After our argument, Mia couldn't bear my presence.

She is avoiding me more than ever.

I noticed that every conversation we have ends up with us arguing together and I leaving her pissed off.

I feel like shit.

And I deserve that.

But I just can't tell her.

It will literally break her than she already is.

She has been spending so much time with that Blake guy.

He is like a damn gum, sticks with her wherever she went.

I am afraid there will be something between them soon.

That if there wasn't already..!

I can't lose my Mia's love.

I can't lose her, not anymore!

Today is Perla's party and Jass told me that Mia will be there so I definitely will be there as well to try and talk to her again.

I won't give up.

She won't get rid of me that easily.

We now arrived at Perla's and the party is already lit!

To be honest Perla's parties are always the best.

As soon as we arrived Rick went to hit on any girl while Ben, Adrian and I went to bring drinks.

"My girl is here!" Ben pointed making both Adrian and I look at where he is looking at.

He has been hitting on Ella since the first day he saw her.

He has been talking about her smile and how she shines with it, but Ella is giving him the cold shoulder even if it's too obvious that she has feelings for him as well.

"And mine as well," Adrian spoke smiling.

I fucking still don't know where they are looking at.

So, I followed them with my eyes seeing where they are heading at slowly until my eyes landed on her.

My beautiful Mia.

She is flawless.

She always was.

And I can't believe that I broke this beauty and let her slip away from me hating me like that.

I noticed that she always wore pants or shorts.

And she never was like that.

Because she always loved skirts and dresses and would drag me with her at the mall to just buy them, every new style that her eyes land on.

But that was the old Mia.

I guess she doesn't wear them anymore after what happened.

My heart aches for her.

We took everything she loved away from her.

Life is cruel for her.

I am such a dick!

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After we arrived at the party I brought a drink and my eyes met Jason's for a brief second before I shifted them away.

I can't believe that he is here.

Of course he would be here.

But I won't stop enjoying my time because of him so, I had to pretend as he just doesn't exist.

I then kept looking for Blake but I didn't look much as he texted me.

I then went as he told me waiting for him.

And there he was.

"Hey! You look awesome." He complimented me planting a kiss on my cheek. He was so close so, I was able to hear him over the loud music

"Thanks. You too." Progress! Did you see that? I replied to a compliment without being much awkward.

So proud of me.

"So where is my surprise?" I asked but he motioned to me that he can't hear clearly from the loud music that got even louder now. Are they trying to be deaf or what?

So, I approached him asking besides his ear." the surprise?"

He then looked at me with a big smile on his face and as soon as he was going to open his mouth and say something, a punch was thrown to his face.

"What the hell Jason!?" I yelled at him.

"Don't you dare and come near her I saw you kissing her!" Jason yelled.

I helped Blake to straighten up and check his face while Jason just glared at us." Are you two dating or what? Mia, you can't date hi--"

"That's none of your damn business Jason.," I yelled pushing Jason's chest that he took a very small step back. "Moreover he has a goddamn girlfriend that he adores, we are just friends!"

Jason's face paled. running a hand through his hair he muttered." I.. I didn't know..i.."

"That's the point Jason you don't have to know everything.

Some of us like to have privacy!" I yelled taking Blake away from here pushing Jason's shoulder while leaving.

We went to the backyard.

"You okay?" I asked worriedly.

"Yeah, all good. Thanks by the way." Blake said." I knew you would get him back so I stayed silent." He was trying to lift the mood. That's the kind-hearted Blake that I truly love and appreciate.

"Well someone had to put him in his place."

"Anyway, so the surprise is here.." Blake said smiling.

"Blake..?" A soft voice snapped our attention to it.

Not long after a very beautiful girl came from inside the house towards us.

"Is this..?" I asked still processing.

"Yes.." Blake nodded smiling at the beautiful girl, wrapping an arm around her waist. "Mia meet Jessy, my girlfriend."

"Hi, Mia nice to meet you. Blake told me so much about you." Jessy said smiling warily at me. I remember Blake telling me she is the shy type.

