Warning! Blood and extreme angst are ahead, so if u don't feel like crying, I would skip this

also, just to remind everyone, this is a different ending. This is not the same as the main ending!

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During the fight with DreamXD

Suddenly, Tommy and Tubbo screamed a warning, their voices breaking and fraying in unison.

I turned at the last minute at the sound of quick footsteps, my attention tearing off of the dark god in front of me and the luminous blood streaming out of his broken void wing. My gaze followed the red threads that spat from his fingers.

Dream had the strings around his body, pulling his arm back with the netherite ax in hand. It was aimed at me, prepared to take me by surprise.

I ducked at the last second, the ax missing my head by an inch. Rocks dug into my dirty pants, breaking through the finely crafted sewing where I kneeled.

DreamXD was screaming out of pure terror and rage, shadows looming around him like a cape. I saw him twisting his hands this way and that to pull Dream in different directions, his aims to kill.

"Dream!" I screamed, continuing to back away. Desperation was clear in my voice, the balance of my magic tipping with the surge of emotion. "Stop!"

My body couldn't handle the power anymore, my bones melting with the lava that replaced my blood. A fierce wind picked up and there was a rumble of thunder off in the distance, rain on its way.

No longer could my goddess abilities hold off the great quake that was coming.

So when I felt the pools of magic and light overflow, mixing together to form a potion of death, I spun wildly away from Dream to face the god behind me with my hands raised.

Blinding white light burst from my hands, a strong beam shooting towards DreamXD. The light reflected off his pure white mask, illuminating what I imagined to be a look of fear and shock behind it.

He screamed then, an unnatural and broken sound. It shook me to my overheating core, which felt like it was burning me alive with magic.

My powers had never wanted to hurt me, and they still didn't, but they couldn't help the strength they had been given with not enough training. The magic wouldn't kill me, it would never be able to do that.

Suddenly there was a snap with the end of DreamXD's shrieking.

The red strings, no longer invisible, broke in half, severing the connection between Dream and his puppeteer. The strands fluttered to the scarred ground near DreamXD as he collapsed, dark smoke floating off of him.

Tommy and Tubbo were cheering, their shouts a bit muffled as my ears roared with adrenaline and power. I realized my whole body was shaking like a leaf, the divinity just holding on by a bit.

Gurgling and sickening wheezes squeezed their way out of DreamXD's sprawled body, the cape over his chest on fire with navy flames and lightning crackling above it in small streaks.

My feet wouldn't move, heavy with exhaust and weighted down with a threatening desire to throw up. So I stayed several feet away, watching as the god's mask tipped to the side and his chest stopped moving.

His body began to evaporate into dark smoke, disappearing into the ravine I had created with my magic. The lava would drink the smoke up and pull him down to whatever hellhole he came from.

The last part of him remained, his fingers twitching with one last rebellious movement. Then he was gone, forever from this world and from my heart.

You did it.

Euphoria crashed through me, fueled by exciting magic and rushing adrenaline. A floating feeling tingling in my feet despite the exhaust nipping at me with the shred of divinity leaving my body.

Sure my magic was left weak and unbalanced, and my godly connections had been fried, but I had defeated the god. There was still darkness left to defeat, but the master was brought to his knees.

I spun on my heel, seeing Dream standing blankly with his head hung. There was fatigue that hung around him as he gained his senses, his head swinging slightly.

"Dream!" I shouted, running towards him with a huge smile plastered on my face. Exhaust screamed in my limbs, trying to weigh me down, but the happiness surged me forward.

But with my back turned, I didn't see what had been DreamXD's final stand before he had disappeared with the coming of rain.

My steps came to a halt, cold prickling for a second then turning into a full-blown explosion. A dark spear of his powers struck, splintering through my vulnerable side where it was uncovered by the armor.

I sucked in a breath, falling to my knees then curling on my unwounded side on the ground.

There were two screams, their voices unfamiliar to my hazy and slowing brain.

The blow was unexpected, my light and magic's guard being lowered just enough for the split second, allowing the dark tendril to break past my defense and penetrate the only light I had left.

I blinked through the involuntary tears, turning rigidly to look at the wound.

A pure black throwing knife was wedged in my side, disappearing in a flurry of shadows a second later. Black liquid bubbled from it, sinking into my skin and spreading through my veins.

Darkness was creeping up, its claws raking down my body to torture me before penetrating my mind.

The feeling of its evil snickering and mocking taunts were familiar, triggering the memories of my time with Schlatt to resurface. This process of possession had been felt before, not too many months ago.

