me and mattia have been arguing nonstop

and at this point i want to break up with him so

i'm going to , i have a plane ticket to go back to

america

"hey can we talk" i asked

"what's wrong what do you want?" he said

"i think we should break up"

he looked at me like he seen a fucking

ghost

"what why?"

"because i can't keep arguing with you over dumb

shit , it's messing up mental state"

"val-

"mattia i can't i'm sorry this isn't for me , you coming

home late drinking dealing drugs out of the house i-i can't

anymore" i said

"you can't get away from me" he said

"and shit like that you controlling me and acting

like i'm your property"

"your in for a surprise love" he smiled

"thanks for everything i guess" i said walking away

"see you later"

i went to airport and felt free like mattia was a burden

on me

skip to when your home lmao

i walked in and it was the exact same and i felt

happy

i walked in my room and was startled by mattia siting

on my bed

"what the fuckkkkk" i yelled

"no need to yell my love" he smirked

"i'm not your love i need to get away from you , your

a burden on me like your acting like a psy-

he grabbed my neck and pushed me against the

wall

"your mines and your not breaking up with me

i'm trying to be nice to you what don't you get" he gritted

"you love me right?" i said

"yes"

"then let be happy alone not in a relationship with

you"

"fine you fucking bitch , your gonna regret this" he pushed me to the ground and left

are you happy now you

bastard

it's that or he's killed

it's your choice

read 4;15

of course i didn't wanna break up with him but

the arguing wasn't bad it was slim , but my dad is

blackmailing me with shit that'll make people hate me

mattia wouldn't look at me the same no one would ,

it left me in the darkest place in my life and i'm only

comfortable around mattia and he hates me now

i just went to be happy but it's never gonna happen

unless i confess to what i did

a/n

byeee