He broke my trust so many times before.

He treated me like garbage.

He made me suffer alone.

He broke my heart.

Yet, I am here now sitting beside him as I needed someone to talk with right now.

He was the closest one to me even more than Jass. He knew more about me than her.

He could understand me more than anyone else. Even more than myself.

Keyword: could..

I don't feel like going home yet and I don't have my motorcycle, let alone I don't know where the hell I am.

I am a complete mess and need someone by my side now.

I agreed to go with him so he took me by his car to our usual thinking spot. The beach.

He kept silent giving me my space not bugging for answers

I felt like crying but I could not.

I didn't know how to cry anymore.

I tried.

I really did but I still couldn't.

I guess there are no tears left after the many times that I cried after my heart broke.

"Why didn't you tell me he was hitting you?" Finally, Jason spoke breaking the ice.

I thought about not answering him but then again there was nothing left to lose anymore.

He used everything to break me, he didn't keep anything.

And I really don't care anymore about what happens to me.

"I don't know.." I muttered." I guess I thought that would scare you away and you were so special and precious to me that I couldn't bear losing you."

"But I lost you now.." He sighed." And it's my fault, I am the one who pushed you away."

"It really doesn't matter anymore Jason." I shrugged." It's all in the past."

"No, it does matter Mia" He held my hand. " it really does and you have to know that I would have never done what I did if I wasn't forced to.."

I cut him off slipping my hand out of his hold as his eyes were consumed by regret." Jason, I really don't feel like talking about it."

He took a deep breath then asked."D..Do you have scars? From all the beating?"

"Yes," I answered honestly. Nothing to hide anymore. It doesn't matter.

The old Mia would feel embarrassed about admitting that to Jason but the new Mia don't care anymore because there will never be anything between them.

There was a moment of silence

Until Jason spoke again.

"I know you were in a gang.." Jason admitted.

"I know you know."

"Really? How?"

"Shouldn't I be the one to ask you that?" I lifted a brow." But to answer your question that time in detention when Rick slipped.."

"Yeah, that Jerk!"

"Its ok I don't mind. I am proud of it. It made me the woman I am now."

"Really you do? I mean are you really happy now? I know its all my fault and I really regret it but being in a gang..?"

"I will never regret joining it. In it, I found the family and people that I can trust. They helped me to be stronger and pass the state I was in." I then scoffed remembering that he himself is in a gang so he has no right to question my decisions." And aren't you in a gang? Also, mine is already ruined.. if it wasn't for that I would never come back."

"I am sorry Mia. I really am.. for everything."

"It's too late now Jason."

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"It's too late now Jason."

I felt my heart shatter into many pieces after hearing those words.

It really hurts me to think that she won't consider giving me a chance.

I ruined her life and I know it but it was because of that monster.

If she only lets me explain.

It crushed my heart more after hearing her confirm about having scars from her own dad

She will think now that it disgusted me or made me hate her but it did completely the opposite, it proved to me how much she is strong and could take so many pain alone.

What disgusted me is her own father doing something like that to her.

How could he do something like that to my innocent Mia?

Wasn't it enough what he already did...

I swear he won't get out of it that easily because he didn't only abuse her but he also ruined her life and Mia still doesn't know he is the reason for all of the misery.

He won't get away with it not anymore..

Not after he abused her and ma--

Just wait for me, asshole.

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"Did you hear about the trip?" Jane asked excitedly while we were eating at our lunchtime.

"Isn't that what everybody has been talking about today..?" I gave her the duh look.

"And that means you heard about it or not?" Jane asked dumbass written all over her face.

I rolled my eyes." yes I did silly!"

"So are we going?" She asked enthusiastically.

"Where is it again?" Damon asked.

"Hawaii!!" Jass said smiling widely clapping her hands, she is so excited and I really can't get why. It's only a trip." Isn't that exciting? Its only for seniors as it is our last trip in school."