Not again, never again.

Two sets of hands grabbed at me, my body being moved to be cradled. I was between two people, my chest plate slipping off of me in pieces.

A hand waved in front of my face, drawing me back to reality.

It was raining, I realized. A full storm covering our heads, thunder rumbling, and droplets beginning to fall in attempts to wash away the blood on the mountain.

"Y/n! Dammit, say something!" Someone, Tommy, was shouting right above me.

I blinked away the fog, Tommy and Tubbo's fear-stricken faces coming back into focus. Tears dripped down both of their faces, dropping onto my face to mix with the first droplets of rain.

As thunder growled, the rain turning into a steady drizzle with my magic's slow breathing, I could feel the darkness lingering like a hawk about to snatch up its prey with sharp talons and pointed beak.

Red dripped away with the rain from my side, where an unnaturally dark weapon had dug deep into my skin and even further into my heart.

Hah, of course. Schlatt had said the darkness would destroy me.

"You were supposed to stay away," I mumbled through the pain, letting my words carry up.

Tommy clutched my shoulder, reaching over me to press a hand to my side. It wouldn't slow the blood though, not when the cut was too deep and my magic was too exhausted to save me despite its struggles.

"You and Tubbo need to go home, he's gone now," I said quietly, lightly laying my hand over Tommy's on my side. "Take Dream with you, he's free."

The two boys glanced over to where I couldn't see but I knew Dream was there, still unaware of his surroundings and the fact that I was dying, life slipping through my trembling fingers.

It wasn't his fault, he had the darkness in him far longer than any of us, his body left shattered and mind reeling. Who knew how long it would be before he could recognize his surroundings.

Tubbo's voice cracked as he spoke, turning his desperate eyes back to me, "We aren't leaving you. We can save this, you'll be alright."

Numbness crept up my limbs, pins and needles pricking at me. It spread like ice in deathly temperatures, freezing over the warm wells inside of myself that were full of light and magic and killing the flowers that bloomed by them.

I had two options here, both equally as tragic and hard.

The first was to give in to the darkness and let myself be consumed by it, allowing for my future to take a turn like Schlatt's or even DreamXD's. There would be no gracious and heroic return, no light left to save me.

I would be lost to the darkness, a permanent prisoner in its cold hold.

My friends and family would suffer, and the symphony would continue its dark harmony, only crescendoing and picking up speed with my morality turn.

There would be no human part of myself left, devoured whole by the wild animal waiting low in my gut, ready to attack as soon as I surrendered to it in hopes of living.

I remembered the way it felt to be trapped inside the prison in my own body, forced to my knees while watching my hands destroy and hurt everything I loved. It had broken me, severing the tender love and light.

So I chose my second option, clinging to the last piece of myself that was alive and beating with my heart.

Blood trickled down my face, leaking from my broken nose. "I don't think this can be fixed."

The words were simple and short, but each syllable articulated felt like another stab to the wound just above my scar from Wilbur, stabbing into the bright bubble of spirit.

Tommy's face was the first to break, a tremor echoing through his body before his wings were pulled out instinctively. They wrapped around Tubbo and over me to shield the rain as he shook with pain.

Tubbo was next, the realization of the situation set in. Tears came quicker and his fists clenched my navy hoodie for support, trying to pull the scattered pieces of my health back together.

I tried my best to smile, flinching with the retaliation of the darkness. "You two take care of each other, alright? Tommy, your deal with Punz worked, they'll be here soon."

Tommy didn't seem to care though, shaking his head. Droplets were sent flying from his sunshine hair, reminding me of a memory of sitting on the beach with him a year ago.

The ocean had been easy and sparkling under the afternoon summer sun, heating our laughter and teasing. Who knew we would be here a year later, the sun now hidden away and replaced with rain.

He clenched his jaw, then he pressed harder against my wound in a desperate attempt to save me. I barely felt it, the darkness buffering the feeling as it sunk its teeth in deeper, making my veins turn black.

My time was running out, the sun disappearing behind the thunder clouds.

His voice was rough and broken in a desperate plea, "I'll tell your story. I'll make sure everyone knows that you saved us, you were the one to end him, y/n. You saved us all."

"But the Egg-"

"No, he's right. Your light saved us," Tubbo said, silencing my doubts and spiraling thoughts. "We'll make sure to take care of everyone, just like you did."

Suddenly there were quick steps and another shadow loomed over the three of us. The teens visibly cringed and brought me closer to them in protection, their hands sinking into my hoodie.

