❝ She is beautiful piece of broken pottery, put back together by her own hands.

and a critical world judges her crack while missing the beauty of how she made herself whole again❞

. What is regret? Regret is a feeling of sadness or disappointment over an occurrence or something that one has done or failed to do. Regret is a form of punishment itself, punishment for taking the wrong decisions.

Regret may seem like a small word but it holds so much power and that power is enough to destroy a person, a soul. It's the worst kind of pain, yeah guilt is bad and sadness is bad, but regret is a sickly combination of both. Everyone has regrets; I do too.

I made a mistake in the past and now I am living with the consequences; I regret it, I really do. They say, live without regrets but the biggest question is how? Because no matter where I go or what I do that regret always haunts me like a phantom.

"Wake up!" I heard my roommate and also my best friend Maria's voice yell. Little did she know that I wasn't asleep, that no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't sleep, that it's been a while. She didn't know, nobody did.

"Am up" I muttered, getting up and resting my head against the headboard. I groaned as I felt throbbing pain in my skull; probably due to lack of sleep.

"Didn't sleep well?" She asked and that's when I realized that she was already dressed up wearing denim shorts and her favorite tank top, her bronze hair tied up into a high ponytail.

You have no idea. I wanted to say but didn't, instead I nodded meekly.

"I am gonna grab coffee for us, so you better get your lazy ass outta the bed and shower" She ordered as she made her way out of our dorm. She could be bossy when she wanted to be.

I massaged my temples getting up from bed and dragged myself to the bathroom, which was an absolute mess obviously thanks to Maria.

I nearly stopped brushing my teeth when I looked at myself in the mirror. My blue eyes looked so dull and there were dark bags under them, telling secrets of the thousands of sleepless nights. What a mess. My mind wandered through all the bad memories as I quickly shook my head clearing my thoughts. After I finished brushing, I quickly jumped in shower.

The cold, chilled water smashed my body as I instantly felt my muscles relaxed. There's nothing more calming than a cold shower.

After a whole twenty minutes I was all ready to hit the college in my black skinny jeans and a black crop top. I was applying my scented lip balm when the door burst open.

"Bitch! You better be ready. We are getti-" Maria stopped in middle of the sentence when she saw me "Thank fucking god" She exhaled in relief.

"Where's my Coffee?" I asked impatiently.

She rolled her eyes and took out a coffee cup from the paper bag, which I didn't notice she was holding.

"What will you do without me?" She spoke amused, handing me my coffee.

I froze at my place as the words left her mouth. Those words sounded awfully familiar and just like that, unwanted memories swirled through my mind.

"Winter. You okay?" Maria asked, confusion laced her tone.

"Fine" I snapped and took the coffee from her hand, taking a big sip. Control. Breathe.

"Well let's go! We're getting late" She said grabbing our bags.

We walked through the hallway packed with students and Freshmans, who looked extremely excited and determined. Poor people, they didn't know the storm of assignments and horror that was coming, their way.

"So do you have any free class?" Maria asked with hope filled in her eyes as she gazed at me and it didn't take me long to realize the reason.

"Let me guess. You were busy partying last weekend, now have incomplete assignments and want someone to help you with them" I let out and the sheepish look that she gave, confirmed my theory.

I rolled my eyes. For a moment a part of me was tempted to refuse and to have some time for myself, but I kicked that idea out of my head. Being alone was not something I adored.

"Sure. I am free after Lunch" I nodded, taking a sip of my coffee. The hot steamy liquid tasted like heaven on my lips.

"Thanks babe. You are the best" She squealed and I instantly felt the pain in my skull getting worse.

"Hey girls. Wait!" A voice yelled from a distance behind, making me stop in my tracks.

I turned around and saw Kate making her way towards us. Her blonde hair bouncing in the air as she walked as fast as she could; with her boyfriend Theo and his best friend Ethan, following behind.

I let out a sigh. Talk about bad timing.

"Sup?" Maria greeted them cheerfully.

"I told you guys to have something healthy for breakfast, other than that dark liquid" Kate furrowed her eyebrows as she saw our coffee cups. Clearly she wasn't a great fan of coffee.

"Sorry, unlike you, we don't have a boyfriend who can cook us delicious breakfast, when we wake up" I muttered. Just as Theo came greeting us with a shadow of a grin casting on his pale face.

""Hello pretty ladies"

"Hey!" Maria cheered, while I just nodded at him not giving any verbal reply. He was a nice looking, built guy with light brown hair and deep sparkly caramel eyes.

I respected that he and Kate were dating, but just because you are dating my best friend doesn't mean that we have to be all buddy-buddy. I am fine with just being..... What's the word? Acquaintances.

"Good morning" Ethan spoke in his thick voice, nodding at us or more like at her in acknowledgement. I rolled my eyes not bothering to say anything

Ignoring everyone's chattering I spoke "I am gonna go to my class. See you later"

It was the beginning of our final year in college, but it still felt like first, nothing has changed much. Yeah nothing. This college was supposed to be my fresh start after everything that had happened. But as I said before nothing has changed.

I went inside my class and saw a couple thoroughly making out in the back seat and a girl with thick glasses hiding in her book desperately trying to block the unholy noises that couple were making. Poor girl.

