bed and put on our study table. My breath hitched as I saw that familiar notebook. That notebook consisted of my thoughts, my poems, everything I've ever written, my memories.

I remembered when I used to love writing, it was my Nirvana, my escape. I used to write even when I felt like falling apart.

I flipped through the pages as my finger skimmed every word. I used to pour my heart out in the form of words on those blank papers, ready to keep my secrets to itself, safe and secure.

My eyes scanned the poems and stories scribbled, from a long time ago and let out sigh. My eyelids felt really heavy and my body yearned for sleep. I closed my notebook and buried it in a drawer under heaps of my textbooks so that Maria wouldn't see.

My head started to ache as I felt dizzy and in an instant I fell on bed hoping for a peaceful sleep without nightmares.

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