Dream's mask was missing, his eyes bright and green, but there was a wild flurry in them. When they settled on Tommy's bloodied hand at my side and the dark veins on my too-pale skin, he broke.

"Oh my god, y/n," He muttered, doubt clear in his voice. "No, no, no, this can't be happening."

Dream pulled me out of the teens' grasp, laying me against his chest. Blood instantly soaked his hoodie, his armor not there to protect his clothing from my wound as he gently rocked the two of us.

"You'll be okay, we can fix-" He muttered, trying to press both of his hands to my side.

"Dream, we can't. This is the price for DreamXD's death," I said in a whisper, not being able to speak any louder. "I'm the price."

"No you can't be, I was the price," He said, anger at the world rising in him. "I just got you back, you can't leave already."

My hand shook violently as I lifted it to place against Dream's unscarred face. Tears were pouring out of his eyes, a rare sight I'd only seen a few times before but this time the tears were unnoticed.

Some dropped onto me, others falling to the marled ground and sinking into the ground, seeds of grief and agonizing pain planted to never grow or touch the sun.

He sagged under my touch as I tried my best to rub my thumb across his now healed face. The light I had used to break the dark god controlling him had not only freed him but also healed his scars.

"This is different. I'm not leaving you, I'll still be watching," I said, a sob creeping up into my voice. "If you miss me, just look to the stars."

The emotion had stayed at bay for a little while with the immediate shock, but now it rose, breaking past my lips silently. There wasn't enough energy or will left in me to make it audible.

Dream leaned over quickly and pressed his lips to mine, one last act of love to both of our dismays. No embers exploded from me and my magic could no longer rise to meet his awaiting love.

There was desperation and longing in the kiss, his mind still not wrapping around the idea of what was about to happen.

When he pulled back, I tugged my cracked and split lips into a weak smile to mutter, "I'll love you till the end and beyond, Dream."

Dream broke all over again, his body trembling. His voice was raw with fresh tears, "I'll love you longer than that, into infinity. But please don't leave, it was supposed to be me and you till the end."

His plea struck a chord in me, the last vibration strumming through my slowing heart.

This was it, the last of my own symphony.

"I-" I choked on my last breath. "I'm sorry."

My song hadn't been pretty or even in tune, but the last few notes of my symphony were heart-wrenching and sudden. The orchestra of heartstrings and steady beats hit their instruments with a staccato ending, abruptly surprising the audience.

No one had seen this coming, not even the conductor as they lowered their baton in a slow swipe, signaling the end of the song.

The instruments' pulse faded away, the deep and unsteady hum sending one last shot through the audience as they held their breath and bowed their heads.

I gave into my second option of leaving this world, slamming the darkness out of my body with the last of my strength and magic, fracturing my soul into pieces of glimmering glass.

The darkness was sent down to where the rest of DreamXD's smokey form, but not without the cost of my life.

After Tommy had been exiled, I had promised myself that I would take the world down around me if I had to in order to free him and my friends.

Here I was, taking down the corruption of a dark god, not quite all of the darkness, but enough to rip my magic in two and carry me away with the dark smoke.

But I wouldn't sink into the earth as a puff of smoke, no, I would rise with the sunbeams into the awaiting stars beyond.

I grasped the last ray of golden sunlight that bloomed like lotuses and trickled like a small stream, letting it carry me away to the world above in the effort to save myself and the rest of the world.

When my eyes closed and the last feather-light breath spilled over my still lips, Dream let out a shattered and inhuman scream, shaking for me to come back.

Tubbo and Tommy cowered away, holding each other for warmth and support as sobs racked their bodies. The disc and mask behind them were long forgotten, my still form being their only focus.

A small army was appearing in bits and pieces over the side of the mountain with the purple shards of ender pearls. It hurt my heart to see that Techno and Sapnap were leading them, not able to see my body yet.

And as the clouds began to cloud my vision, I wondered if I was being taken to a place where I never had to fear how bright the sun really shone or how high the stars really went.

The sunny laughter of my mother, clearer than ever, and Wilbur's strumming guitar was my response as I turned away and lifted my face to the sun.

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well chat, that was painful

HEY YOU ALL WANTED A SAD ENDING SO IM JUST FEEDING YOU WHAT YOU WANTED

i hope you all don't mind me uploading so many days in a row, I'm just very impatient :) so if you all don't care, the alternative epilogue and the final words will be out tomorrow.

i love you all, and I'm so proud of u. Stay strong