I chuckled at her misery and took my usual seat. Thankfully I didn't get the chance to take matters in my hand and do something wicked to separate them, because other students started to fill in and they eventually pulled away.

"That's my seat." I heard a high pitch voice screeching. I looked towards the direction where the voice came from and saw Ericka talking to a guy.

Ericka Morgan. Well saying that Ericka was our typical stereotype fake bitch, blonde bimbo and blah blah bullshit would be a complete lie, because clearly she wasn't. In fact she had raven black hair and beautiful green eyes.

But that doesn't change the fact that she was quite bitchy and egoistic. She acted like that college belonged to her; technically it did. That college was her Father's, well step father but whatever.

"Good Morning! Students" Our professor said enthusiastically as she entered the classroom, but unfortunate for her no one matched her enthusiasm.

This is going to be a long class. I thought as I settled comfortably taking out my notepad and my phone for some music.

~~~

After finally finishing with my classes I walked towards the campus's Cafeteria, flowing through the latest gossip. Like how our college's power couple threw a grand party to celebrate their two years anniversary or that our two professors caught getting it on in the faculty lounge.

I entered the cafeteria and saw everyone sitting and talking happily. Theo, Kate and Maria looked quited engrossed in their conversation, while Ethan was sitting there with the phone in his hand. His messy dark chocolate brown hair fell on his forehead as he looked down at his phone.

"Yo! Winter, heard the news?" Maria asked as I approached the table with a bored look.

"What news?" I asked as I took the seat beside Ethan, unfortunately that was the only vacant seat.

"Mr. Smith and Ms. Moore caught-" She began

"doing horizontal tango in faculty room" I completed her sentence rolling my eyes and added "So I've heard"

"I knew there was something going on between them, I mean they were always eye fucking each other" Kate chimed her blue eyes sparkling. Her personality was really bubbly and cheerful, unlike mine.

"Sure," I muttered as I got up from my seat and went to buy something for myself. Although I wasn't hungry and just wanted to sleep for a while. Yeah sleep would do.

"BUY ME FOOD?" I heard Maria yell as I ordered my Oreo shake. Every single student present in the cafeteria looked at her, not like she cared anyway. I shook my head and ordered her favorite Taco.

"I ain't made of money" I grumbled taking my seat as she took the Taco from my hand and started devouring it.

Someone shouted in the background, seconds before, when my phone buzzed in my jeans pocket. Startled by the sudden combination of both sounds, I jumped causing to spill my shake on Ethan's phone.

"What the fucking hell!" He let out profanities as he tried to clean his phone with a tissue, resting on the table. As much as I wanted to laugh at his reaction. It was my fault and now I had to do something.

"Fuck" I cursed under my breathe. I thought about apologizing, I mean it doesn't take much to be polite.

"Are you crazy? What the fuck is your problem?" He asked. His hazel eyes were blazing with wild flames of burning fire, making them more dazzling as he looked at me with indignation.

I clenched my jaw and said "I was actually going to apologize, but you are acting like a pathetic asshole, so you don't deserve one"

"Watch your words" He warned with a dark look. Venom dripped his words.

"I won't" I spat harshly. Anger boiling inside me like a volcano ready to erupt.

"Go to hell! Bitch"

"I must be in hell since you are already sitting here" I muttered under my breath, looking at him with a bored look.

"Just fuck off, can't you just leave me alone? I can't tolerate you" He barked.

"Gladly, who wants to be you anyway? Goddamn intolerant bastard"

Scoffing, I turned my head to the opposite direction and looked around us and saw everyone simply eating and chatting, no one seemed even slightest bit concerned, like there wasn't a world war III going on.

To be honest I didn't blame them, It was now a regular thing for them and they were pretty much used to it.

I still remember the first day when me and Mr. Moody here got into an argument in Parking lot, seriously that time everyone was watching us, as if we were doing an exorcism on an Alien.

I gave an one last glare to Ethan which he didn't hesitate to return and turned my attention towards Maria and telling her "I am going to the library, after you done eating, meet me there"

"What Maria and Library?" Kate asked, shocked as if she couldn't believe what she heard. It wasn't her fault though, there was a big chance of a nun becoming a stripper than Maria going to the library.

Maria smile sheepishly and mumbled "I have lots of incomplete assignments and Winter is helping with them"

"Me too Mar! Me too" Theo sighed making Maria grinned widely as they shared a high five.

Well not a lot of people knew about it but Maria was the one who introduced Theo to Kate. She basically planned out the whole thing, much to no one's surprise it worked out perfectly. What a role of cupid, she played.

"Whatever. Bye" I grumbled, getting up from the table, after grabbing my bag, I exited the Cafeteria. Can't wait to finish this mess and leave I thought as I made my way towards the library.

But little did I know that it was just the beginning of a prolonged and vicious journey, which I was not sure would lead me to a beautiful destination.

Hello cheeky Fellas! Sending virtual Hugs.

So, you have read the first chapter. Although it didn't turned out as great as I wanted it to be but I really hope that you like it. As you already know, this is my first story, which am quite excited to share. I want to give you all a somersault of feelings. So tighten your seat belts, you are in for a long wild ride ;)

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Love, Zee...