"Nice meeting you Jessy and god she is beautiful Blake way to go man!" I said punching his shoulder slightly.

"Thanks, I know I am a lucky man!" He said gazing at Jessy making her blush.

So cute!

"So did you like my surprise?"

"Are you kidding?" I gasped. "Best surprise ever I have been begging you to show her to me or introduce us but you were a dick."

"I just wanted it to be a surprise." He chuckled.

I kept chatting with the cute couple a little bit.

And Jessy is not only beautiful but has a great sense of humor as well.

She is so fun to be around.

Also, she and Blake have just that amazing chemistry..

They really belong to each other.

And literally I was dying to meet her but that dick Blake kept telling me not now!

So it's like the best surprise ever to finally see one of my closest friends' girlfriend that he has been talking nonstop about and hiding her.

After a while I excused myself leaving the couple for some alone time. So, I went to the bathroom.

While I was walking upstairs in the hallway passing through rooms to the bathroom I felt someone grab my hand shoving me into a semi-dark room.

A tough body pushed my back to the wall trapping me between his body and the wall.

"What the fuck do you want Jason? Why do you keep dragging me like that!?" I yelled trying to shove him off me. I really got fed up of his caveman ways.

"I am sorry but you won't speak to me willingly so, I had to drag you by surprise." He said lowly, his breath fanning my face.

"You are right and I am leaving," I said pushing past him but he grabbed me again to the wall pressing against me more closing all the space between us that our fronts were now glued together.

"Mia I am sorry for what I did to Blake.. I was just jealous and couldn't stand seeing him touching you. And I didn't know he had a girlfriend I a-"

"That's the problem, Jason, you think because you are the school's hot bad boy that you will get everything you want and know everything about everybody but news flash Jason you are just a damn fucking asshole that I hate more!" I really hate his arrogance and the way he thinks he has got everything is in the palm of his hand.

"Dammit Mia I am not like that and you know it. You fucking know me and I already told you I am sorry.." he yelled back. Looks like I hit a nerve.

"No, I don't know you anymore Jason. I fucking don't after what you did. I hate you, I hate you and I hate every single thing about you!" Now I really needed to cry but I just can't!! The waters can't fall anymore and that upsets me more.

"You are lying you can't hate me. Because we love each other that's why you avoid me so hard because you know that you will forgive me easily if you opened up for me like before."

"No, I am not and don't act like you know shit about me anymore cause you don't!"

"I love you Mia I fucking love you and that's enough for me to make me believe that I still know you."

I was going to say something back but he slammed his lips on mine. It took me by surprise and I tried to push him and break the kiss but he was stronger than me so he pushed me harder with his body against the wall gripping a hand of mine with his raising and pushing it on the wall above me deepening the kiss making me fall in it and enjoy it as well. I like things rough and heated and he knew it. He knows my weakness and he is using it.

I grabbed his hair roughly and he pulled me more to him by my waist, even though we were already glued together.

We kept kissing hungrily, passionately and oh god! I tried to break off the kiss and remember that I hate him and he broke me but I just couldn't.

I was captured in the lust and the beautiful feeling with sparks that I felt with him.

This kiss was everything that I have ever wanted every time I see him.

But I couldn't continue with that.

He broke me I can't forgive nor trust him yet.

So, I forced myself to break the kiss while his last words for me kept roaring in my head.

We cut the kiss and our foreheads were touching breathing heavily while he held me by the waist tightly and my arms rested on his shoulders.

"I love you Mia.." he muttered lowly taking his breath.

"I can't do that Jason.. I don't trust you," I said slipping out of his tight hold on me as his eyes filled with sadness.

And with that, I got out of the room running towards my motorcycle as gladly I came with it and went home.

How could I do something like that?

Why did I kiss him back?

More importantly, why did I enjoy it that fucking much and hoping to do it again?

I don't trust him

He broke me.

I hate how he makes me feel.

I hate how he makes me weak.

And I don't like feeling weak.

I fucking hate him..