"And isn't it like next month..?" I said as a matter of fact. "Why are we rambling about it right now when there is so damn plenty of time left to think about it later."

"Don't be such a boring brat Mia!" Jane grumbled." And it's like three weeks and a half left, there is no time we have to buy so many stuff and clothes!!"

"Exactly!!" Jass agreed.

"You are such a freak!" I huffed

"And you are such a buzz kill!" Jane stuck out her tongue.

Jason and his friends graced us with there suffocating presence, taking their seats on our table while Jane kept babbling about the trip.

"There will be so many hot half-naked guys! I can't wait till the trip come." Jane said dreamingly.

"I know right? It will be like heaven.." Jass agreed, daydreaming with Jane.

While Damon and Adrian just kept looking at them giving them 'are you serious' look however Jane and Jass were in their own bubble daydreaming about the half-naked men ignoring anyone else.

"You both do realize that you have boyfriends who are sitting right beside you?" Their silliness is beyond the average today. "Actually I am the only single one between you that have the right to drool on half-naked hot men." I teased both of them taking a sip from my soda.

Perks of being single.

"Did you hear that Jason?" Rick wiggled his eyebrows at Jason who looked pissed for god knows what.

"Shut up Rick!" Jason grumbled.

"I am single too crispy, I will join you drooling.." Rick winked, "but on girls."

"I really don't admit your presence," I said bluntly, While the rest of the table erupted in laughter. Even though I didn't find it that amusing.

"Ouch. That really hurts Crispy. I thought we were friends." He said dramatically. I am telling ya, this boy has something for drama.

"We were never and will never be friends because I simply hate you."

"I know deep down you love me crispy." Rick put his arm on my shoulder.

"Rick!!" Jason grumbled and Rick took his arm back off me before I could break his arm. What's up with Jason and that ass attitude?

"Don't worry dude I told you before I don't go out with girls who beat the crap out of me," Rick assured while I just rolled my eyes. If Jason is acting like a jealous freak then he has something else coming because he has no right, absolutely no right to get jealous.

"Yeah because that proves how much of a petty ass you are" Jane scoffed, scrolling down her phone screen, while Rick's ears turned to a light shade of red looking at the floor and the others just laughed amusingly at his burned ass, as I stared proudly at my Bitch.

"Aw, that's my girl.." Damon cooed pecking Jane's lips and her cheeks turned pink.

Eww!

But aww.

My babies are acting all cute and in love.

The rest of the lunchtime Rick kept babbling and asking about nonsense like 'why does a round pizza come in a square box?' Or 'would a fly without wings be called a walk?' and the most confusing one, ' If you throw a cat out a car window, does it become kitty litter?' While Ben kept cursing him with Jason rolling his eyes that I thought for a moment that they might just get stuck and I ignored him as usual.

But to be honest, his silly questions made me internally laugh.

I mean he is really funny when he doesn't humiliate you.

But I still hate him.

And for the lovely two couples, they kept making out or just act adorably together in their own bubble.

I still don't stand either of the four boys but because Adrian joins us for Jass so they join us as well, so, I have to suck it up and bear there suffocating presence.

And maybe I got used to them.

But still, ignore them.

And hate their guts.

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So after school, I went to eat out alone in a restaurant near the school as Jane and Damon had a date. While Jass had a cheer practice and Adrian was waiting for her to give her a lift then have dinner with her.

All my friends have a life while I am here eating alone playing some silly game on my phone to not go home yet and stay alone.

How pathetic!

After I finished eating I kept wasting so many time and spent the rest of the day there until it was already pitch black outside means time to head home and end that boring day.

As I went out of the restaurant making my way to the empty parking lot in this darkness that has like two other cars besides mine.

Suddenly a husky and cold voice stopped me dead in my tracks.

"I see you are still alive Mia.." The voice came from the dark alley behind me. "But that will change now."

Well.. Fuck!!